You must be thanking the deities tt I'm not complaining abt [CMPB] again... Since it's over, I'll just let it pass... It's useless bringing up what I detest the most over and over again... Tt'll make me 1 very unhappy & crappy person... Ya... So I'll let my nostalgic self take over...
I was @ [Swensen's] the day before with [Sis] and [Mum]... Not having lunch there... We've just won ourselves a $10 discount coupond so we've decided to have some desserts there... Ain't it obvious tt we're gonna eat ice-cream??? Yummy...
Ordered 1 serving of fries for everyone to share, [Mum] had the soup of the day, [Sis] shared the waffle ice-cream with [Mum] and I had 3 scoops of ice-cream all to myself!!! *Evil laughter*... I'm so greedy... After all, I do have a knack for sweet stuff...
I ordered a [Double Berry] - strawberry ice cream with layers of blueberry topping and peach chunks complement ol' fashioned vanilla ice cream (I just cut & paste the description from the menu)... It's not tt delicious cause the topping isn't all tt sweet... The fries was nice though... ^_^
As I was eating my dessert, I was thinking abt how starting eating such ice-cream... The person who introduced me to the ice-cream... I was thinking abt [YS] and the time went we went to [Swensen's] after watching [Twin's Effect II] @ [JP]... You should be amazed by my memory... Still capable of remembering the details even though it has been 2 yrs...
I remembered tt she played a prank on my and I dumbly fell for it... Dumb me... Blame me for being naive... She told me tt if you add chilli and tomato sauce together, it's actually an exothermic reaction, i.e heat will be evolved... Not believing, she added the 2 sauce together and I placed my hand over the mixture... PIAK!!! The next thing I know, my hand's smeared with the mixture... @ least she had a nice time playing the trick on me... And I didn't feel mad...
I had an enjoyable time... And it was fun while it lasted, before she told me some rather unplesant news... Tt she and him are attached... Nice huh... It's like some atomic bomb just came smashing straight into my being... Btw, I'm still recovering from the radiation tt's being emmited from the blast...
Tt aside, 8 days have passed since [YH] left for her hols in [China]... And this is weird... Normally, it doesn't really matter where she is cause we won't be meeting up... She's in poly and I'm in JC... We hardly have the time to chat... Yet when she's on her hols, I've this emptyness feeling once in a while... Probably cause I've no one to chat with on the phone, no one to SMS to when I'm bored, no tags from her on my tag board... The feeling's just different... I think tt's the result of having too much time on your hand and not wanting to study...
*Sigh* I shall not ponder any more abt any issues or else I'll think more abt the pass... Here's more food-for-thought...
If I'm to advertise my hunt for a BF...
L >> BF tt's caring, protective, sensitive to my feelings, doesn't despise the handicapped, hug-able, good-looking, always have a listening ear, do have a sense of hunour, can start a conversation... If I have more wants, I'll add them... Tt's all for now...
Tt's demanding right??? Now let's see what I have to offer...
S >> Guy tt's 40% feminine, afraid of virtually all kinda insects, likes to be hugged, isn't all tt good looking, a little lame, doesn't like shopping, likes mapling, sucks @ DOTA, partially blind, need security, very emotional... Ya... Tt's abt it... Think I'll find a partner???
Monday, June 19, 2006
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
CMPB Revisited...
A little background info before we proceed...
PES A - Fit for all operational vocations
PES B - Fit for most operational vocations
PES C - Fit for some operational and service vocations
PES D - Temporary unfit and pending further medical review
PES E - Fir for sedentary deployment
PES F - Unfit for any form of service
Yupz... You should have a rough idea what is the issue @ hand here... To those not having a clue to what I'm writing, I'm talking abt the medical grades tt guys are being pasted with once their med check-up's done... Btw, we not talking abt just a grade... Somehow, the boys take big pride on what letter they're being associated with... Figures...
I'm kicking up a big fuss here cause I've nth better to do now and I don't wanna watch TV... If you can't stand me whining, then go search for some other manly blogs... Yes, my other half has offically taken over (for now tt is)... Congrates!!!
Back to the point... I was @ tt wretched CMPB and I overheard a guy (not my type cause he's to sporty and he look anti-gay) bragging to his friend tt he's [PES A]... His friends are PES B, not tt it'll make much difference... Hey, an 'A' is always regarded as top, you know, THE BEST...
Thank goodness I do not know him and neither is he my friend (I'll never associate with those kinda guys... I'll never click with them...) or else I'll be the laughing stock in their gang cause I'm currently being associated with a 'D', not tt I mind or give a damn abt it...
Frankly speaking, when it comes to sports, I'm not stressed up on failing since I'm never good @ any sports and never will be cause I never will want to... Imagine all those sweat!!! Ewww!!! Talking abt major detoxification... I'm not against detox... But when guys do the sweating thing, they douse themselves in so much deodorant, they could've empty the whole can in just a spray... What's worse, the diffusion of those deodorant particales gags me... So hate those guys...
I've lamented enough... I'll stop complaining abt tt day... Wow... It's just a day and I've so much negativity to talk abt... Imagine the disdain I habour on [NS]... Anyway... I feel like I'm suffering from a kinda split-personality disorder... 1 side of me is the one who's only thinking abt playing, studying and dislikeing sports... The other side of me is the side tt's thinking abt guys and disliking sports... I'm trying to strike a balance here but the gay side of me is getting more powerful by the day... The urge to find a bf is getting harder and harder to resist... The thought of asking a guy for his hp no. keeping popping into my mind like some kinda idiotic pop-ad...
Guess I should seek out [Professor X] and get him to do the mind thingy, tossing the gay side of me to the back of my mind and be unlocked only when I'm being consumed by a flood... Or I could control tt side of myself till I'm done with my [NS]... Tt's 3 yrs we're talking abt and I might just go bonkers... ^_^
PES A - Fit for all operational vocations
PES B - Fit for most operational vocations
PES C - Fit for some operational and service vocations
PES D - Temporary unfit and pending further medical review
PES E - Fir for sedentary deployment
PES F - Unfit for any form of service
Yupz... You should have a rough idea what is the issue @ hand here... To those not having a clue to what I'm writing, I'm talking abt the medical grades tt guys are being pasted with once their med check-up's done... Btw, we not talking abt just a grade... Somehow, the boys take big pride on what letter they're being associated with... Figures...
I'm kicking up a big fuss here cause I've nth better to do now and I don't wanna watch TV... If you can't stand me whining, then go search for some other manly blogs... Yes, my other half has offically taken over (for now tt is)... Congrates!!!
Back to the point... I was @ tt wretched CMPB and I overheard a guy (not my type cause he's to sporty and he look anti-gay) bragging to his friend tt he's [PES A]... His friends are PES B, not tt it'll make much difference... Hey, an 'A' is always regarded as top, you know, THE BEST...
Thank goodness I do not know him and neither is he my friend (I'll never associate with those kinda guys... I'll never click with them...) or else I'll be the laughing stock in their gang cause I'm currently being associated with a 'D', not tt I mind or give a damn abt it...
Frankly speaking, when it comes to sports, I'm not stressed up on failing since I'm never good @ any sports and never will be cause I never will want to... Imagine all those sweat!!! Ewww!!! Talking abt major detoxification... I'm not against detox... But when guys do the sweating thing, they douse themselves in so much deodorant, they could've empty the whole can in just a spray... What's worse, the diffusion of those deodorant particales gags me... So hate those guys...
I've lamented enough... I'll stop complaining abt tt day... Wow... It's just a day and I've so much negativity to talk abt... Imagine the disdain I habour on [NS]... Anyway... I feel like I'm suffering from a kinda split-personality disorder... 1 side of me is the one who's only thinking abt playing, studying and dislikeing sports... The other side of me is the side tt's thinking abt guys and disliking sports... I'm trying to strike a balance here but the gay side of me is getting more powerful by the day... The urge to find a bf is getting harder and harder to resist... The thought of asking a guy for his hp no. keeping popping into my mind like some kinda idiotic pop-ad...
Guess I should seek out [Professor X] and get him to do the mind thingy, tossing the gay side of me to the back of my mind and be unlocked only when I'm being consumed by a flood... Or I could control tt side of myself till I'm done with my [NS]... Tt's 3 yrs we're talking abt and I might just go bonkers... ^_^
Monday, June 12, 2006
CMPB...
The accused waited nervously in his seat, fidgeting every other second as beads of sweat started to form on his forehead... Murmurs could be heard from the jury's direction... This is it, thought the accused, they're going to announce their decision... Anytime now...
True enough, a representative of the jury submited the decision to the judge and the judge took a look @ the decision and smiled... The accused was hyperventilating now... He knew he's doomed... The consequence of being framed for murder is the death penalty... The accused shut his eyes and waited for the judge to announce the verdict... It's either guilty or not guilty, thought the accused (fei hua!!!)... Just make it quick gawdamnit!!!
'The jury has yet to come to a decision and the trial will be postpone to the following week,' boomed the voice from above... The accused did a double-take... He hadn't heard wrongly has he??? He's safe, yet not totally safe, for now... There was a hint of a smile as he was lead back to his cell admist the chaos tt the witnesses are creating upon hearing the annoucement, condemning the jury...
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The above scenerio is the emotional roller-coaster tt I've been through today... I was apprehensive when I was on my way towards the [Central Manpower Base] (CMPB)... You can say tt the apprehension was so strong tt I'm on the verge of breaking down in public like some lunatic... Thankfully I didn't or else I wouldn't be typing this anyway... You might be wondering why would I be afraid as it's just a medical screening... Ya... It is JUST a medical screening which I'VE NEVER BEEN TO before... This is my 1st time and since when did 1st time DIDN'T carry the connotation of afraid??? You're afraid when you enter K1, afraid when you go to a new sch and start your 1st day there... Now don't tell me you've never been through tt phase as tt'll be a load of bull... Yes, I'm digressing...
Back to the pt... I'm afraid as yes, it's my 1st time and the root of the fear is the thought of stripping... After all, it is a full-body check-up and the last time I came across tt word, taking off your clothes is a must... So pior to today, I actually tried to talk myself into loving my body... But when I'm abt to accept tt my body isn't tt worst off as compared to any ordinary guy tt you can simply pick off from the street, the Demon Of Fear just have to visit me and insert images of a crowded CMPB, where everyone is snickering @ me... So tt's where my major freaking out came abt... Welcome to my insecure life...
Ya... I finally arrived @ CMPB @ abt 0930 hrs (my appointment's @ 1000 hrs), talk abt being early... And I actually chanced upon [Gen]!!! Surprise!!! So both of us entered building together and I've noticed something... The soldiers there lack hospitality... So maybe it's a place where you research for upgrades on defenses... But knowing tt there'll be visitors, couldn't they show some hospitality??? Like put a smile on your face and don't buzz us off with a wave of your finger for instance... How impolite... Tt's -10 on a scale of 0 to 10 on the hospitality scale...
Uh huh... [Gen] & I finally made our way into CMPB and we just followed instructions on where to go, what to do, stuff like tt... And I tell you... Those ppl there sure have a bad impression of almost everyone, fancy treating everyone of us like convicts... We're still studying or have just completed our studies... We're still the pure and innocent teenagers mind you, even though we're 18... Hey, in my context, 18 = teenager on the road to maturity...
Back to the pt... In CMPB, we have our photos taken first, with us wearing some kinda cadet-like shirt... Guess tt's for our identification when we surrender our IC as we enter NS... Then we register for the med check-up...
Med check-up... Stage 1's to test our hearing, not much of a problem there cause I'm not exactly deaf, though sometimes I appear to be... Stage 2's the eye check-up and this is the 'climax'... I shall devote a paragraph solely for this...
The examiners consist of 3 guys and a gal and only the gal give good vibes... The rest of the guys are cold towards us or doesn't even notice our ([Gen], me and some other guy whom I've never met... Probably from poly, rides a bike and is rather hot...) exsistance...
'Do you have any medical problems tt you would like to report???' The gal asked in a very polite tone... See??? Good vibes... The guys are just slacking anyway... Tsk...
I raised my hands and passed them all the documents tt I have... Guy #1 looked @ it and exclaimed, 'RP!!! Tt's a rare one...'
@ this pt of time, Guy #2 turns around and there's a look of EXCITEMENT (can you believe it?!) on his face... 'Wah!!! Surely must be those wanna escape NS one lor (bull's eye)... But RP!!! Tt's serious... 1st time seeing this case leh...' Then more talking b/w gal, Guy #1 & #2... Can't be bothered to listen anyway... Guy #2 looked @ my documents and turned to me and asked, with EXCITEMENT still plastered on his face, so can you see the outline of your bed w/o the lights???
'No... I can't even see a thing...' (DUH!!! Tt's why it's stated tt I have night blindness right?!)
'Then how can you go to the toilet @ night???'
With irritation, I replied curtly, 'I feel my way to the toilet...' (If you can't see, the next thing is to either on the lights or feel your way through... After all, IT IS MY HOUSE...) Actually, I should've replied tt I used my legs and walk to the toilet (obvious right?!)...
So what's the fuss??? For starters, when you encounter a person with a problem tt you've never even heard of, the reponse should be of CONCERN, NOT EXCITEMENT... They're acting like they've seen their idol or something, and are dying for a signature... Sheesh!!! Idiotic!!! I so feel like slapping their faces... Is not being able to see @ night such a good thing??? Is having my eye problem so interesting?! NO IT IS NOT!!! It's not when you keeping bumping into small kids and knocking them down and they cry, or you bump into ppl as they cut your path, or when you kick a chair tt's in the middle of the classroom, or when you smash your face into a tree trunk @ night, or when you fall into a drain in broad daylight or have someone to be your 3rd pair of eyes (I already have 2 pairs of eyes)... It's not interesting, not fun... Unless you are some sadistic psycho tt think tt being in pain is fun... *shivers*
There, pressure gone and I shall continue the check-up... Stage 3's urine and blood test (officer not friendly as well), Stage 4's dental, Stage 5's X-ray (officer quite friendly) and this is where you have to take off your top... So it's nice having to see some nice bods and not nice when the eyes are on my fair-yet-tainted-by-red-blotches skin... Oh and did I mention tt it's air-conditioned???
Stage 6's the body check-up... We're supposed to strip to our shorts only and do whatever tt tehy tell us to do... I can't get any more insecure than tt... Staring @ all those nice bods + nice face = almost let my gay half take over... I manage to control, thankfully... The last part of Stage 6's the consultation with some doc and he's one tt'll ask you take off everything, be in the buff... He'll ask you to cough and inspects you... Don't know what's it abt... Then he'll fire off a string of questions tt goes something like, have you taken drugs... esctasy... having tattoes... ketamine, being homosexual... ... I only manage to catch those words and the answer tt came outta my mouth is a simple 'no'... Once tt's done, I'm to proceed to Stage 7, where they'll ask you to sit in front (duh) of a com and do answer some qus...
The qus ranges from simple algebra, calculations, number sequences to Physics concept, memory work, analytical skills, imagination to your personal perferences... LOL... Wonder how they'll respond to my personal prefrences answers... Tt section gives 2 choices per qus and it goes something like...
1. I would like to try sky-diving...
2. I would never try to jump out of an airplane with or w/o a parachute...
So for tt qus which option do you think I'll choose??? It's obvious right??? Ya, and the respond's the same for every other of those similar qus...
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Wow... Can you believe it, tt's the whole of my med check-up and tt lasted for a shocking 5 hrs!!! Thank gawd it's over... Wait, no... It's not... I have to return there on 22/06 to have my eyes checked... ARGHH!!!
True enough, a representative of the jury submited the decision to the judge and the judge took a look @ the decision and smiled... The accused was hyperventilating now... He knew he's doomed... The consequence of being framed for murder is the death penalty... The accused shut his eyes and waited for the judge to announce the verdict... It's either guilty or not guilty, thought the accused (fei hua!!!)... Just make it quick gawdamnit!!!
'The jury has yet to come to a decision and the trial will be postpone to the following week,' boomed the voice from above... The accused did a double-take... He hadn't heard wrongly has he??? He's safe, yet not totally safe, for now... There was a hint of a smile as he was lead back to his cell admist the chaos tt the witnesses are creating upon hearing the annoucement, condemning the jury...
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The above scenerio is the emotional roller-coaster tt I've been through today... I was apprehensive when I was on my way towards the [Central Manpower Base] (CMPB)... You can say tt the apprehension was so strong tt I'm on the verge of breaking down in public like some lunatic... Thankfully I didn't or else I wouldn't be typing this anyway... You might be wondering why would I be afraid as it's just a medical screening... Ya... It is JUST a medical screening which I'VE NEVER BEEN TO before... This is my 1st time and since when did 1st time DIDN'T carry the connotation of afraid??? You're afraid when you enter K1, afraid when you go to a new sch and start your 1st day there... Now don't tell me you've never been through tt phase as tt'll be a load of bull... Yes, I'm digressing...
Back to the pt... I'm afraid as yes, it's my 1st time and the root of the fear is the thought of stripping... After all, it is a full-body check-up and the last time I came across tt word, taking off your clothes is a must... So pior to today, I actually tried to talk myself into loving my body... But when I'm abt to accept tt my body isn't tt worst off as compared to any ordinary guy tt you can simply pick off from the street, the Demon Of Fear just have to visit me and insert images of a crowded CMPB, where everyone is snickering @ me... So tt's where my major freaking out came abt... Welcome to my insecure life...
Ya... I finally arrived @ CMPB @ abt 0930 hrs (my appointment's @ 1000 hrs), talk abt being early... And I actually chanced upon [Gen]!!! Surprise!!! So both of us entered building together and I've noticed something... The soldiers there lack hospitality... So maybe it's a place where you research for upgrades on defenses... But knowing tt there'll be visitors, couldn't they show some hospitality??? Like put a smile on your face and don't buzz us off with a wave of your finger for instance... How impolite... Tt's -10 on a scale of 0 to 10 on the hospitality scale...
Uh huh... [Gen] & I finally made our way into CMPB and we just followed instructions on where to go, what to do, stuff like tt... And I tell you... Those ppl there sure have a bad impression of almost everyone, fancy treating everyone of us like convicts... We're still studying or have just completed our studies... We're still the pure and innocent teenagers mind you, even though we're 18... Hey, in my context, 18 = teenager on the road to maturity...
Back to the pt... In CMPB, we have our photos taken first, with us wearing some kinda cadet-like shirt... Guess tt's for our identification when we surrender our IC as we enter NS... Then we register for the med check-up...
Med check-up... Stage 1's to test our hearing, not much of a problem there cause I'm not exactly deaf, though sometimes I appear to be... Stage 2's the eye check-up and this is the 'climax'... I shall devote a paragraph solely for this...
The examiners consist of 3 guys and a gal and only the gal give good vibes... The rest of the guys are cold towards us or doesn't even notice our ([Gen], me and some other guy whom I've never met... Probably from poly, rides a bike and is rather hot...) exsistance...
'Do you have any medical problems tt you would like to report???' The gal asked in a very polite tone... See??? Good vibes... The guys are just slacking anyway... Tsk...
I raised my hands and passed them all the documents tt I have... Guy #1 looked @ it and exclaimed, 'RP!!! Tt's a rare one...'
@ this pt of time, Guy #2 turns around and there's a look of EXCITEMENT (can you believe it?!) on his face... 'Wah!!! Surely must be those wanna escape NS one lor (bull's eye)... But RP!!! Tt's serious... 1st time seeing this case leh...' Then more talking b/w gal, Guy #1 & #2... Can't be bothered to listen anyway... Guy #2 looked @ my documents and turned to me and asked, with EXCITEMENT still plastered on his face, so can you see the outline of your bed w/o the lights???
'No... I can't even see a thing...' (DUH!!! Tt's why it's stated tt I have night blindness right?!)
'Then how can you go to the toilet @ night???'
With irritation, I replied curtly, 'I feel my way to the toilet...' (If you can't see, the next thing is to either on the lights or feel your way through... After all, IT IS MY HOUSE...) Actually, I should've replied tt I used my legs and walk to the toilet (obvious right?!)...
So what's the fuss??? For starters, when you encounter a person with a problem tt you've never even heard of, the reponse should be of CONCERN, NOT EXCITEMENT... They're acting like they've seen their idol or something, and are dying for a signature... Sheesh!!! Idiotic!!! I so feel like slapping their faces... Is not being able to see @ night such a good thing??? Is having my eye problem so interesting?! NO IT IS NOT!!! It's not when you keeping bumping into small kids and knocking them down and they cry, or you bump into ppl as they cut your path, or when you kick a chair tt's in the middle of the classroom, or when you smash your face into a tree trunk @ night, or when you fall into a drain in broad daylight or have someone to be your 3rd pair of eyes (I already have 2 pairs of eyes)... It's not interesting, not fun... Unless you are some sadistic psycho tt think tt being in pain is fun... *shivers*
There, pressure gone and I shall continue the check-up... Stage 3's urine and blood test (officer not friendly as well), Stage 4's dental, Stage 5's X-ray (officer quite friendly) and this is where you have to take off your top... So it's nice having to see some nice bods and not nice when the eyes are on my fair-yet-tainted-by-red-blotches skin... Oh and did I mention tt it's air-conditioned???
Stage 6's the body check-up... We're supposed to strip to our shorts only and do whatever tt tehy tell us to do... I can't get any more insecure than tt... Staring @ all those nice bods + nice face = almost let my gay half take over... I manage to control, thankfully... The last part of Stage 6's the consultation with some doc and he's one tt'll ask you take off everything, be in the buff... He'll ask you to cough and inspects you... Don't know what's it abt... Then he'll fire off a string of questions tt goes something like, have you taken drugs... esctasy... having tattoes... ketamine, being homosexual... ... I only manage to catch those words and the answer tt came outta my mouth is a simple 'no'... Once tt's done, I'm to proceed to Stage 7, where they'll ask you to sit in front (duh) of a com and do answer some qus...
The qus ranges from simple algebra, calculations, number sequences to Physics concept, memory work, analytical skills, imagination to your personal perferences... LOL... Wonder how they'll respond to my personal prefrences answers... Tt section gives 2 choices per qus and it goes something like...
1. I would like to try sky-diving...
2. I would never try to jump out of an airplane with or w/o a parachute...
So for tt qus which option do you think I'll choose??? It's obvious right??? Ya, and the respond's the same for every other of those similar qus...
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Wow... Can you believe it, tt's the whole of my med check-up and tt lasted for a shocking 5 hrs!!! Thank gawd it's over... Wait, no... It's not... I have to return there on 22/06 to have my eyes checked... ARGHH!!!
Friday, June 09, 2006
NS, NS, NS, NS, NS!!!
'Eat faster, if not, how are you going to survive NS???'
'You should eat vegetables, if not, how can you survive NS???'
'I think you do more pumping... So as to prepare yourself for NS...'
'You're even afraid of an ant??? How can you survive NS?!'
'Shawn, you should train now because additional 3 mths is hell...'
The list goes on... Seriously, can't my life be 'NS-free' for a week?! No, scratch tt, make tt a mth... Zzz... I'm so stressed out by all those NS talk... All those nagging and advice tt I should perpare myself... Haven't they figure it out tt I'm turning both my deaf ears to all those incessant nagging??? *Sigh* Is it just me or is the world getting stupid???
Gee... All I want to say is tt can't those ppl shut up for once and stop reminding me of the impending doom tt I'm abt to witness first-hand?! *Exsperated* *Pause* Oh, wait, the world is getting more retarded!!! Let me explain... I'm supposed to head over to [CMPB] for my NS medical checkup... And the ppl there changed the building name w/o reflecting it on the brochures tt they issue out!!! So how on [Mother Nature] can normal civilains locate the place?! Sheesh!!! Is it just me thinking tt NS erase the part of your brain tt's responsible for common sense??? After all, the men are programmed to follow orders, not ponder over it... *More thinking*
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Oh gawd!!! This is my worse nightmare!!! In abt a yr's time, I'm going to be transformed into the type of guys tt I so destest!!! I'm so not going to thinking abt the other traits tt I'll be influenced into having... *Seriously grossed out*
And did I mention tt the HQ sent me a mail reminding me of my check-up on [Monday] yesterday??? I didn't... And did I tell you tt they sent me another SMS to remind me of the same old thing??? I didn't... But I did now and here's my conclusion: Either they think tt I'm a person having short term memory (which fortunately I'm not, unlike someone else) or they have too much time on their hands... No matter which case, I would like to thank them for their concern and reminder but it's so not necessary... Pls don't spoil my day, no matter what time it is!!! It's the hols now, I'm trying to relax and not thinking abt work and NS and here you are slapping me back into reality... Thanks a lot... *scarcasm*
I'm so totally pissed off tt I can throw a bitch-fit...
'You should eat vegetables, if not, how can you survive NS???'
'I think you do more pumping... So as to prepare yourself for NS...'
'You're even afraid of an ant??? How can you survive NS?!'
'Shawn, you should train now because additional 3 mths is hell...'
The list goes on... Seriously, can't my life be 'NS-free' for a week?! No, scratch tt, make tt a mth... Zzz... I'm so stressed out by all those NS talk... All those nagging and advice tt I should perpare myself... Haven't they figure it out tt I'm turning both my deaf ears to all those incessant nagging??? *Sigh* Is it just me or is the world getting stupid???
Gee... All I want to say is tt can't those ppl shut up for once and stop reminding me of the impending doom tt I'm abt to witness first-hand?! *Exsperated* *Pause* Oh, wait, the world is getting more retarded!!! Let me explain... I'm supposed to head over to [CMPB] for my NS medical checkup... And the ppl there changed the building name w/o reflecting it on the brochures tt they issue out!!! So how on [Mother Nature] can normal civilains locate the place?! Sheesh!!! Is it just me thinking tt NS erase the part of your brain tt's responsible for common sense??? After all, the men are programmed to follow orders, not ponder over it... *More thinking*
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Oh gawd!!! This is my worse nightmare!!! In abt a yr's time, I'm going to be transformed into the type of guys tt I so destest!!! I'm so not going to thinking abt the other traits tt I'll be influenced into having... *Seriously grossed out*
And did I mention tt the HQ sent me a mail reminding me of my check-up on [Monday] yesterday??? I didn't... And did I tell you tt they sent me another SMS to remind me of the same old thing??? I didn't... But I did now and here's my conclusion: Either they think tt I'm a person having short term memory (which fortunately I'm not, unlike someone else) or they have too much time on their hands... No matter which case, I would like to thank them for their concern and reminder but it's so not necessary... Pls don't spoil my day, no matter what time it is!!! It's the hols now, I'm trying to relax and not thinking abt work and NS and here you are slapping me back into reality... Thanks a lot... *scarcasm*
I'm so totally pissed off tt I can throw a bitch-fit...
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
Inspired By [FearLess]...
Frankly speaking... Which girl or guy will fall for me??? As in, will be crushing on me??? Ya, some might say tt there'll be tt 'special one'... Yet in my own opinion, I doubt so... With the fats being stored @ the most unwanted place on my body, thunder tights, bowling pin figure, tell me, who would fancy tt??? Whoever say tt the abovementioned is appealing should have their eyes checked @ SNEC... Or be certified blind...
In other words, I'm saying tt if I were to be ranked on the attractive scale, I'll probably be placed on the 'Absolute Zero' position... If tt explaination isn't enough to convince you of me being worty for tt position... Try this... I'm seriously a product tt [Mother Earth] so desperately wants to get rid off... Who will be in the right mind will want to fall for the guy who doesn't reciporate your feelings??? And who can be so hopelessly afraid as to give a person a call?! Sheesh!!! Such a total failure... No wonder I deserve only to hide behind tons of curtains and to expect of the impossible... What an idiot I am...
So be so appalled by what was written... I'm only trying to remind myself tt I should get on with life, concentrate on the impending exams and not let my lack of relationship affact me... Ya, of all the time to let tt insignificant problem affect me the most, it just have to be @ such a time... Wonder what else is [Fate] is planning to throw @ me... Hmmm... Suddenly I realised tt I'm a big contradiction on my own... Have you ever noticed tt despite me being desperate for a relationship, I'm, in fact, not ready for one??? LOL... Welcome to my demented world...
*Takes deep breath*... Guess I'm getting more fascinated by the style of writing by the writer of the series [FearLess]... Before I sign off for this nonsensical post, here's a food for thought... It's believed tt the hairs on the human body is to keep us warm... But of all the places to have an abundance of it, why must it always be @ places where we'll have our clothes on over those areas??? Yes, cringe all you want... But do ponder abt it... I'm signing off now...
In other words, I'm saying tt if I were to be ranked on the attractive scale, I'll probably be placed on the 'Absolute Zero' position... If tt explaination isn't enough to convince you of me being worty for tt position... Try this... I'm seriously a product tt [Mother Earth] so desperately wants to get rid off... Who will be in the right mind will want to fall for the guy who doesn't reciporate your feelings??? And who can be so hopelessly afraid as to give a person a call?! Sheesh!!! Such a total failure... No wonder I deserve only to hide behind tons of curtains and to expect of the impossible... What an idiot I am...
So be so appalled by what was written... I'm only trying to remind myself tt I should get on with life, concentrate on the impending exams and not let my lack of relationship affact me... Ya, of all the time to let tt insignificant problem affect me the most, it just have to be @ such a time... Wonder what else is [Fate] is planning to throw @ me... Hmmm... Suddenly I realised tt I'm a big contradiction on my own... Have you ever noticed tt despite me being desperate for a relationship, I'm, in fact, not ready for one??? LOL... Welcome to my demented world...
*Takes deep breath*... Guess I'm getting more fascinated by the style of writing by the writer of the series [FearLess]... Before I sign off for this nonsensical post, here's a food for thought... It's believed tt the hairs on the human body is to keep us warm... But of all the places to have an abundance of it, why must it always be @ places where we'll have our clothes on over those areas??? Yes, cringe all you want... But do ponder abt it... I'm signing off now...
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
SNEC...
Headed to [Singapore National Eye Centre] (SNEC) for my eye checkup... It's an annual affair, so no need to be too concern or anything...
I was expecting the usual procedures, where they check my peripheral vision, eye pressure & sight... Yet they didn't do all of tt... Instead, they checked my eye pressure & sight only... Funny huh, doing tt 2 things have to drag for like 2 hrs... Yet when you visit any specs shop, you could get the above mentioned done in like an hour... Well, SNEC's the best in [S'pore] after all and it's crowded in there...
When it's consultation time with the doc, she checked my retina once again and repeated her speech regarding my eye condition us once again like she did the year before and the year before tt... It's the usual, you know, tt my side vision is narrowing and I should eat more fruits, veggies and exercise more so tt I can obtain more antioxidants to slow down the degradation process... Moreover, it's after all still not advisable for me to have high dosage of Vitamin A and whatever they'll prescribe to me cause those will affect my liver *gulp*...
My point??? It's the usual routine... Yet I hate the part when I have to dilate my pupils... I become far-sighted as everything nearer than 30 cm from my eyes instantly becomes a blur and I feel like a flare has exploded right in front of me... The surrounding has it's brightness adjusted to the max, it's freaking bright... Not a good experience... Thank goodness tt only lasts for 2 hrs max...
My eye condition got me thinking... Since the doctor has already given me the death-sentance, tt I'll be downgraded when I'm serving NS (yes, I'm destined to do NS after all), doing those 9 to 5 kinda jobs, I guess I better stop wishing tt my eye sight worsen... Such negativity, you muse... Yet my mindset before this is to try to skip NS @ all cost... Now I figure tt I better make my life as meaningful before all is lost... Better study hard, get into exam mood, stop obsessing abt relationships, etc...
Noticed tt I used 'obsessing' for the relationship probs tt I'm facing (I'm not in a relationship and tt itself is a prob)... This is because I'll never stop worrying abt tt... Face it... Which sane human would not care abt relationships @ any pt in life??? So as I was saying, I should stop obsessing and move on... It's ironic but this thought actually flashed through my mind... Tt the reason I don't wanna go blind so fast is because I wanna see him... Okay, [YH], you can seriously slap me... [Cass] and [SH] too... I think you can use a sledgehammer and hit me to oblivation...
Now this brings me to yet another pt... Tt I'm currently unable to move on because I still have hope... Now is hope a good or bad thing??? Some may insist tt it's good because when there's hope, there'll be miracles... Like when disaster stikes, you'll hope tt you and all your love ones are safe and sound... Now this kinda hope is overtly good... Yet when you hope for things tt will never be yours in your entire life, hope morphs into some hideous monster tt's out to devour you... It becomes twisted and foul, an entity tt you will wish to stangle and kill and escape from it's grasp as soon as possible... Now you do know why it comes from [Pandora's Box]...
P.S: I'm not so great to actually potray hope like this... I actually got my inspiration from the book [Fearless]... It's a good book, with a little humour, good phrases and an unique way of writing... ^_^
I was expecting the usual procedures, where they check my peripheral vision, eye pressure & sight... Yet they didn't do all of tt... Instead, they checked my eye pressure & sight only... Funny huh, doing tt 2 things have to drag for like 2 hrs... Yet when you visit any specs shop, you could get the above mentioned done in like an hour... Well, SNEC's the best in [S'pore] after all and it's crowded in there...
When it's consultation time with the doc, she checked my retina once again and repeated her speech regarding my eye condition us once again like she did the year before and the year before tt... It's the usual, you know, tt my side vision is narrowing and I should eat more fruits, veggies and exercise more so tt I can obtain more antioxidants to slow down the degradation process... Moreover, it's after all still not advisable for me to have high dosage of Vitamin A and whatever they'll prescribe to me cause those will affect my liver *gulp*...
My point??? It's the usual routine... Yet I hate the part when I have to dilate my pupils... I become far-sighted as everything nearer than 30 cm from my eyes instantly becomes a blur and I feel like a flare has exploded right in front of me... The surrounding has it's brightness adjusted to the max, it's freaking bright... Not a good experience... Thank goodness tt only lasts for 2 hrs max...
My eye condition got me thinking... Since the doctor has already given me the death-sentance, tt I'll be downgraded when I'm serving NS (yes, I'm destined to do NS after all), doing those 9 to 5 kinda jobs, I guess I better stop wishing tt my eye sight worsen... Such negativity, you muse... Yet my mindset before this is to try to skip NS @ all cost... Now I figure tt I better make my life as meaningful before all is lost... Better study hard, get into exam mood, stop obsessing abt relationships, etc...
Noticed tt I used 'obsessing' for the relationship probs tt I'm facing (I'm not in a relationship and tt itself is a prob)... This is because I'll never stop worrying abt tt... Face it... Which sane human would not care abt relationships @ any pt in life??? So as I was saying, I should stop obsessing and move on... It's ironic but this thought actually flashed through my mind... Tt the reason I don't wanna go blind so fast is because I wanna see him... Okay, [YH], you can seriously slap me... [Cass] and [SH] too... I think you can use a sledgehammer and hit me to oblivation...
Now this brings me to yet another pt... Tt I'm currently unable to move on because I still have hope... Now is hope a good or bad thing??? Some may insist tt it's good because when there's hope, there'll be miracles... Like when disaster stikes, you'll hope tt you and all your love ones are safe and sound... Now this kinda hope is overtly good... Yet when you hope for things tt will never be yours in your entire life, hope morphs into some hideous monster tt's out to devour you... It becomes twisted and foul, an entity tt you will wish to stangle and kill and escape from it's grasp as soon as possible... Now you do know why it comes from [Pandora's Box]...
P.S: I'm not so great to actually potray hope like this... I actually got my inspiration from the book [Fearless]... It's a good book, with a little humour, good phrases and an unique way of writing... ^_^
Saturday, June 03, 2006
Pot Luck!!!
It's not an every day thingy tt such events can be organised... Everyone must be free, we must be prepared to bring food and who's bring what... All these were settled within a wk and it's decided tt we'll be having the pot luck @ [Dar]'s... This is our [June] outing activity as well as to celebrate XP's b-day!!! Haha... She's finally 17... Yay!!!
Anyway, here're the much anticipated pics tt you've been looking forward to... I'll put the pics first before crapping more... LOL...
These are the before and after decorating the cake... Don't think tt just because it's plain-looking, it won't be nice... Looks can be deciving... Tt cake's fantastic!!! I've never tasted such decilious homemade cheesecakes before!!! Way to go [YQ]!!!
The pot luck started with the cake followed by the food... The food's too much though as almost everyone bought 1 dish... There's curry, green bean soup, bee hoon, agar agar, salad, the cake, chips, drinks and tons of baby chicken wings... I think tt's enough for like 30 ppl or so... We even bought a can of [Tiger Beer] and used tt to play 'zong ji mi mah'... Haha, opps!!! Uh, this's just b/w me and whoever's reading this... Don't disclose it!!! Oh and [YH], pardon me if my han yu's wrong okay...!!! Furthermore, look @ us eating like there's no tml!!!
Individual pics of almost everyone... Now where's [Darrell] & [Yuling]???
There they are!!! It's so hard to take a photo of them!!! They keep evading my camera... Haha, but don't you know tt I'm go @ taking photos on the sly??? LOL...
Well, tt's abt it... My verdict??? This gathering isn't tt exciting as compared to the rest... A little lack of excitement... Probably due to our limitations... We can't play the planned H2O bombs due to the security guards...
He didn't turn up as expected... But could he @ least have the decency to reply to my SMSes?! @ least give me an indication of your decision since I'm the one asking him... And no I'm not angry @ him... Okay, maybe so I am... But the anger will not last over 24 hrs... He just has this effect on me...
Lastly, I wanna thanks [XP] for the wonderful [Angel] poster as well as those [X-Men 3] 4R cards!!! I'm so gonna scan them and use them as my display pic on [MSN]!!!
Anyway, here're the much anticipated pics tt you've been looking forward to... I'll put the pics first before crapping more... LOL...
These are the before and after decorating the cake... Don't think tt just because it's plain-looking, it won't be nice... Looks can be deciving... Tt cake's fantastic!!! I've never tasted such decilious homemade cheesecakes before!!! Way to go [YQ]!!!
The pot luck started with the cake followed by the food... The food's too much though as almost everyone bought 1 dish... There's curry, green bean soup, bee hoon, agar agar, salad, the cake, chips, drinks and tons of baby chicken wings... I think tt's enough for like 30 ppl or so... We even bought a can of [Tiger Beer] and used tt to play 'zong ji mi mah'... Haha, opps!!! Uh, this's just b/w me and whoever's reading this... Don't disclose it!!! Oh and [YH], pardon me if my han yu's wrong okay...!!! Furthermore, look @ us eating like there's no tml!!!
Individual pics of almost everyone... Now where's [Darrell] & [Yuling]???
There they are!!! It's so hard to take a photo of them!!! They keep evading my camera... Haha, but don't you know tt I'm go @ taking photos on the sly??? LOL...Well, tt's abt it... My verdict??? This gathering isn't tt exciting as compared to the rest... A little lack of excitement... Probably due to our limitations... We can't play the planned H2O bombs due to the security guards...
He didn't turn up as expected... But could he @ least have the decency to reply to my SMSes?! @ least give me an indication of your decision since I'm the one asking him... And no I'm not angry @ him... Okay, maybe so I am... But the anger will not last over 24 hrs... He just has this effect on me...
Lastly, I wanna thanks [XP] for the wonderful [Angel] poster as well as those [X-Men 3] 4R cards!!! I'm so gonna scan them and use them as my display pic on [MSN]!!!
Thursday, June 01, 2006
The Hols' Finally Here!!!
It's not tt the workload's lesser now tt the hols are finally here... In fact, the workload just seems to have doubled... Reckon the education system's thinking is this: Since it's the hols, the students will have more time to do their revision, catch up on what they're lagging behind... Sheesh!!! Have they ever been kids before?!
So to hell with the sch stuff... It's the hols and I'll just blog abt the fun stuff... Let's start with [Sun], [28/05]... I met up with [SM] and we headed to [SunTec] via bus 700... Guess he's really right after all... It is faster... I think the journey's only abt 45 mins or so??? Once there, we took the lift to the 3rd floor, where the cinema is... While we were walking there, [SM] was complaining abt how high the 3rd floor is and it's not literally the 3rd floor, more like the 6th floor or something, considering tt the celling's all so high... Once we bought the ticket already, we ventured to find lunch and we settled down on [Pastamania], my recommendation... The pasta's not very nice... Not tt it's horrible or anything... It's just tt the sauce's a wee bit too sour... Maybe it's only tt branch but I think I'll eat pizza the next time...
Once the lunch's over, we went back to the 3rd floor where the arcade is and we spent some time and money there... [SM] played [Marvel VS Capcom 2] again and he dominated tt game yet another time... I guess he's has reached god-like status in tt game le... Even when another player challenged him, [SM] totally trashed the challenger lor... And I don't think the challenger's a noob... I mean, no one in their right mind will challenge another unless they think tt they're worthy first right??? Make sense much???
Once it's abt time, we headed to watch [X-Men 3]!!! The movie rocks when it comes to the special effects... But in the character development niche, it's poorly done... To cite an example, what happened to [Mystique] afte she confessed to the cops??? Did she get jailed or something for the atrocities tt she had committed??? What abt the [Kitty], [Iceman] and [Rogue]??? How did the triangle relationship end??? What abt [Pyro] after being hit on the head hard with ice??? Questions aside, I would wanna say tt [Jean] rocks!!! [Phoenix]'s relly powerful!!! Tt's 1 awesome power tt I would like to possess and be in control of it... Sheesh!!! I don't wanna end up like some possessed being when the full potential is unleashed... And neither do I wanna go psycho as well...
Once the credits ended and we viewed the short 'coda' tt majority of the ppl missed, we headed to the [World Book Fair]... Our main aim's [Celestial Zone] as usual... But we took a walk and viewed every exhibition anyway... I even tried the popcorns!!! It's really been a very, very long time since I've had them... If tt's not enough, I even went back down to get some [Gelato] ice-cream before going back to the 4th floor to collect the purchases tt we've made... I bought a [Celestial Zone] poster ($10) and [SM] bought tt plus keychains off all the characters in the comic!!! All the versions!!! Serious pics, Q version and even the latest [Celestial Zone 21]!!! A whooping $61 in total!!! Such a true fan of [TCZ]!!!
Fast forward to today, I headed to [Causeway Point] alone to watch [The da Vinci's Code]... You might think tt it's very pathetic... But this is in fact the 2nd time I'm watching a movie by myself... It's no big deal... Face it... When you're engrossed in a movie, I don't think you'll notice who's beside you anyway...
My verdict for the movie??? It's not exactly tt bad like what majority's saying... So they cut short how the cryptex's solved... And there's a lot of talking... But how can you expect them to reply the past??? The only way they can show the past back is to narrate them... We can't be so demanding and expect the impossible... Oh and I find [Silas] mesmerising... W/o the self-mutilation of ocurse... Such nice eyes and such fair skin!!! OMG!!!
Hmmm... I guess tt's abt it le... Unhappy things should be kept here and should be forgotten... Don't wanna talk abt it anyway... ^_^
So to hell with the sch stuff... It's the hols and I'll just blog abt the fun stuff... Let's start with [Sun], [28/05]... I met up with [SM] and we headed to [SunTec] via bus 700... Guess he's really right after all... It is faster... I think the journey's only abt 45 mins or so??? Once there, we took the lift to the 3rd floor, where the cinema is... While we were walking there, [SM] was complaining abt how high the 3rd floor is and it's not literally the 3rd floor, more like the 6th floor or something, considering tt the celling's all so high... Once we bought the ticket already, we ventured to find lunch and we settled down on [Pastamania], my recommendation... The pasta's not very nice... Not tt it's horrible or anything... It's just tt the sauce's a wee bit too sour... Maybe it's only tt branch but I think I'll eat pizza the next time...
Once the lunch's over, we went back to the 3rd floor where the arcade is and we spent some time and money there... [SM] played [Marvel VS Capcom 2] again and he dominated tt game yet another time... I guess he's has reached god-like status in tt game le... Even when another player challenged him, [SM] totally trashed the challenger lor... And I don't think the challenger's a noob... I mean, no one in their right mind will challenge another unless they think tt they're worthy first right??? Make sense much???
Once it's abt time, we headed to watch [X-Men 3]!!! The movie rocks when it comes to the special effects... But in the character development niche, it's poorly done... To cite an example, what happened to [Mystique] afte she confessed to the cops??? Did she get jailed or something for the atrocities tt she had committed??? What abt the [Kitty], [Iceman] and [Rogue]??? How did the triangle relationship end??? What abt [Pyro] after being hit on the head hard with ice??? Questions aside, I would wanna say tt [Jean] rocks!!! [Phoenix]'s relly powerful!!! Tt's 1 awesome power tt I would like to possess and be in control of it... Sheesh!!! I don't wanna end up like some possessed being when the full potential is unleashed... And neither do I wanna go psycho as well...
Once the credits ended and we viewed the short 'coda' tt majority of the ppl missed, we headed to the [World Book Fair]... Our main aim's [Celestial Zone] as usual... But we took a walk and viewed every exhibition anyway... I even tried the popcorns!!! It's really been a very, very long time since I've had them... If tt's not enough, I even went back down to get some [Gelato] ice-cream before going back to the 4th floor to collect the purchases tt we've made... I bought a [Celestial Zone] poster ($10) and [SM] bought tt plus keychains off all the characters in the comic!!! All the versions!!! Serious pics, Q version and even the latest [Celestial Zone 21]!!! A whooping $61 in total!!! Such a true fan of [TCZ]!!!
Fast forward to today, I headed to [Causeway Point] alone to watch [The da Vinci's Code]... You might think tt it's very pathetic... But this is in fact the 2nd time I'm watching a movie by myself... It's no big deal... Face it... When you're engrossed in a movie, I don't think you'll notice who's beside you anyway...
My verdict for the movie??? It's not exactly tt bad like what majority's saying... So they cut short how the cryptex's solved... And there's a lot of talking... But how can you expect them to reply the past??? The only way they can show the past back is to narrate them... We can't be so demanding and expect the impossible... Oh and I find [Silas] mesmerising... W/o the self-mutilation of ocurse... Such nice eyes and such fair skin!!! OMG!!!
Hmmm... I guess tt's abt it le... Unhappy things should be kept here and should be forgotten... Don't wanna talk abt it anyway... ^_^
Saturday, May 27, 2006
Hectic Week Before The Hols...
It's horrendous... With our [Phy SPA Skill A] on [Tue] as our first major exams, it marked the start of the terror tt's yet to come...
I'm not saying tt the [SPA]'s tough... After all, all you have to do is to memorise everything on how to design an experient to mesure the efficiency of the bow and arrow... Of course, the qus's on how to measure the efficiency of a catapult so all we have to do is to change accordingly and presto!!! The lv. 8's yours... Not tt hard eh???
Wait till you hear this... Tt our mid-year [GP] papers' like hell... If tt paper's a measurement of how deep hell is like, I would say tt paper is the 99th floor of hell... There's only like 1 qus tt I can attempt for [Paper 1]!!! Not tt I didn't study okay... It's just tt... The way the qus's are being phrase made me think tt those qus are though... In the end, I ended up doing on the topic of [Science And Tech]... And it's not a good one as well, considering tt my conclusion's only 1 sentence and there's only 3 pts, 3 not-good-in-my-opinion points...
As for [Paper 2]??? Don't even talk abt it... I can hardly understand the second passage!!! Morality just isn't my cup of tea and both passages are talking abt different things, not your usual opposite views... Now you know the severity of the situation, don't you??? *Sigh*
Hence, I welcomed the early dismissal as well as this weekend... Have been rotting since yesterday, playing [StarCraft] and [MS] yesterday... *Grins* For today however, I actually went to a LAN shop!!! It's my 2nd time so far, entering there and playing... The last time was aeons ago, when [CounterStrike] has just became the hottest thing in town... This time, I'm playing [DOTA] and I'm not exactly the pro... I think you can rank me on a scale of 10 where 10's god-like, I'm abt a 2, no different from a noob...
I couldn't see my full potential when I'm restricted to random heros... I can't use [Drow Ranger] and see if she's my cup of tea... I'm in control of heros tt I've no idea how to contol!!! However, i won't despair as practice makes perfect!!! I'm sure with more practices, I will improve... LOL...
Oh well, I think tt's abt it... Oh and frankly speaking, I feel tt [Colin And Kero] rocks... They're simply so sweet and both are very cute as well... I like both of them... *Laughs* Now, wonder when I'll be my turn to find my prince charming??? *Frowns*
I'm not saying tt the [SPA]'s tough... After all, all you have to do is to memorise everything on how to design an experient to mesure the efficiency of the bow and arrow... Of course, the qus's on how to measure the efficiency of a catapult so all we have to do is to change accordingly and presto!!! The lv. 8's yours... Not tt hard eh???
Wait till you hear this... Tt our mid-year [GP] papers' like hell... If tt paper's a measurement of how deep hell is like, I would say tt paper is the 99th floor of hell... There's only like 1 qus tt I can attempt for [Paper 1]!!! Not tt I didn't study okay... It's just tt... The way the qus's are being phrase made me think tt those qus are though... In the end, I ended up doing on the topic of [Science And Tech]... And it's not a good one as well, considering tt my conclusion's only 1 sentence and there's only 3 pts, 3 not-good-in-my-opinion points...
As for [Paper 2]??? Don't even talk abt it... I can hardly understand the second passage!!! Morality just isn't my cup of tea and both passages are talking abt different things, not your usual opposite views... Now you know the severity of the situation, don't you??? *Sigh*
Hence, I welcomed the early dismissal as well as this weekend... Have been rotting since yesterday, playing [StarCraft] and [MS] yesterday... *Grins* For today however, I actually went to a LAN shop!!! It's my 2nd time so far, entering there and playing... The last time was aeons ago, when [CounterStrike] has just became the hottest thing in town... This time, I'm playing [DOTA] and I'm not exactly the pro... I think you can rank me on a scale of 10 where 10's god-like, I'm abt a 2, no different from a noob...
I couldn't see my full potential when I'm restricted to random heros... I can't use [Drow Ranger] and see if she's my cup of tea... I'm in control of heros tt I've no idea how to contol!!! However, i won't despair as practice makes perfect!!! I'm sure with more practices, I will improve... LOL...
Oh well, I think tt's abt it... Oh and frankly speaking, I feel tt [Colin And Kero] rocks... They're simply so sweet and both are very cute as well... I like both of them... *Laughs* Now, wonder when I'll be my turn to find my prince charming??? *Frowns*
Sunday, May 21, 2006
FFVII AC...
It occurred last year... I finally managed to burn the movie from [Dar]... It's hard work... From borrowing the disc from a friend and realising tt there's no subtitles... To figuring tt the subtitles are separated from the movie itself (-_-"')... To go to [Dar] house and burning the movie... I've certainly spent a lot of effort to get tt movie... Yet the end result??? I watched it once and dumped it in the safety of my drawer... Just the occassional glimpsed of the disc once in a while, nth more...
Tt changed when I saw tt the DVD's actually being released already... Watching the preview outside the shop did bring back those times... The times when I'm so despo to get the disc... Thank goodness I didn't wait for the sales of the movie or else I would've forked out $20+ on a DVD!!! Haha... With 2 CDs, I'm contented already... Even though the quality isn't top-notch, no full screen... It's enough as long as I can understand the movie... It's not a DVD after all, packed full with crystal clear images and sounds...
So as I watched the movie again, I'm able to understand the storyline better... I'm able to pick up what I've missed out on the first watch... Then tt feeling came again... The feeling of being in the past... This time, I'm @ tt timeline when I really wanna play FFVII... It's a pity really... Cause I only managed to play the 1st disc... Until tt disc conked out... Don't know what's the prob... It just froze half-way... Pity... *Sigh*... Wanna play the whole game and know the actual storyline...
Tt changed when I saw tt the DVD's actually being released already... Watching the preview outside the shop did bring back those times... The times when I'm so despo to get the disc... Thank goodness I didn't wait for the sales of the movie or else I would've forked out $20+ on a DVD!!! Haha... With 2 CDs, I'm contented already... Even though the quality isn't top-notch, no full screen... It's enough as long as I can understand the movie... It's not a DVD after all, packed full with crystal clear images and sounds...
So as I watched the movie again, I'm able to understand the storyline better... I'm able to pick up what I've missed out on the first watch... Then tt feeling came again... The feeling of being in the past... This time, I'm @ tt timeline when I really wanna play FFVII... It's a pity really... Cause I only managed to play the 1st disc... Until tt disc conked out... Don't know what's the prob... It just froze half-way... Pity... *Sigh*... Wanna play the whole game and know the actual storyline...
Friday, May 19, 2006
A Wk Has Passed...
Changing a skin is like shopping for THE perfect outfit for a special occassion... Thus, it's no wonder tt I can spend up to 2 hrs doing 1 skin change... From selecting the skin to beautifying it and adding the post, it's sheer hardwork... I want perfection, so don't tease me abt spending a long time doing the skin and stuff like tt... Yet I still can't achieve perfection... The 'Cannot run Active-X Control' keep pooping up and I have no idea what's the prob... I wish to get rid of tt even though it's not affecting my viewing of my own blog... *Grins*
Exactly 7 days ago, I have my b-day celebration and as promised, here are the pictures... This time, there'll be not much typing least I get accused of having poor language once again... Haven't tt notion of a typo error ever popped into your mind???
Exactly 7 days ago, I have my b-day celebration and as promised, here are the pictures... This time, there'll be not much typing least I get accused of having poor language once again... Haven't tt notion of a typo error ever popped into your mind???
Pssst... It's top secret!!!
The main singer in action!!!
We are so seriously enjoying ourselves!!!
What's with being Zen???
Yay!!! Snacks!!!
Don't just hold the mike, sing some songs!!! And he actually did it later after a lot of peer pressure from the gang...
So many songs!!! Sing what???
'This looks wrong...!!!' - Xin
The F4 rocked the room!!!
Awww... What a nice card!!! Heke... Not showing tt to you!!!
The figurines tt they gave me as a present... Aren't they adorable???
Saturday, May 13, 2006
K-Box...
Finally!!! I've waited for this day for 1 long year already!!! And this is yet another 1 of those days whereby I can let my hair down and relax, really relax, to the max... Of course, there's a price to be paid for relaxing on a weekend... Which means tt I'll be in greater stress tml and for the next 1 wk... Tt fact dawned onto me not too far back in the past and I've accepted tt relaxation on a weekend now is only instant gratification... The only time I can truly relax after all, is when the 'A's are over...
*Slaps myself* Back on track... Celebrated b-day with family members and for the first time in history, we actually finished the whole cake in 1 day!!! Guess it's because tt's our breakfast and the mango cake's simply too decilious??? *Grins* SMSes rained jammed my phone in the morn as friends sent me well wishes... It's so sweet of them!!! Esp [KL], [Lynn], [Joan], just to name a few... Of course there's tt guy who also SMSed me... Someone tipped him off and he suddenly 'remembered' it's my b-day... Asking to be pardoned??? Like real I will...
It's @ this pt tt the alarm went off and the reminder shouted out loud tt it's [Audrey]'s b-day as well... So I sent her a happy b-day SMS and swell, we met @ the MRT!!! What a small world huh... Tt's not all... As we approached [Bukit Batok], I saw the outline of [XP] and I knew it's her... So I rushed towards her and not before knocking myself on a couple of hand-rails... Oh the woes of being tall (Pls so don't trash me)...
Chatted with [XP] as I entered [Mac] for a light lunch... By the time I'm done, it's [1336 hrs] already and so I rushed to meet the rest of the gang... The were @ the interchange area and we stoned a little before heading to [PartyWorld]... Boy, I tell you, tt [PartyWorld] totally isn't as good as [K-Box]... The atmosphere was already a bummer... The moment we stepped into tt darkly lit place, the smoke's clogging up our trechea already... I can't imagine we singing in tt place... We probably die of passive smoking first before we even could spend 1 hr there...
Even the rates's almost the same as [K-Box]... Compulsory purchase of food!!! $140!!! So we decided tt even with the $20 voucher off, it's not worth it with all those negative externalities... Hence, we walked towards [K-Box] and the contrasts are like jumping out @ you once you step foot into the lounge... No smoke, brightly lit entrance, free snakes... It's confirmed, [K-Box]!!!
For the next few hrs, we are really high, esp [Yuling]... For the 1st time ever she's on cloud nine!!! The devour of snakes isn't a surprise and we sang tons of songs too!!! Even [Darrell] for the 1st outing, sang!!! Heke... Finally gave into our, er, I mean [Yuling]'s peer pressure... Heke...
Got a few gitfs from them as well... The [FFVII] figurines are cute and so are the books from [YH] & [Rec]... Thanks guys!!! They even gave me a card with some funny pics there... Hmmm... Nope, I shall not disclose any info abt tt in this entry... LOL...
Nevertheless, I took quite a no. of photos this time round, for the 1st time too till the cam's memory's full... Reckon it's the 3 videos tt I took... So as a result, I couldn't take any photos when it's time to cut and eat the cake... Such a pity cause the cake's really beautiful and yummy... *Laugh once again*...
[Yuling] and [Darrell] felt first, followed by [Rec]... The heat died down by a little by then and the rest of us finished singing or listening to all our selections of songs before footing the bill and leaving for home...
Overall, out of 10 where 10's the most fun outing, I'll give this a 15!!! It's been a long time since I've met the gang, a complete one tt is... So this is 1 memory tt has to be remembered for life...*Grins*...
Oh well, loko @ the time, gtg... Readers, don't dispair!!! The pics will be out next wk... You have my word for it!!! I'm doing this because I'm planning to change the skin as well and tt's gonna take a hell lot of time... So next wk!!!
*Slaps myself* Back on track... Celebrated b-day with family members and for the first time in history, we actually finished the whole cake in 1 day!!! Guess it's because tt's our breakfast and the mango cake's simply too decilious??? *Grins* SMSes rained jammed my phone in the morn as friends sent me well wishes... It's so sweet of them!!! Esp [KL], [Lynn], [Joan], just to name a few... Of course there's tt guy who also SMSed me... Someone tipped him off and he suddenly 'remembered' it's my b-day... Asking to be pardoned??? Like real I will...
It's @ this pt tt the alarm went off and the reminder shouted out loud tt it's [Audrey]'s b-day as well... So I sent her a happy b-day SMS and swell, we met @ the MRT!!! What a small world huh... Tt's not all... As we approached [Bukit Batok], I saw the outline of [XP] and I knew it's her... So I rushed towards her and not before knocking myself on a couple of hand-rails... Oh the woes of being tall (Pls so don't trash me)...
Chatted with [XP] as I entered [Mac] for a light lunch... By the time I'm done, it's [1336 hrs] already and so I rushed to meet the rest of the gang... The were @ the interchange area and we stoned a little before heading to [PartyWorld]... Boy, I tell you, tt [PartyWorld] totally isn't as good as [K-Box]... The atmosphere was already a bummer... The moment we stepped into tt darkly lit place, the smoke's clogging up our trechea already... I can't imagine we singing in tt place... We probably die of passive smoking first before we even could spend 1 hr there...
Even the rates's almost the same as [K-Box]... Compulsory purchase of food!!! $140!!! So we decided tt even with the $20 voucher off, it's not worth it with all those negative externalities... Hence, we walked towards [K-Box] and the contrasts are like jumping out @ you once you step foot into the lounge... No smoke, brightly lit entrance, free snakes... It's confirmed, [K-Box]!!!
For the next few hrs, we are really high, esp [Yuling]... For the 1st time ever she's on cloud nine!!! The devour of snakes isn't a surprise and we sang tons of songs too!!! Even [Darrell] for the 1st outing, sang!!! Heke... Finally gave into our, er, I mean [Yuling]'s peer pressure... Heke...
Got a few gitfs from them as well... The [FFVII] figurines are cute and so are the books from [YH] & [Rec]... Thanks guys!!! They even gave me a card with some funny pics there... Hmmm... Nope, I shall not disclose any info abt tt in this entry... LOL...
Nevertheless, I took quite a no. of photos this time round, for the 1st time too till the cam's memory's full... Reckon it's the 3 videos tt I took... So as a result, I couldn't take any photos when it's time to cut and eat the cake... Such a pity cause the cake's really beautiful and yummy... *Laugh once again*...
[Yuling] and [Darrell] felt first, followed by [Rec]... The heat died down by a little by then and the rest of us finished singing or listening to all our selections of songs before footing the bill and leaving for home...
Overall, out of 10 where 10's the most fun outing, I'll give this a 15!!! It's been a long time since I've met the gang, a complete one tt is... So this is 1 memory tt has to be remembered for life...*Grins*...
Oh well, loko @ the time, gtg... Readers, don't dispair!!! The pics will be out next wk... You have my word for it!!! I'm doing this because I'm planning to change the skin as well and tt's gonna take a hell lot of time... So next wk!!!
Thursday, May 11, 2006
Advance B-day...
When [ShunMing] presented the gift to me, I didn't know what to expect... Once I saw the toy, I find it really cute!!! It's round, plum and can even squeak when you press it!!! Never mind tt the gift was for me initially... As long as I liked it, who cares???
So tt's b-day gift from [ShunMing]... Of course, there's more to come... When I'm having my break, [PJ124] decided to present me with a gift of their own... I didn't know what to expect, assuming tt it's gonna be something nice... The chocolates's fine, though I haven't tasted them yet... But I believe tt it's gonna be tasty... Then came the ultimate gift... It's a pink file, secured by a panty!!! OMG!!! I was flabbergasted!!! When I opened the file, there laid a cow, wearing another 2 more panties!!! Seriously, OMG!!! I'm rendered speechless by them... So I didn't know what's their motive whether it was a prank or was it not a prank... Managed to took off all the undergarments and kept them hidden in the file in the [ConCourse]... Hopefully someone didn't take much notice of me... Can you imagine how weird it is??? Thank goodness there's [Cass] and [Rec] there... Imagine how the scene would be like if I had gone to the toilet to make my cow more normal... If another guy walks in, I think my rep's ruined for life... I'm gonna be lablled as some psycho/ pervo...
Of course, there's still the [PartyWorld] outing on [Sat] as another celebration... The whole gang's gonna be there, though some will be a little bit late... It's a good thing, being able to meet up again after being going our separate ways... Catch up with one another, strengthen our bonds... It's cool... And we can be our crazy self now tt there's no outsiders around... He couldn't make it... It's just as expected... Yet what's making me so peeved abt tt issue is tt he actually don't know what's the significance of having tt outing 2 days later!!! He actually asked me what's the significance!!! I should've told him it's to celebrate [Vesak Day]... Sheesh!!! Didn't know tt I'm actually so insinificant in his eyes... I guess in the future, he would even remember my existance as we enter the working world... WTH... I'm so dumb to have fallen for him... *Bash myself with a pico-pico hammer*
Hekes... I'm so eager for [Sat] to come... Finally can get to see them!!! Have to plan what to wear le... Have to concel some of my awful skin now tt I'm being atk by some unknown insect... It's like I'm being dumped in a pit full of mozzies... Don't know if it's mozzies or what, having itchy red spots appearing everywhere... They're not rashes... So I'm puzzled by it... *Sigh*
Interesting conversation... This happened in the [LT] when I showed [LX] [Rikku]'s pic on my phone...
LX: 'OMG, tt's so porn la!!!'
Me: 'Really meh??? It's so not porn lor!!! Haiz, even Lynn said the same thing as you too...'
LX (shouting across to Lynn): 'Lynn!!! Lynn!!! Really pron right???'
Lynn (puzzled look): 'Huh??? Porn??? Me???'
The conversation ended with us bursting out in laughter...
So tt's b-day gift from [ShunMing]... Of course, there's more to come... When I'm having my break, [PJ124] decided to present me with a gift of their own... I didn't know what to expect, assuming tt it's gonna be something nice... The chocolates's fine, though I haven't tasted them yet... But I believe tt it's gonna be tasty... Then came the ultimate gift... It's a pink file, secured by a panty!!! OMG!!! I was flabbergasted!!! When I opened the file, there laid a cow, wearing another 2 more panties!!! Seriously, OMG!!! I'm rendered speechless by them... So I didn't know what's their motive whether it was a prank or was it not a prank... Managed to took off all the undergarments and kept them hidden in the file in the [ConCourse]... Hopefully someone didn't take much notice of me... Can you imagine how weird it is??? Thank goodness there's [Cass] and [Rec] there... Imagine how the scene would be like if I had gone to the toilet to make my cow more normal... If another guy walks in, I think my rep's ruined for life... I'm gonna be lablled as some psycho/ pervo...
Of course, there's still the [PartyWorld] outing on [Sat] as another celebration... The whole gang's gonna be there, though some will be a little bit late... It's a good thing, being able to meet up again after being going our separate ways... Catch up with one another, strengthen our bonds... It's cool... And we can be our crazy self now tt there's no outsiders around... He couldn't make it... It's just as expected... Yet what's making me so peeved abt tt issue is tt he actually don't know what's the significance of having tt outing 2 days later!!! He actually asked me what's the significance!!! I should've told him it's to celebrate [Vesak Day]... Sheesh!!! Didn't know tt I'm actually so insinificant in his eyes... I guess in the future, he would even remember my existance as we enter the working world... WTH... I'm so dumb to have fallen for him... *Bash myself with a pico-pico hammer*
Hekes... I'm so eager for [Sat] to come... Finally can get to see them!!! Have to plan what to wear le... Have to concel some of my awful skin now tt I'm being atk by some unknown insect... It's like I'm being dumped in a pit full of mozzies... Don't know if it's mozzies or what, having itchy red spots appearing everywhere... They're not rashes... So I'm puzzled by it... *Sigh*
Interesting conversation... This happened in the [LT] when I showed [LX] [Rikku]'s pic on my phone...
LX: 'OMG, tt's so porn la!!!'
Me: 'Really meh??? It's so not porn lor!!! Haiz, even Lynn said the same thing as you too...'
LX (shouting across to Lynn): 'Lynn!!! Lynn!!! Really pron right???'
Lynn (puzzled look): 'Huh??? Porn??? Me???'
The conversation ended with us bursting out in laughter...
Friday, May 05, 2006
Starship Troopers...
Haha, 2nd entry for the day... Previous entry was rather depressing, and this one is to lock 1 of my many happy memories of the past...
[StarShip Troopers] was on TV today... You know by the look of it, tt it's an old movie... Despite the futuristic setting, the actor's hairstyle and dressing has already indicated tt this isn't movie tt's made with state of the art CGI, despite those cool pyrotechics and [Star Wars] like weapons and ships...
I reckon you ppl might be curious to know what movie I'm talking abt... Well, this movie is abt the future where the human race are staying in different planets and not just [Earth] alone... Then there's this federation, like the army tt's supposed to protect the human race tt's scattered all over the universe... There's peace until bugs invaded the planets... Not those min bugs, those bigger-than -human-size bugs... They come in swarms and wipe out the human race in a few planets and this is when the humans realise tt it's war... And they fight head on with the bugs... Well, the bugs aren't brainless, I tell you... Sure, they have those brainless ones tt look like aliens, wasps, bettles tt can spit fire and a brain bug - the queen of all bugs as it can control the bugs since it's the most intelligent as it's the one who drinks human brain to accquire intelligence...
Tt's the whole gist of the movie... Of course, there's also hunky actors, but tt's not the point... The point's the movie itself... This movie was actually a cartoon on [Kids Central] like 8 yrs ago... I remember this crystal clear as I remember I used to play around with my best buds then, imitating the characters from the cartoon and running all over the field... Which character did I imitate??? Definately not the commander... In the cartoon, it's the videographer... He's the timidest but I still liked him probably due to his psyhic ability to read the bugs' mind...
Oh, it really brings back fond memories... The nonchalant... ...
[StarShip Troopers] was on TV today... You know by the look of it, tt it's an old movie... Despite the futuristic setting, the actor's hairstyle and dressing has already indicated tt this isn't movie tt's made with state of the art CGI, despite those cool pyrotechics and [Star Wars] like weapons and ships...
I reckon you ppl might be curious to know what movie I'm talking abt... Well, this movie is abt the future where the human race are staying in different planets and not just [Earth] alone... Then there's this federation, like the army tt's supposed to protect the human race tt's scattered all over the universe... There's peace until bugs invaded the planets... Not those min bugs, those bigger-than -human-size bugs... They come in swarms and wipe out the human race in a few planets and this is when the humans realise tt it's war... And they fight head on with the bugs... Well, the bugs aren't brainless, I tell you... Sure, they have those brainless ones tt look like aliens, wasps, bettles tt can spit fire and a brain bug - the queen of all bugs as it can control the bugs since it's the most intelligent as it's the one who drinks human brain to accquire intelligence...
Tt's the whole gist of the movie... Of course, there's also hunky actors, but tt's not the point... The point's the movie itself... This movie was actually a cartoon on [Kids Central] like 8 yrs ago... I remember this crystal clear as I remember I used to play around with my best buds then, imitating the characters from the cartoon and running all over the field... Which character did I imitate??? Definately not the commander... In the cartoon, it's the videographer... He's the timidest but I still liked him probably due to his psyhic ability to read the bugs' mind...
Oh, it really brings back fond memories... The nonchalant... ...
Below The Weak Exterior Lies A Weaker Soul...
Studying this wk isn't the only thing tt's sapping me off my energy... Even the exercise's draining my energy like some black hole... The bottom line??? I'm absolutely not productive @ all, esp from [Thurs] onwards...
So what's the biggie??? Hmmm... Immediately after our long wk end break's over, the girls in my class decided to take their [NAFA] test, thier 2.4km run... All of them did better than usual and I even paced [Sheryl] @ her 5th & last lap... So it wasn't tt much, I know... But it's still draining a wee bit of my energy and this summation of leakages won't be small...
The worst energy sapping activity occured yesterday when we guys had our [NAFA] test, all 6 stations!!! It started @ [1700 hrs] and ended @ close to [1900 hrs]... I was lamenting abt the late hours and was abt to emit waves of negative vibes... However, the girls from my class decided to cheer and support me on (and the rest of the guys of course)... Now this gave me a little bit of confidence to excel in some of the stations...
Well, I tried my best in those tt I know I can pass, like the run, I clocked like 12mins 37s... I don't think I've ever ran tt fast before... As for the rest of the stations, I'm not sure if I made it in [Shuttle Run]... I got 10.6s... Not sure whether for a 17 yr old, is it a pass or fail... Haha... Who cares??? Now tt it's over, I'll now have 1 last thing on my mind to worry abt...
Funny huh... I used to be unaffected by the poor performance in the sporting arena as I tried to use my intellect to cover tt enlarging weakness of mine... Yet now, I'm stressed out over tt inevitable failure... I guess it's the gilrs... They cheer me on and if I turn a deaf ear on them, I'll portray a mean image... What's worse is tt I don't have the mindset to exercise, or to be active in sports... I know they mean well and would not like me to suffer an additional 3 more mths in NS... But truth be told, what are my chances of skipping tt 3 mths??? Given my current status, fail in [Standing Broad Jump], [Pull Up] and possibly [Shuttly Run] as well, from a 'Nil' to a 'Silver' is quite an impossible feat you know...
Okay, so 1 factor is my reluctance to train... But tt arise because I know my limits... And the opportunity cost incurred is quite high if I allocate more resources to exercise instead of studying... Hecne, I would rather partial specialise in playing games and studying...
I'll put an abrupt stop to tt topic now and hop to the next... I'm more aware of my weakness recently... More aware of how strong other's vocab are, and how good they are in certain subject... Take for example today during [GP]... When we're discussing abt the [GE], I knew nuts to nth abt what they're talking abt... I was like stoning there and trying to catch onto what's the issue... But I just can't grab hold of the ball... The woes of having a deficiency of general knowledge...
It doesn't end there... Just a couple of days ago, I noticed a crack on [ShunMing]'s [Frozen Throne] disc which I'm sure wasn't there mths ago... Now this overtly showed tt I've broke his disc... I feel so bad abt tt cause his property's destroyed while it's in my care... Me!!! Of all ppl, must break his disc!!! Me, a person who looks after his belonging as if t they're my precious ones, just have to break, of all the disc in the whole universe, my best friend's most valued disc... I haven't account for it and I plan to replace the disc with a new one... Money woes just came crashing down onto me even before I can even earn my keep... Imagine how much worse it'll get when I'm finally working!!!
*Long sigh*... Guess I'll stop here... But befroe this entry can end, here's a little food for thought again:
'He who fights and run away will live to fight another day; but he who's in a battle slain will never get to fight again...'
So what's the biggie??? Hmmm... Immediately after our long wk end break's over, the girls in my class decided to take their [NAFA] test, thier 2.4km run... All of them did better than usual and I even paced [Sheryl] @ her 5th & last lap... So it wasn't tt much, I know... But it's still draining a wee bit of my energy and this summation of leakages won't be small...
The worst energy sapping activity occured yesterday when we guys had our [NAFA] test, all 6 stations!!! It started @ [1700 hrs] and ended @ close to [1900 hrs]... I was lamenting abt the late hours and was abt to emit waves of negative vibes... However, the girls from my class decided to cheer and support me on (and the rest of the guys of course)... Now this gave me a little bit of confidence to excel in some of the stations...
Well, I tried my best in those tt I know I can pass, like the run, I clocked like 12mins 37s... I don't think I've ever ran tt fast before... As for the rest of the stations, I'm not sure if I made it in [Shuttle Run]... I got 10.6s... Not sure whether for a 17 yr old, is it a pass or fail... Haha... Who cares??? Now tt it's over, I'll now have 1 last thing on my mind to worry abt...
Funny huh... I used to be unaffected by the poor performance in the sporting arena as I tried to use my intellect to cover tt enlarging weakness of mine... Yet now, I'm stressed out over tt inevitable failure... I guess it's the gilrs... They cheer me on and if I turn a deaf ear on them, I'll portray a mean image... What's worse is tt I don't have the mindset to exercise, or to be active in sports... I know they mean well and would not like me to suffer an additional 3 more mths in NS... But truth be told, what are my chances of skipping tt 3 mths??? Given my current status, fail in [Standing Broad Jump], [Pull Up] and possibly [Shuttly Run] as well, from a 'Nil' to a 'Silver' is quite an impossible feat you know...
Okay, so 1 factor is my reluctance to train... But tt arise because I know my limits... And the opportunity cost incurred is quite high if I allocate more resources to exercise instead of studying... Hecne, I would rather partial specialise in playing games and studying...
I'll put an abrupt stop to tt topic now and hop to the next... I'm more aware of my weakness recently... More aware of how strong other's vocab are, and how good they are in certain subject... Take for example today during [GP]... When we're discussing abt the [GE], I knew nuts to nth abt what they're talking abt... I was like stoning there and trying to catch onto what's the issue... But I just can't grab hold of the ball... The woes of having a deficiency of general knowledge...
It doesn't end there... Just a couple of days ago, I noticed a crack on [ShunMing]'s [Frozen Throne] disc which I'm sure wasn't there mths ago... Now this overtly showed tt I've broke his disc... I feel so bad abt tt cause his property's destroyed while it's in my care... Me!!! Of all ppl, must break his disc!!! Me, a person who looks after his belonging as if t they're my precious ones, just have to break, of all the disc in the whole universe, my best friend's most valued disc... I haven't account for it and I plan to replace the disc with a new one... Money woes just came crashing down onto me even before I can even earn my keep... Imagine how much worse it'll get when I'm finally working!!!
*Long sigh*... Guess I'll stop here... But befroe this entry can end, here's a little food for thought again:
'He who fights and run away will live to fight another day; but he who's in a battle slain will never get to fight again...'
Monday, May 01, 2006
Or Or And???
Some wonder why I take such !@#$% time to bathe... Well, frankly speaking, I'm stoning in the toilet... Don't laugh... The routine washing of oneself can now be done w/o the use of any brain juice... It's like clockwork now... You enter the bathroom and 30 mins later, when you're done, you wonder, 'Huh??? I'm done bathing??? Did I wash my hair??? Ya, I did...'
So to maximise the use of time itself, I decided to do some self-reflection as well... And apart from thinking abt [DoTa], which is the rage now for me despite it being the rage for others long, long time ago, how to master the use of 1 particular hero, I've also been thinking abt life itself... More specifically, abt sch work, NS, etc...
Now this brings me to the point of the day... Some ppl are the 'And' type of ppl, those who can juggle sch work and sports... On the other hand, there's another group of ppl who are the 'Or' type... They can only master 1 aspect... As I was bathing, I concluded tt I'm the 'Or' category... I can only do sch or sports, and I've chosen sch (DUH!!!)... I'm not lamenting the choice, I'm who I am... Of course, there're will be time when you envy ppl like you-know-who who are the 'And' ppl...
Hmmm... Envy... It's a inborn thingy... When there're others who are better off than you, you'll wish you're like tt person, being so successful... I'm not referring to Him, okay... Frankly speaking, who didn't envy anyone in their life?! I envy a lot of ppl, Him, guys with great bods, girls with great bods (don't ask, this is on the whole another issue), ppl who can ace their NAFA test, ppl with good grades... Well, almost everything in the whole universe...
From tt, you ppl can infer tt I'm stressed out by the whole NS idea... Wonder why ppl like doing tt... To get away from studying??? To stop using your brain?! How can tt be classified as 'fun'?! O-k-a-y, a little emotional here... Yes, I'm a little unstable now... The whole NAFA test's in 3 days time and I'm bound to fail... Guess it's because almost the whole class's urging me to work hard to pass and this is adding more stress to the stress tt I've already have... WTH!!!
As I'm doing what I'm doing now - blogging - I'm thinking once again... I'm not acing my studies anyway... I'm doing just the average, good, but not excellent... As for gaming, I'm even worse... Guess there should be another category of ppl... 'Neither', ppl who can do more than 1 thing, but can't ace any... Yeah, the phrase 'A jack of all trade, but a master of none' can't be anymore ture... %#$!#@#$
Warning!!!
Mother Earth's seriously sick... Stop chocking her with poisonous fumes and rape her off her resources!!! Hell hath no fury for a woman's scorn...
So to maximise the use of time itself, I decided to do some self-reflection as well... And apart from thinking abt [DoTa], which is the rage now for me despite it being the rage for others long, long time ago, how to master the use of 1 particular hero, I've also been thinking abt life itself... More specifically, abt sch work, NS, etc...
Now this brings me to the point of the day... Some ppl are the 'And' type of ppl, those who can juggle sch work and sports... On the other hand, there's another group of ppl who are the 'Or' type... They can only master 1 aspect... As I was bathing, I concluded tt I'm the 'Or' category... I can only do sch or sports, and I've chosen sch (DUH!!!)... I'm not lamenting the choice, I'm who I am... Of course, there're will be time when you envy ppl like you-know-who who are the 'And' ppl...
Hmmm... Envy... It's a inborn thingy... When there're others who are better off than you, you'll wish you're like tt person, being so successful... I'm not referring to Him, okay... Frankly speaking, who didn't envy anyone in their life?! I envy a lot of ppl, Him, guys with great bods, girls with great bods (don't ask, this is on the whole another issue), ppl who can ace their NAFA test, ppl with good grades... Well, almost everything in the whole universe...
From tt, you ppl can infer tt I'm stressed out by the whole NS idea... Wonder why ppl like doing tt... To get away from studying??? To stop using your brain?! How can tt be classified as 'fun'?! O-k-a-y, a little emotional here... Yes, I'm a little unstable now... The whole NAFA test's in 3 days time and I'm bound to fail... Guess it's because almost the whole class's urging me to work hard to pass and this is adding more stress to the stress tt I've already have... WTH!!!
As I'm doing what I'm doing now - blogging - I'm thinking once again... I'm not acing my studies anyway... I'm doing just the average, good, but not excellent... As for gaming, I'm even worse... Guess there should be another category of ppl... 'Neither', ppl who can do more than 1 thing, but can't ace any... Yeah, the phrase 'A jack of all trade, but a master of none' can't be anymore ture... %#$!#@#$
Warning!!!
Mother Earth's seriously sick... Stop chocking her with poisonous fumes and rape her off her resources!!! Hell hath no fury for a woman's scorn...
Saturday, April 22, 2006
Tests, Tests And More Tests...
Last term's the back-to-sch phase... This term's the mug-and-test phase... Tests are falling on me like a thunderstorm, heavy, fierce and so not showing any signs of stopping... It's taxing for my little body, both physically and mentally...
I'm lamenting... I think I have tt rights... I don't mind the knowledge tests... But recently, I think I can even ace any, apart from [Maths] tt is... I don't know why... I always think I've already grasp tt concept, but once the question's out, I've no idea what is required of me... Or how to go abt applying whatever tt I've learnt...
If tt's not enough, the [NAFA]'s coming soon and we like training like mad for it... I think it's the long hours of doing homeword tt has caused me to be physically unfit now, despite my underweight physique... I can't do pull-up, standing-broad jumps, even sit-and-reach!!! What's next dude??? *Sigh* And to think I was almost inspired to train for my [NAFA] next wk... Not here, the keyword's 'almost'... I didn't do it partly because I'm lazy, I can't be bothered, can't bear being sweaty, can't stand showing my most unglam sight in front of everyone else... Hmmm... I think I can't distantly hear [YH]'s 'You can go and die/ You can go and knock yourself against the wall' screams already...
Hmmm... I think tt's what I wanna scream out loud for now... Guess I'll go [DOTA] and de-stress.... Hopefully, I won't be killed by the AI (don't wanna feel more stressed)... ^_^
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Miss Swan's the 'in' thing now!!!
I'm lamenting... I think I have tt rights... I don't mind the knowledge tests... But recently, I think I can even ace any, apart from [Maths] tt is... I don't know why... I always think I've already grasp tt concept, but once the question's out, I've no idea what is required of me... Or how to go abt applying whatever tt I've learnt...
If tt's not enough, the [NAFA]'s coming soon and we like training like mad for it... I think it's the long hours of doing homeword tt has caused me to be physically unfit now, despite my underweight physique... I can't do pull-up, standing-broad jumps, even sit-and-reach!!! What's next dude??? *Sigh* And to think I was almost inspired to train for my [NAFA] next wk... Not here, the keyword's 'almost'... I didn't do it partly because I'm lazy, I can't be bothered, can't bear being sweaty, can't stand showing my most unglam sight in front of everyone else... Hmmm... I think I can't distantly hear [YH]'s 'You can go and die/ You can go and knock yourself against the wall' screams already...
Hmmm... I think tt's what I wanna scream out loud for now... Guess I'll go [DOTA] and de-stress.... Hopefully, I won't be killed by the AI (don't wanna feel more stressed)... ^_^
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Saturday, April 15, 2006
I Don't Wanna Mug Anymore...!!!
Today's totally not productive... I just can't concentrate and the thought 'Play' is just @ the tip of my mind... The effect of finally being able to play [DOTA] again...
Of course, I'm not playing with those creeps only maps... I'm playing with AIs... And after doing tt, I finally realised my stand @ [DOTA]... I'm like so totally @ the bottom... Reckon tt I'm just above those who can get themselves kill like 12 times within 15 mins... I'm like totally lousy lor!!! Lose to AI somemore!!! CMI le, pathetic!!! Come to think of it, I can only play with heros tt can stun or freeze enemies in their tracks... And with ultimate atks tt are strong... Well, now tt narrows down the number of heros tt I can use... Guess I'll spend my time to use them perfectly... ^_^
Tt said, guess this means tt I'm taking a rest from MS for a while... And I really mean 'awhile'... I'm just clarifying things up... Who knows you ppl might assume tt my 'awhile' means 'forever'??? Just taking precauctions... *Smiles*
Oh ya... Today's yet another raining day... But the rain's later then yesterday's... Wonder if the scenerio would change if our outing's today... Hmmm... Would we have more fun??? Definitely... Oh well... Let's just hope tt Heaven won't be such a wet blanket next mth and drown our mood again...
Food for thought:
I feel boycotted... No one's tagging me anymore... Waaa~!!! I know I shouldn't be thinking so negatively and all the more I shouldn't be imagining things... Poly's starting soon and it's like DUH!!! Tt more ppl will be busy... Besides, I'm no [XiaXue]... Now why does this sounds like I'm self-comforting myself???
Of course, I'm not playing with those creeps only maps... I'm playing with AIs... And after doing tt, I finally realised my stand @ [DOTA]... I'm like so totally @ the bottom... Reckon tt I'm just above those who can get themselves kill like 12 times within 15 mins... I'm like totally lousy lor!!! Lose to AI somemore!!! CMI le, pathetic!!! Come to think of it, I can only play with heros tt can stun or freeze enemies in their tracks... And with ultimate atks tt are strong... Well, now tt narrows down the number of heros tt I can use... Guess I'll spend my time to use them perfectly... ^_^
Tt said, guess this means tt I'm taking a rest from MS for a while... And I really mean 'awhile'... I'm just clarifying things up... Who knows you ppl might assume tt my 'awhile' means 'forever'??? Just taking precauctions... *Smiles*
Oh ya... Today's yet another raining day... But the rain's later then yesterday's... Wonder if the scenerio would change if our outing's today... Hmmm... Would we have more fun??? Definitely... Oh well... Let's just hope tt Heaven won't be such a wet blanket next mth and drown our mood again...
Food for thought:
I feel boycotted... No one's tagging me anymore... Waaa~!!! I know I shouldn't be thinking so negatively and all the more I shouldn't be imagining things... Poly's starting soon and it's like DUH!!! Tt more ppl will be busy... Besides, I'm no [XiaXue]... Now why does this sounds like I'm self-comforting myself???
Friday, April 14, 2006
ECP...
Woo-hoo!!! Finally!!! The long awaited vacation's finally here... I can finally take a break and let my hair down... Gee... I should have longer hair... You know'll why later...
[Rec]'s parents drove us to [ECP] and it's a totally awesome ride... Imagine sitting @ the back of a lorry and getting the wind to blow you... No sweat, just constant wind... So refreshing!!! Then [XP] was thinking if such strong wind can erode your face away... LOL... I'm thinking maybe a facelift might be possible... But who knows??? The unpredictable winds could just lift your face ustil you look like some ET...
Arrived @ [ECP] and the gang took some food before proceeding to the main attraction... I thought of joining them for [Ice Kachang] but after considering tt I won't have time to enjoy, I decided against it... Guess I'll eat one slowly some other time, when time isn't of a concern... ^_^
Rent mountain bikes and we're off!!! It's been some time since I've last rode a bike and this's cool... But we weren't together... @ soem junction, we split into 2 groups... As a result, [YQ], [MJ], [SH], [XP], [Racheal] and I were a group while [Rec], [HY], [YH] and [Cass] were in the other group... We rode till 1 end of the park and we saw some beautiful scenery... [MJ] took quite a lot of photos... Guess she's a natural born photographer... *Grins*
Saw quite a few good looking guys, but none can I classify them under the category of 'hunks'... I mean, seriously, all of them are suppoters of the [UN]... Gee... If you don't have what it takes, then don't flaunt them... As if 1 item off your already hot bod will make you any cooler... Besides, the weather wasn't exactly sweltering, burning hot... There wasn't even an inferno!!! In fact, it's more of a cooling weather... The calm before a storm...
It's true, I tell you... As we rush back in an attemp to find some shelter, it rain... Okay, not so sudden... Drizzles are already a signal but we didn't bother abt it anyway... So when it rain, it's a downpour, with cats, dogs, cows and sheeps... Quickly took refuge @ a shelter and tt's when I saw another good-looking guy... Haha... Fancy have a shuai ge to ogle @ tt time, when it's boring... *grins*
After some time, I don't know how long, we decided to return the bikes as it's nearing the time limit... So we took our umbrella and cycle towards the bike rental store... It's a new experience... The last time, I cycled in the rain... This time, I cycled with 1 hand holding a brolly... It's cool... Haha....
Took a chill pill @ [Mac] and had our uber late lunch, @ 1500++ hrs... [XP] had already left by then... Anyway, we had lunch, took a few pics before boarding 196 to [Clmenti] and heading home after tt...
Overall, this outing could have been a little more interesting if only we had cycled together... And more [Ms. Swan] antics could be pulled... Way to go [YQ], with your almost perfect imitation of [Ms. Swan]!!! ^_^
[Rec]'s parents drove us to [ECP] and it's a totally awesome ride... Imagine sitting @ the back of a lorry and getting the wind to blow you... No sweat, just constant wind... So refreshing!!! Then [XP] was thinking if such strong wind can erode your face away... LOL... I'm thinking maybe a facelift might be possible... But who knows??? The unpredictable winds could just lift your face ustil you look like some ET...
Arrived @ [ECP] and the gang took some food before proceeding to the main attraction... I thought of joining them for [Ice Kachang] but after considering tt I won't have time to enjoy, I decided against it... Guess I'll eat one slowly some other time, when time isn't of a concern... ^_^
Rent mountain bikes and we're off!!! It's been some time since I've last rode a bike and this's cool... But we weren't together... @ soem junction, we split into 2 groups... As a result, [YQ], [MJ], [SH], [XP], [Racheal] and I were a group while [Rec], [HY], [YH] and [Cass] were in the other group... We rode till 1 end of the park and we saw some beautiful scenery... [MJ] took quite a lot of photos... Guess she's a natural born photographer... *Grins*
Saw quite a few good looking guys, but none can I classify them under the category of 'hunks'... I mean, seriously, all of them are suppoters of the [UN]... Gee... If you don't have what it takes, then don't flaunt them... As if 1 item off your already hot bod will make you any cooler... Besides, the weather wasn't exactly sweltering, burning hot... There wasn't even an inferno!!! In fact, it's more of a cooling weather... The calm before a storm...
It's true, I tell you... As we rush back in an attemp to find some shelter, it rain... Okay, not so sudden... Drizzles are already a signal but we didn't bother abt it anyway... So when it rain, it's a downpour, with cats, dogs, cows and sheeps... Quickly took refuge @ a shelter and tt's when I saw another good-looking guy... Haha... Fancy have a shuai ge to ogle @ tt time, when it's boring... *grins*
After some time, I don't know how long, we decided to return the bikes as it's nearing the time limit... So we took our umbrella and cycle towards the bike rental store... It's a new experience... The last time, I cycled in the rain... This time, I cycled with 1 hand holding a brolly... It's cool... Haha....
Took a chill pill @ [Mac] and had our uber late lunch, @ 1500++ hrs... [XP] had already left by then... Anyway, we had lunch, took a few pics before boarding 196 to [Clmenti] and heading home after tt...
Overall, this outing could have been a little more interesting if only we had cycled together... And more [Ms. Swan] antics could be pulled... Way to go [YQ], with your almost perfect imitation of [Ms. Swan]!!! ^_^
Saturday, April 08, 2006
Tired...
This 1 wk seemed to be dragging and I'm really glad tt [Sat]'s finally here... Happiness seemed to have taken a wk off from visiting me and I'm like suffering from [Weekday Blues]...
Who wouldn't be down after the release of the [Common Test] results??? Who would still be in the mood when the loss of an 'A' Level subject or flunking your subjects are so real??? Who would still be thinking of fun when teacher after teacher are showing you the same overall performance graph and tt your class on the whole's under-performing??? As much as I tried to block out those negative feelings like a firewall blocking spam webbie, the negativity still seeped into me, draining me...
All this while, after my promos, I've always wondered why the senoirs always complain tt life's tough and it's hard, how they scored 'F's in every subject in their Common Test... I was baffled by their poor performance... <39!!! How can 1 score tt low for a paper???
But after the Common Test, I realised tt the same scenario could happen to me as well... It just hasn't happen yet... The close call of almost not getting an average 'C' shocked me... All this while, there're instances whereby I didn't do well for certain tests and I know the reason... Didn't study, didn't finish on time... But this time round, both my Chem and Phy grades are atrocious (to me tt is)... Maybe it's because I didn't experience this before... But this fall has made me lose my confidence and has completely demoralised me...
I feel weary... How I wish tt I could just stone 24/7... Even now I have lose my drive for [MS]... The element of fun just isn't there anymore... And come to think of it, I hardly feel any fun now... With the stress-o-metre reaching 10, my productivity's dipping to a 0...
*Sigh* This entry's seriously depressing... Hoped tt the next entry will be something less mundane... 6 more days till ECP!!!
Who wouldn't be down after the release of the [Common Test] results??? Who would still be in the mood when the loss of an 'A' Level subject or flunking your subjects are so real??? Who would still be thinking of fun when teacher after teacher are showing you the same overall performance graph and tt your class on the whole's under-performing??? As much as I tried to block out those negative feelings like a firewall blocking spam webbie, the negativity still seeped into me, draining me...
All this while, after my promos, I've always wondered why the senoirs always complain tt life's tough and it's hard, how they scored 'F's in every subject in their Common Test... I was baffled by their poor performance... <39!!! How can 1 score tt low for a paper???
But after the Common Test, I realised tt the same scenario could happen to me as well... It just hasn't happen yet... The close call of almost not getting an average 'C' shocked me... All this while, there're instances whereby I didn't do well for certain tests and I know the reason... Didn't study, didn't finish on time... But this time round, both my Chem and Phy grades are atrocious (to me tt is)... Maybe it's because I didn't experience this before... But this fall has made me lose my confidence and has completely demoralised me...
I feel weary... How I wish tt I could just stone 24/7... Even now I have lose my drive for [MS]... The element of fun just isn't there anymore... And come to think of it, I hardly feel any fun now... With the stress-o-metre reaching 10, my productivity's dipping to a 0...
*Sigh* This entry's seriously depressing... Hoped tt the next entry will be something less mundane... 6 more days till ECP!!!
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