Studying this wk isn't the only thing tt's sapping me off my energy... Even the exercise's draining my energy like some black hole... The bottom line??? I'm absolutely not productive @ all, esp from [Thurs] onwards...
So what's the biggie??? Hmmm... Immediately after our long wk end break's over, the girls in my class decided to take their [NAFA] test, thier 2.4km run... All of them did better than usual and I even paced [Sheryl] @ her 5th & last lap... So it wasn't tt much, I know... But it's still draining a wee bit of my energy and this summation of leakages won't be small...
The worst energy sapping activity occured yesterday when we guys had our [NAFA] test, all 6 stations!!! It started @ [1700 hrs] and ended @ close to [1900 hrs]... I was lamenting abt the late hours and was abt to emit waves of negative vibes... However, the girls from my class decided to cheer and support me on (and the rest of the guys of course)... Now this gave me a little bit of confidence to excel in some of the stations...
Well, I tried my best in those tt I know I can pass, like the run, I clocked like 12mins 37s... I don't think I've ever ran tt fast before... As for the rest of the stations, I'm not sure if I made it in [Shuttle Run]... I got 10.6s... Not sure whether for a 17 yr old, is it a pass or fail... Haha... Who cares??? Now tt it's over, I'll now have 1 last thing on my mind to worry abt...
Funny huh... I used to be unaffected by the poor performance in the sporting arena as I tried to use my intellect to cover tt enlarging weakness of mine... Yet now, I'm stressed out over tt inevitable failure... I guess it's the gilrs... They cheer me on and if I turn a deaf ear on them, I'll portray a mean image... What's worse is tt I don't have the mindset to exercise, or to be active in sports... I know they mean well and would not like me to suffer an additional 3 more mths in NS... But truth be told, what are my chances of skipping tt 3 mths??? Given my current status, fail in [Standing Broad Jump], [Pull Up] and possibly [Shuttly Run] as well, from a 'Nil' to a 'Silver' is quite an impossible feat you know...
Okay, so 1 factor is my reluctance to train... But tt arise because I know my limits... And the opportunity cost incurred is quite high if I allocate more resources to exercise instead of studying... Hecne, I would rather partial specialise in playing games and studying...
I'll put an abrupt stop to tt topic now and hop to the next... I'm more aware of my weakness recently... More aware of how strong other's vocab are, and how good they are in certain subject... Take for example today during [GP]... When we're discussing abt the [GE], I knew nuts to nth abt what they're talking abt... I was like stoning there and trying to catch onto what's the issue... But I just can't grab hold of the ball... The woes of having a deficiency of general knowledge...
It doesn't end there... Just a couple of days ago, I noticed a crack on [ShunMing]'s [Frozen Throne] disc which I'm sure wasn't there mths ago... Now this overtly showed tt I've broke his disc... I feel so bad abt tt cause his property's destroyed while it's in my care... Me!!! Of all ppl, must break his disc!!! Me, a person who looks after his belonging as if t they're my precious ones, just have to break, of all the disc in the whole universe, my best friend's most valued disc... I haven't account for it and I plan to replace the disc with a new one... Money woes just came crashing down onto me even before I can even earn my keep... Imagine how much worse it'll get when I'm finally working!!!
*Long sigh*... Guess I'll stop here... But befroe this entry can end, here's a little food for thought again:
'He who fights and run away will live to fight another day; but he who's in a battle slain will never get to fight again...'
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