SNEC...

Headed to [Singapore National Eye Centre] (SNEC) for my eye checkup... It's an annual affair, so no need to be too concern or anything...

I was expecting the usual procedures, where they check my peripheral vision, eye pressure & sight... Yet they didn't do all of tt... Instead, they checked my eye pressure & sight only... Funny huh, doing tt 2 things have to drag for like 2 hrs... Yet when you visit any specs shop, you could get the above mentioned done in like an hour... Well, SNEC's the best in [S'pore] after all and it's crowded in there...

When it's consultation time with the doc, she checked my retina once again and repeated her speech regarding my eye condition us once again like she did the year before and the year before tt... It's the usual, you know, tt my side vision is narrowing and I should eat more fruits, veggies and exercise more so tt I can obtain more antioxidants to slow down the degradation process... Moreover, it's after all still not advisable for me to have high dosage of Vitamin A and whatever they'll prescribe to me cause those will affect my liver *gulp*...

My point??? It's the usual routine... Yet I hate the part when I have to dilate my pupils... I become far-sighted as everything nearer than 30 cm from my eyes instantly becomes a blur and I feel like a flare has exploded right in front of me... The surrounding has it's brightness adjusted to the max, it's freaking bright... Not a good experience... Thank goodness tt only lasts for 2 hrs max...

My eye condition got me thinking... Since the doctor has already given me the death-sentance, tt I'll be downgraded when I'm serving NS (yes, I'm destined to do NS after all), doing those 9 to 5 kinda jobs, I guess I better stop wishing tt my eye sight worsen... Such negativity, you muse... Yet my mindset before this is to try to skip NS @ all cost... Now I figure tt I better make my life as meaningful before all is lost... Better study hard, get into exam mood, stop obsessing abt relationships, etc...

Noticed tt I used 'obsessing' for the relationship probs tt I'm facing (I'm not in a relationship and tt itself is a prob)... This is because I'll never stop worrying abt tt... Face it... Which sane human would not care abt relationships @ any pt in life??? So as I was saying, I should stop obsessing and move on... It's ironic but this thought actually flashed through my mind... Tt the reason I don't wanna go blind so fast is because I wanna see him... Okay, [YH], you can seriously slap me... [Cass] and [SH] too... I think you can use a sledgehammer and hit me to oblivation...

Now this brings me to yet another pt... Tt I'm currently unable to move on because I still have hope... Now is hope a good or bad thing??? Some may insist tt it's good because when there's hope, there'll be miracles... Like when disaster stikes, you'll hope tt you and all your love ones are safe and sound... Now this kinda hope is overtly good... Yet when you hope for things tt will never be yours in your entire life, hope morphs into some hideous monster tt's out to devour you... It becomes twisted and foul, an entity tt you will wish to stangle and kill and escape from it's grasp as soon as possible... Now you do know why it comes from [Pandora's Box]...

P.S: I'm not so great to actually potray hope like this... I actually got my inspiration from the book [Fearless]... It's a good book, with a little humour, good phrases and an unique way of writing... ^_^