Every human being on Earth should have a distinct character on his own, which made them different, stand out... Yet, do I have a personality of my own??? I've been thinking abt this of late and after tt self-reflection, I've come to conclude tt I don't really have a character tt's uniquely mine... Like in [Coffee Prince], whenever you mention [Encan], a particular person and character comes to mind... Okay, if tt's too extreme, then if I mention [Cass], automatically, the image of her as well as tt of an auntie, mixed specially with a pinch of slack-ness comes into view...
What can you say abt myself??? What image do I conjure up??? What type of person am I??? Which is the real me??? Is it the face which I usually wore to work or the face tt my friends usually sees me in or the one which I'm currently wearing @ home, whatever those faces are???
Fact is, the hypocrisy @ work has made me lose the me tt defines me... Or maybe I don't have a unique me to speak of in the 1st place... Sometimes I wish I'm [Honey-senpai] or [Mori-senpai] or certain real life ppl whom I've known for quite awhile... Maybe all these copying has made me lose my true self, causing me to lose my identity...
Am I suffering from an identity crisis??? Or perhaps the art of copying those characters is what defines me??? When will the answer to tt and more comes??? All in due time, I guess....
I'm very disappointed today cause my plan to go [ECP] for some cycling has been cancelled due mainly to the unforeseen change in weather and partly to [SL]'s inability to join us @ the last min... I was tempted to cancel the outing the moment he told me he couldn't make it... The part of me tt's gotten over him decided to carry on anyway as he's no VIP or equivalent... Guess Fate decided to play a prank on me by making it rain heavily in the morning, resulting in the remaining ppl losing their resolve to meet up @ the East as they feared tt the rain will last throughout the country and day, as predicted by the weather forecast...
I should've called and discussed with them before I headed out of the house upon knowing tt the rain's quite heavy... As to why I didn't, I could only say tt I banking on the rain easing up soon... As a result of tt, I made a wasted trip to [Clementi] and back...
I should've made use of this failed outing to catch [L: Change The World]... Darn it... Ended up watching [Ghost Rider] @ home instead till around lunch time, whereby water stopped falling from the sky and the skies was cloudy and cooling... Nice weather to cycle, if you asked me...
I've learnt from a long time ago tt you can never accurately predict the weather... Raining throughout the country and day??? Puh-leaze...
Am I mad with this??? Or am I mad with myself for not thinking ahead - of not consulting the rest before I head out of my house and ended up wasting money on useless trips???.What am I frustrated with???
