It's nearing impossible for me to blog on a weekly basis, mainly because there's not much going on in my life and my inner thoughts are getting increasingly messy, rendering myself unable to really put them in words...
Besides, I've never been much of a diary person and I've to admit, my initial purpose of starting this blog is to get the attention of my friends... Of course, with most of them no longer checking on my blog, blogging has been much like crapping in front of a wall...
So yeah... I'm now blogging mainly because I don't feel like playing games and I'm bored... In fact, for this post, I'm just blabbering just so tt I could keep myself occupied while my pics get uploaded on [PhotoBucket]...
Time seemed to be a jumble... Was it last wk or 2 wks ago tt I spoke to [MJ]??? Well, regardless of when, the fact is tt I did spoke to her and I would say tt she has been really patient to lend a listening ear to me, @ the time when I'm feeling so darn troubled...
'What do I really want???'
I'm now seeking the answer to this question... Am I really looking for someone whom I can spend the rest of my life with??? A sex partner??? A once off fling??? Or simply friends??? Frankly speaking, I still can't figure tt out for myself...
LOL... And it's usually @ this point where I'll usually stop whatever I'm blogging and simply push it to the back of my mind, ignoring it and simply deny the existence of such a prob... This time however, I've actually state the prob in words, admit tt I've no a single clue to this solution and wish like hell for an answer key...
I guess the state tt I'm in is all of my own doing... If only I'm contented with what I have and not constantly try to obtain what I would like to have, I'll definitely be a happier person...
I'm now in the vast open field, surrounded by fog w/o a working iPhone...
