I'm still troubled over my promotion in a couple of days' time... I don't know whether to embrace it as I'm getting some valuable exp to issues like auditing as well as interpersonal skills... Or to dread it due to the interpersonal skills tt I'll be forced to take up and the heavy workload... I'm trying very hard to be optimistic abt it and I've been telling myself tt everything will work out fine... Maybe the job isn't as 'screwed up' as it's protrayed to be... The current person holding tt position could've done the work poorly, thus incurring the constant 'feedback' from his boss to improve... It could be tt or tt the boss is simply demanding... Or both...
Oh crap, I'm turning out to sound like [SL] in his last few entries... Worrying abt what's in store for him when he's in the army and all when I resolve not to do tt as it's useless to worry so much... It's fatalistic, but do we have a choice??? I doubt it... We're unable to control or predict the future (tt's a fact) so why kill so many brain cells worrying abt what hell you'll be going through??? I should take my own advice and live life to the max, enjoying the present... By rotting and reading my novels tt I've recently borrowed from the library...
And now tt I've mentioned [SL], it's just a couple more days before he'll be released from his confinement and I can finally make earthly contact with him once more... Via mobile phones... He probably won't reply but I'll still SMS him once in a while and all... *Sigh* Guess by now, even a total stranger would've realised tt he's of some importance to me... I'm really a failure @ such stuff... Unable to let go after such a long time and accepting the fact tt our paths are parallel paths which will criss-cross only in the horizon - an illusion...
Of course, I've also been considering others... I'm not so shallow... I'm not only looking for looks... I'm looking for both looks and brains... And I do think my chances are like next to nil... Call it low self-esteem or whatever name you wanna give, but I do think tt no gay guy would spare me a second glance... A once over and I'm striked off as a potential BF... Those who does give a second glance are simply perverts, not gay... In the looks department, I think I'm on the verge of getting a 'U' (I do have some pride as well) and in the brains department, a 'B'... It's not a typo error... Doing very well in the 'A' Level doesn't mean tt I have brains... It's just means tt I'm a sponge... Good @ absorbing info and throwing it all back out with a squeeze... When it comes to other forms of intelligence - being street-smart, tech savy, well updated abt current affairs, etc - I'm just as clever as a bimbo... After all, my definition of current affairs is the previous day's new of who killed who in whatever country and causing tons of mayhem and chaos... Even when it comes to games... Well, let's just say tt I can barely make it through as I'm no pro in whatever games I play...
Oh well, before I end off this entry, I have a passing thought... Should I go do braces??? If I were to do them, I have to realign my jaw as well... Which means the painful (this is literally) process of breaking my jaw, align them, and fixing it back... And the braces??? I still have to extract 4 teeth out as well... The pain factor is giving me second thoughts and the whole not being able to eat solid food is freaking me out even more... Yet for the sake of looking better... *Sigh* This is making my head hurts... I don't wanna think of such things now... What I wanna do is to work, get paid, survive for another 20 mths, play tons of [MS] and relax... Yet my parents don't realise tt, insisting tt I should play less games and do some research of tt op before commiting moiself... *Groans* Parents... Tsk...
Can't wait for [Sat] for steamboat and [Thurs] for dinner with [DeClique]... I'll once again be the photographer for the former event... Heke... ^_^
P.S: Bitten with the [Harvest Moon] bug... I don't know why this is happening, but I just can't wait to be a farmer all of a sudden... Not real life though... I'll die from staying too long under the sun... LOL... =P
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