It's all in the determination...
I've decided not to touch the com on any other days except Fridays and weekends, just like the past, when I'm still studying... And I've done it... No matter how itchy my fingers are, I've managed to restrain the impluse to turn on the switch and press the 'Power On' button... To myself, it's good to know tt there's still some semblance of control there for me, unlike those game addicts tt couldn't stop playing their games...
Good job in not playing [Cabal Online] for 4 days straight!!! *Pat on the shoulders*
Haha... I should get more credit as I'm still holding back tt gaming urge to do some blogging... [MJ] is right, excessive gaming will destroy the whatever social circle tt I have... Not tt the circle is very big or anything, but it's tough to back to my old self, the social-less, lonely guy tt everyone shuns... I refuse to go back to tt kinda life... Having those 'hi-bye' friends is better than having no friends @ all (kinda obvious, isn't it)...
Keeping true to my words once again, I did watched [Eternal Summer] during the weekends... I've admitted tt I don't really understand the movie... But what struck my raw nerves is the friendship b/w [Johnathan] and [Shane]... I envy their friendship, one tt's able to last for so long... Haha... In a sense, I longed for such similiar relationship as well cause I think tt it's really nice to have someone who's always there when you need him... *Sigh*
On a side note, I think I had a relapse of lusting over guys again... Must be the sudden switch back to reality tt's causing this... Anyway, I was doing my morning run as usual in camp and there's this fit guy who took off his shirt as he was running pass me... I almost forgot to breath as I saw his back view, which is bad enough... Thank goodness he didn't run in the opposite direction or I would've a heart attack there and then... *Nose bleed*
2 mths... Tt's how long I've tried asking he-who-must-not-be-mentioned out and every reply tt I received was a rejection... Every week, the reason provided was either he's busy in camp, have some committments, etc... What's more irritating is tt if the plan was sent too early, he can't commit... Which is illogical as the whole point of asking him in advance is to secure a booking 1st... If it's work, I can understand... But if the reason is tt you've agreed to attend some Tom, Dick or Harry's function when I've 1 st, then tt's rubbish as it defeats the initial purpose of advanced booking, which means rejected any other engagements on tt same day...
My inferior self is nagging tt this display of rejection blatanly means tt he's avoiding me @ all cost... A theory [SH] is all too happy to support... I'm trying to accept tt but the moment he replied my e-mail which I've sent to him @ work totally throw all senses and resolve tt I have out of the window...How much more of an idiot can I get???
Oh well... Same old problem, same old complains... Not gonna think abt it anymore... Off to watch [Neo Angelique Abyss], an anime which has lots of hot males... Gyaa!!!
