Friends...

It's in my nature to think more than I should really do, thinking of issues that are of little importance @ the extent of the lives of thousands of brain cells, amplifying their importance to an idiotic lv... When I could've used those pityful cells for other more pressing tasks @ hand, like concentrating on my studies...

Out of all those senseless issues, the only 1 tt bugged me the most is tt of friendship... Thinking back, I do regret not being more out-going, more friendly... I missed tt only chance of learning how to make friends... You might argue tt I was young then... Yet when I entered secondary sch, I realised tt the world out there is truly an ugly one... There'll be ppl tt'll dislike you, make fun of you, leaving an enotional wound so hugh tt time can't even heal it...

Instead, I was tricked into seeing a counsellor by a friend of mine... I didn't blame him... Rather, I'm grateful for tt... Because of him, I managed to overcome those name-callings, even accepting 1 of the nickname... Hence friends can be a good thing...

Yet up till now, I still don't know how to actually make friends... As the saying goes, 'Once bitten, twice shy'... After being the subject of name-calling from those whom I treated as friends, I'm afraid tt the same fate will befall on me once again... Thus I steered clear of strangers, preferring to hang abt ppl whom I know, who took initiative to befriend me... Those are the ppl whom I really trusts and don't really mind the real me...

Of course, the ppl tt really now me, none of them are guys... You can say tt I'm more comfortable in the company of females, gossiping of the latest news and all, rather than talking abt sports and spewing profanities like it's a pleasant word... To me, profanities in whatever language or dialect it's in is like how most ppl are perceiving [Paris]'s [Stars Are Blind]... Tt's why I dislike the company of guys... Yet I yearned to be in the embrace of 1 as well... Ironic...

Tt aside, it's sad how some ppl are so simple minded tt the actions they do or the words they say can influence my friends, turning them against me or simply causing the friendship to turn sour...These ppl jumped to conclusions upon the images tt they saw, unaware of the whole picture, fabricating stories to such an extent tt my friends are very much affected...

In the past, I'll be affected by it... However, tt's the past moi... The current me is totally immune to those gossips... Instead, I'm very much intrigued to see how long they can actually be thrilled by those gossips tt they created out of their own boredom... These immature ppl are so idiotically childish they they ought to use their imagination for a greater good, like for they [PW] project or for [GP]...

I'm not going to use any profanities even though the thought of these bimbotic [J1] really make me wanna utter tt word... But I'll refrain from using tt word anyway as it's against my moral values...

Before I digress further, I'm bringing tt issue up because [Bec]'s classmates saw me and her together and wrongly assumed tt the 2 of us are a couple... Tt's an insult to [Bec] herself... I know I should be saying tt... But seriously, I do feel tt she really needs a knight in shining armour, not some clown waiting for his king... So the rumour's there and this really infuriates me...

Are teenagers a year younger than me tt much immature??? Or is it because those snakes have been hybernating way to long tt they miss the evolution in society - tt it's normal for a male and female to be together as friends??? The mere mention of those girls made my blood boil... Can't believe tt such bimbotic bitches actually can survive up till now... Their extinction is long overdue... Grow up for the love of humanity!!!