I should refrain from counting the number of chicks even before they hatch, so everything is still undecided, unconfirmed... 1 thing is for sure though, I've still not a freaking clue as to whether I'm really, ready to be in a relationship...
The angel a.k.a my rational mind is saying tt I'm simply not ready... With gaming, animes and novels occupying my leisure time, I hardly have enough time left to actually participate in the whole dating process... Besides, when I actually enter [NUS] or [NTU], I wouldn't want to get distracted from my studies... I really have to put in more effort to restore all those dead brain cells, which is easier said than done... LOL...
Then the devil a.k.a my feelings is telling me to screw it and just to give it a try... It's not an everyday occurance tt some older guy will come knocking on my door to befriend me... If I screw this up, when my next chance will coming banging on the door is anyone's guess... Besides, I'm just dying to find out how the feeling's like...
Which doesn't mean tt I'll just jump head first into the pool, even though the devil is telling me to... The rational mind is still talking sense into me... I'm going to take baby steps, try out the baby pool first before venturing deeper... Yet whether I'll do as what my brains tell me, I've no idea... The barrier tt's preventing me from making some stupid, idiotic, irrational decision is like paper... Anytime, it'll break and tear...
*Groans*... I'm not making sense...Then again, emotions hardly make any sense... *Screams in fustration*
Like my whirlpool of thoughts, I'm totally messed up... Ugh, my desires and hormones are driving me crazy...
