Zoo... (Imported From Xanga)

O-k-a-y... 5 working days later, this entry's finally up and I'm done with uploading the pics... It can't be help considering tt I only have a couple of hours every day during the weekdays to upload the pics and I have a whooping 130 pics, give or take... Of course, not all are shots of humans... I mean, come on... If you're going to the zoo and all you are going to snap are your friends, what's the point of going to the zoo in the 1st place??? Anyway, pics are worth more than a thousand words, so I'll type less and let the pics tell the story...

Animals...

What greeted us @ the entrance...

Wildcat...

Throughout our walk in the zoo, we saw the following animals...

It's a sea-lion @ one of the animal show tt we attended... You have absolutely no idea how smart tt sea-lion is!!!

We saw this white tiger pacing about it's enclosure... It really was a beautiful sight to behold... Don't you find the tiger very good looking???

'Niu' or cow??? *sheepish smile*

Kawaii!!!

Humans...

The early birds... Plus me as well as I'm the photographer!!!

Looking @ us, we're obviously having a very good time, despite the rain... Yes!!! It rained in the middle of our advanture in the zoo... What a damper...

Ooo... Look @ SH trying to lead the 'animals' into the cage... *grins*

And succeeding in capturing the animals [YQ] @ [Cass]!!!

UV light special effects...

LOL... After all those phototaking and walking, we're almost exhausted... So we headed to [IMM]'s [Fish & Co] for dinner before calling it a day...

Met up with [Dar], [JY], [Bec] and her sis... It's a pity tt [SH] and [YQ] couldn't join us due to their other commitments... ='(

He's sitting on an invisible chair... Don't give me tt look tt I'm mad or something... He told me tt what's he's doing... *shrugs*

Last but not least... What I had for dinner...

Phew!!! After 3 hrs, I'm finally done with this entry!!! Heke...

Blissful Week... (Imported From Xanga)

This week is indeed blissful... I'm only having like 2 working days!!! [Mon] I have a med appointment in the morning and after tt, I took afternoon leave, allowing me to enjoy a few more hours of com time, playing [StarCraft], blog and upload pics... The following 2 days are my so-called working days as there's much to do anyway... I wasn't impaled with any arrows and thus, I have tons of time to relax and to read [UnderWorld] (I'll get to this later)... Then there's [Thur] and [Fri], where I'm down for [Open Office 2.0 Basic Writer] course... It's similar to tt of [Microsoft Word] and it's free, so [SAF] is using tt... Hence, to get to know the UI and features better, my boss signed me up for the course... Even though I'm spending similar time attending the course as I'm working, I'm not complaining... Hell, it's 2 days away from work and wearing tt uniform 2 times lesser!!!

Okay, so I did mention abt [UnderWorld]... Yes, I've watch the movie and it's going to be a habit to read the novel as well... It's not a waste of time, like some might think as the novel gives insights of what are the characters' thoughts and feelings... Emotions and information that the movie might miss out on due to time constrain... LOL... And then there's all those witty comments as well...

Oh well... Guess I shall stop here for the day... Wanna play [StarCraft] again... ^_^

P.S: Can't wait for tml and I have not forgotten abt the [Ouran] pics... But why none of you fancy the twins??? *Sob* And what's with the craze on Jap hunks all of a sudden?!

Food, Obsession, Urges... (Imported From Xanga)

I love sweet stuff!!! It's not a declaration or anything... It's just a statement of fact... I really do like sweet stuff... Cakes, tarts, sweets, anything except chocolate, I'll gladly eat them and ask for more... The sweetness is simply too alluring!!! I didn't know my craving for sweet stuff's so strong... Maybe I'm hungry, or I haven't been satisfying my cravings for too long a time, or maybe it's a combination of both... But today when I'm eating a peach tart from [Polar], my stomach immediately ask for more and I suddenly feel even more hungry... Guess the sight of me devouring the tart in a frenzied manner is the indication I need more sweet stuff to tame my cravings... LOL... To think tt [Hana Kimi] actually says tt only girls like sweet stuff...

Anyway, I'm seriously obsessed with anything yaoi, brokeback or anything with hunks in them, be it in anime form or real actors... So yeah, I'm not really a guy guy since I'm obsessing over those things tt most guys would shun away like it's some kinda mutated flesh eating virus... But to hell with tt... I'm obsessing over it and I'm not afraid to show it...

OMG... Aren't the twins like, super adorable?! I serious like them and pardon moi, but I do wanna be with the 2 of them!!! A threesome!!!

Of course, to be fair, I have to include the pics of the other characters in the anime as well right??? (I so do not wanna get flanked by the [Tamaki], [Mori], [Honey], [Kyouya] and [Haruhi] fans)... LOL... But frankly, the pic with [Honey] with a pumpkin head dress is really kawaii!!! ^_^

Last but not least, I, being human, do have urges as well... Out of nowhere, I suddenly feel like playing some of my old [PS] games, games like [Harvest Moon: Back To Nature] and [GunBound]... If you haven't realised by now, I've totally deserted [Digimon World 2] after a short play time of merely less than 24 hrs... How fickle minded can I be??? Hoho... Wonder when I'll lose interest in those above mentioned games and move back to [FFVIII] which I've yet to complete and [AnimaRO] - provided tt I can get the game running...

Of course, those are my normal urges... There's also the urge to jump a good looking guy who's older than me and with a body to die for and a good character and one tt's not looking for a fling... Of course, tt'll happen like only in my twisted dreams... Invoked when I watch [Hana Kimi] or of late [After Hours]... Seriously, [Utt] is HOT!!! I must get hold of his pics 1 way or another... Ohhh... [Utt]!!!

Oh no... My brain's getting more twisted by the moment with all those adorable pics and sinful thoughts... May my knight in shining armour come resue me!!!

Growing Apprehension... (Imported From Xanga)

I was chatting with [Sis] early this morning and I told her tt I've switched to [Xanga]... It's only then tt I realised tt she can blog 2 her [Blogger.com]... Now this made me consider the possibility tt maybe it's my user tt's having problems, not the whole com... Maybe if I use her user, I could blog as well!!! Now I'm not going to put tt hypothesis to the test or else all my efforts of creating this blog will go to waste and I've effectively wasted all my time and effort... It's better to be ignorant in times like this so tt I can avoid the hurtful truth...

Oh well, I do hope tt someone could help me in issues of [Xanga]... If whatever tt I'm doing now is already all tt is to this blog provider, then I must say tt [Blogger.com] offer bloggers more flexibility to really do whatever they want as their creativity is stretch to their limit to design their dream blog, unlike [Xanga] where almost everything's done for you and you can't really add more stuff, whereever and however we want it to be in the blog... Let's hope tt I'm wrong...

Please comment or tag or sign my guestbook, anything!!! I feel so isolated!!! *Sob*

Another Chance To Destress!!! (Imported From Xanga)

Finally!!! After being away from the blogosphere, I finally get to blog again!!! Rejoice!!! *fireworks* Let's just hope tt I won't and never will get the same problem again... Tt sense of dis-connectedness... Tsk...

Anyway, my mood has taken a turn for the worse of late due to the online admission for the universities... It's not the online application's fault... It's once again my dad... He's creating all these uncessary stress for me in such a way tt I find it hard to concentrate and produce those optional essay tt I wanna include in the online application... I mean, can't he give me time to think through my essay and stop reminding me tt I still have a essay to write every other day... It's irritating and tt's driving my inspiration away...

Let's face it... If I can pen those essays on demand, then my [GP] grade wouldn't be so sucky and he doesn't have to remind me so often... Heck, I could even complete the both essay in a day if I'm tt good... But I'm not and he doesn't understand it...

Moreover, I have a feeling tt he doens't trust me very much... I mean, it's our practice to SMS him whenever I'm home from sch in the past, and now work... However, yesterday, when he didn't receive my SMS, he immediatedly assumed tt I've forgotten abt it as he didn't receive my SMS... I wouldn't be so mad if he had asked politely... But NO... When he came home, he questioned me with tt stern look of his, 'Your phone spoil is it? Never SMS me when you're home... If you're late, @ least SMS me la...' Tt enraged me... He could have asked if I did SMS him 1st before jumping to conclusions... If I had, which for the record, I did, then it's the delay in him receiving the SMS... It has nth to do with me already and thus, I've been wrongly accused yet again...

Then there's the matter of today... He saw me key in the application no. (I need it to pay the application fee to NUS via the ATM) in my HP and as we were abt to leave the house, he asked me if I have the application no. with me... 'I already save it in my phone what,' was my reply... Guess what happened next??? He blew his top and thundered if I'm playing punk with him... Oh for heaven's sake, indirectly, I'm saying 'yes'... But he obviously didn't catch it and has to be told directly with a 'yes'... Gee... Can't I give my answer in a more innovative way with the same meaning nonetheless??? *Tsk* With tt, my whole [Sat] was ruined...

He obviously doesn't understand me... When my plan is to stay @ home... I mean it... I do not wanna go out and I wanna, well, stay @ home and use the com... I can't believe he's so dense to be unable to see my point... I want my undisturbed weekend, doing what I want!!! Can't I even have tt simple wish of mine???

Before I sign off, sometimes I wonder if he's really trying to communicate with me... Today, when he blew his top, he asked what was my problem... Like hell am I gonna complain to him when he's angry... I doubt anyone would want to pour out their problems in tt manner, unless they've lost their minds...

After complaining... I guess it's my fault to begin with... If only I have noticed tt the NTU essay's optional, I would've 1 less essay to write and perhaps, none of these would happen le...

It's Impossible To Deny...

No matter how hard I try to deny the fact tt I'm partially blind, to pretend tt I'm totally normal, the fact is tt my eyesight is worsening... I'm not being pessimistic... I'm merely stating the fact...

I'm constantly reminded of my condition... When I bump into ppl on the street, or when I knocked into something or some kid, when I can't see objects tt's right in front of me, when I can't see in the dark... All these are just some of the situations tt remind me tt I'm not normal... And it can get fustrating @ times, like today...

I wasn't looking @ where I'm walking... I was looking @ a door tt's open to my right... It's supposed to be closed, so it caught my attention... Yet just as I was day dreaming and not looking straight, a lady bumped into me and I apologised... Most ppl would ignore me or just accept my apology, rendering me slightly embarrassed... Yet she was those minority (ppl tt wore heels with their manicured toes exposed) tt would kick up a big fuss over tt knock... And tt reminds me of my eye condition, spoiling my day...

Worse yet, the best she could complain @ the bump was, 'Aiyo, how you walk one?'... Tt pissed me even more as I was so tempted to reply, 'DUH!!! Using my legs la!!!' Moreoever, if she wanna blame someone, she should blame herself as well for not looking @ where she's walking, or for assuming tt she's so slim (or tt the walkway is very spacious) for the 2 of us to walk abreast... Seriously, tt lady has some issues with her size...

I'm not prejudice towards her or anything, mind you... It's just tt the reminder of my condition, tt I'm not normal (pun intended) irks me once in a while... LOL... I call tt my PMS syndrom... *Sigh* Guess I'll end here... ^_^

Time To Spare...

A couple of days ago, on 02/03/2007, [Friday] to be exact, I went back to [PJC] to get back my 'A' Level results... The sch did exceptionally well with respect to previous years... What do you expect anyway??? Tt's the dragon batch, mind you... We're the once making miracles, setting an even higher expection for the snake babies, causing them to be even more stress then they would wanna be... Hmmm... News travel fast, so I reckon tt everyone tt I know already knew of my performances... However, I still wanna put those alphabets down, to capture the emotions and memories of this particular time as I key this entry down...

Maths 9233, Chemistry, Physics - An 'A' each...
Economics - B (I'm surprised by this...)
English - C6 (I'm being optimistic by saying tt I ought to be glad tt I didn't get a D7 or worse, fail)

I have yet to decide on which Uni to pursue my Biz course... On one hand, a lot of ppl have been saying tt [NUS] is the better choice as it excel in tt course... On the other hand, [NTU] offers a 3 yrs course and it's a direct honors as well... Furthermore, the honors' recoginsed by both the [British] & [US]... Which should I go??? Guess I'll only make up my mind when I attend the open houses of both Unis during this coming weekend... You know, understanding the environment and all...

Now it's time for my sick mind to take over... As i was bathing, I suddenly thought abt [Soon Leng]... Not in those kinda perverted manner, mind you... Though, now tt I think abt it, I don't mind if tt perverted dream becomes reality...

*Slap* I'm seriously gonna turn into [Xuyi] soon... Being so retarded... I'm already almost like him, denying my perference for guys as if being gay is such a sin... Oh wait... It is such a sin... I betcha my parents gonna flip if they know abt this... So hush okay!!! *Frantic look*

Oh well, looking forward to my own next entry... Don't really have much time to blog nowadays... *Sad look* ='(

Peeved...

Previously, I was devastated tt I couldn't record all the fun time tt I had with the gang during [New Year] on my blog... Now I'm simply peeved @ the fact tt I'm experiencing a sever sense of disconnected-ness... Guess tt can't be helped, so I shall try to keep my entries really, really short to prevent history from repeating itself...

B/w playing [MS], [RO] and watching [Hana Kimi], I will prefer the latter for now as it's all the craze and pardon me, but I'm beginning to love (note the word tt I use here) [Wu Zun] & [Jiro]... They seem to be getting more attractive by the min... *Grins*

Hence, if who ever is reading have any pics of the show [Hana Kimi] or the boyband [Fahrenheit], do share!!! I can't wait to expand my collection of photos!!! Heke...

Oh, and before I forget... Talk abt photos, I'm still very much interested in pics from [Ouran]... Once again, if any of you who're reading this entry should possess those pics as well, do share too!!!

P.S: By sharing, I mean simply send it to me via e-mail... Tt way, there's no excuse tt you didn't share cos I'm not in MSN... LOL!!! =D

Unique Day...

Okay, it's obvious tt I've no choice but to forgo tt 2 entries tt I've painstakingly typed in [NotePad]... As long as I've experience the events personally and tt it has and had affected my life, whether I'm able to remember it or not doesn't matter as the changes have already been done... Pity tt I couldn't remember those beautiful moments when I look through my older posts in the future...

Mourning aside, I shall move straight to the main topic... I experienced my 1st fire drill in camp today... You can say tt my reaction's slow, but who would expect it to be a fire drill??? I mean, back in [PJC] & [KSS], whenever tt alarm rang, all of us will continue to mind our own biz and ignore tt irritating ring until someone of high importance told us tt it's a fire drill... Only then we'll react...

Well, I still have tt same mentality... I mean, who knows if the fire alarm decided to malfunction @ tt time??? What if someone accidentally activated the fire alarm by mistake??? How the hell will I know??? Anyway, everyone was like taking their own sweet time and thankfully, I didn't stand out like some bright pink flashing neon sign for being so blur... But seriously, if there's a fire, I'll be in trouble 1st... I'm in [Publication] and tt room's filled with tons of books and paper... LOL... So if everything burns... Well... Leave it to your imagination...

Before I end this, one collegue actually made this remark... Tt I should hang out with them more often... I know tt I should be making friends... I am!!! I do get along just fine with all my collegues... Do talk to them once in a while... Other then tt, why can't I just mind my own biz when there's nth for me to do and let me read my novel in peace??? Why do I have to go to breaks just because it's break??? Unless there's good, sweet stuff in store for me, I would rather read my novels and stay away from human contact... Which I feel tt it's better as their way of wasting time is totally different from mine... They can sleep, talk crap, hurl profanities for all I care to kill time... I just wanna read my novel or surf the intranet forums to past time... Oh heck... Overall, I'm just different from those so-called 'normal guys'...

Devastated...

I feel rotten inside out... The past few entries tt I've all saved as notepad docs can't be used... I can't copy and paste them here... I've no idea why, but I'll continue trying till I succeed in posting tt 2 entries of mine... For now, take it tt I'm on hiatus or something from the bloging world... I wanna chase back my love for [MS] and [RO] as well as my animes...

Rather short entry this time round... It's a little surprising huh... Heke... ^_^

On Leave!!!

After being enlisted, I didn't know I'm entitled to 1 day leave... Surprise, surprise!!! [Cheif Clerk] summoned me down yesterday and told me tt wonderful news and I was also informed tt I have to clear tt leave for the year... No bringing forward of leaves anymore...

Think abt it... By today, if I didn't take the leave, it'll be wasted... So, I was willingly forced to take tt wonderful leave!!! Rejoice!!! An extended weekend till [Tue]!!! I couldn't be happier!!!

In the end, I headed to [K-Box] with some of the gang members and had a ball of a time!!! LOL... Truthfully, I had a ball of a time eating tons of snacks... Heke... =D

Oh well, I guess my entries are going to be shortened from now on... Life's will be monotonous from now on as a clerk and I like it... Admin stuff, the kinda stuff I like... Working in the office... It's superb!!!

Oh ya... I miss this... When the gang saw me bald, I was instantly under the limelight... I was treated as some kinda newly discovered animal and tourists are busy snapping pics of me... Gee... But feeling my head, I feel heavier now... Probably due to the increasing information being stored as well as more hair growing... Heke... ^_^

Off to [youtube.com]... Tata~... =D

Drained...

It's been 2 wks I think since I've last keyed in an entry here... Been busy these few days... Went away from home for a wk (not running away from home, mind you) for my [NS Induction Programe] and now, I'm being posted to another new camp for the rest of my 2 yrs in the army...

No reservist and it's a 8 - 5 job, except for certain days where I've to do some overnight duties... Other than tt, tt's life as a clerk... Of course, it sounds relaxing... Heck, IT IS relaxing... However, after being @ work for 2 days, stoning can be a very tiring task as well... Hopefully, life as a stoner ends today cause the bosses will be back from their leave and tt will only equate to more tasks being assigned to me...

Will do a proper entry some time during the hols, or when I feel like it (rubbish)... Apart from work, helping you ppl out in your work, watching animes, [Taiwanese] dramas, and playing [RO], I've nth else to do, so... You get the pt huh...

Oh well, need my beauty slp before I anticipate a better, more productive tml... ^_^

Deeply Troubled...

In case any of you misread the title, I'm not in a pile of shit... I'm feeling troubled... Yes, T-R-O-U-B-L-E-D... Perhaps it's the 1st time I'm really feeling troubled... Ho-ho... The seemingly joyful [~LeiLa~] has finally encountered some milestone, some of you might say...

For once, I'll cut the crap and answer all of your prayers, by keeping this entry short... Ha~!!! This decision of mine really follows a Poisson distribution... LOL...

Okay, less crap and no beating around the bush... In actual fact, I've been troubled ever since the end of the 'A's... There's tt nightmare of me flunking [GP] and doing badly for [Maths]... But tt's not the main reason... The 'A's over and I'm not really happy abt it... So there's no more exams, tests, etc.... But this also means the transition to adult-hood and for me, giving up civilian life for the next 2 yrs... Now tt's a huge change for me to adapt to...

I hate changes and I just simply can't get over it... There're times when I feel like I'm reverting back to my old self, the reclusive self, a loner... Maybe tt won't be too bad since making friends in the 1st place and networking isn't my forte @ all... I know tt thought is bad, but tt did cross my mind once in a while...

I'm done with what I'm suppose to note down... New entries might not be so often nowadays since I'm now preoccupied with [Ragnarok Online] - a more intellectual 3-D versuion of [MS], - [Ouran], [Hana Kimi] and [Get Backers]... LOL... =D

Deep In Thought...

Short in length but much to think abt… I don’t know why, but my mind seems to be thinking abt unnessary stuff whenever I’m totally free (read: slacking)… Maybe [YH] is right… I’m troubled, aka stress, abt the upcoming army life tt I’ll be going through… *Groans*

Anyway, just a few days back, I was wondering the same old thing tt I’ve always been wondering for quite some time now… Should I even think abt starting a relationship now??? I mean, in the past, I knew better than to be in one cause study comes 1st… However, now tt exams are over, I could consider right, with so much time on my hands and all… Tt’s my heart talking… My brain on the other hand, is telling me tt it’s not the right time as clearly, I’m not the type who would place relationships as 1st priority… To me, gaming is my love… Hence no matter how much I longed to be loved, it’s not really… Correct as I don’t think I’m able to give my fullest attention and not doing tt totally defeats the purpose in being a relationship…

Imagine… My other half calls to ask me out for shopping/ movie watching/ stoning and what’s my reply??? ‘Sry, I can’t make it… I wanna stay @ home to play DOTA/ MS/ RO/ Digimon World 2…’ Can you reckon how horrible it is??? I betcha the relationship wouldn’t even last past a mth…

Oh WTH… Guess this is a very good example of yearning for something tt you don’t have… And once you have it, you realized tt it’s not so great after all… What can I say??? I’m human after all…

Anyway, probably last [Wed] or [Tue], I had a nightmare, one tt feels and sounds totally real to me… In the past, the dreams tt I have are all abt me and some hunks, which I totally know tt are not going to happen, not in a thousand years, or even in my next 10 lifetimes… Unless I’m reincarnated as a female, tt is… Anyway, I dreamt tt I’ve gotten back my exams result and I got a ‘B’ for [Maths]!!! Can you believe it?! A ‘B’!!! And tt’s not the end… I totally flunk my [GP] in tt dream of mine… Scored a G8 for it… Now, anyone seeing tt would know tt it’s not possible cause there’s only E8… But being in a dream, with illogical being the only logic, when I saw the ‘G’, and realized tt it’s after ‘F’, I immediately drew the conclusion tt I’ve flunk tt subject badly… Plus I still remember talking on the phone with [ShunMing], and going like ‘Shit, I fail my [GP], how am I going to face my dad???’ With tt, I got out of my nightmare, not feeling very well, wondering if whatever I’ve experience is indeed reality…

And tt’s not the end of my problems… I’m losing my appetite… Even when I’m hungry, when food is served, I feel full and can’t eat as much like I used to… I have no idea why my appetite can disappear so fast… Post exams stress??? Pre army stress??? Perhaps… Somehow, I feel tt it’s unjust… I want to touch my com more… Play MS like I’ve never played before… Yet I can’t thanks to whatever I’m going through… And to divine intervention as well… Of all the time to not have internet connection, it has to be now… Because of who knows what probs, I can only access the internet for the 1st 15 mins every time I turn on the com… Surprisingly though, I can use MSN to chat and receive pics, even though the transfer time is horrendously slow… Oh well, could be some virus or spyware tt couldn’t be detected… My dad’s contemplating re-formatting the com and I second tt… As long as he does it asap, and not after I enter you-know-where… It’s pointless then… Zzz…

Oh well… Signing off now… Heke… =D

Chalet...

After my usual once-in-2/3-mths skin check-up @ the [National Skin Centre] which I'm beginning to get really sick of, I went for lunch... To be precise, @ [United Square]'s [Food Junction]... I had [Ham & Mushroom Pasta], thinking tt since I've had it before in the past, it should be rather edible and tasteful, @ the very least...

Yet I was horribly wrong... The pasta's tomato sauce was choke full of herbs and the mushroom looks poisonous... Worse... There's no grated cheese on the pasta unless you ask for it personally... Sheesh!!! I'm bitten twice and if I don't learn my lesson now, I simply couldn't be more dense...

Distasteful lunch aside, I met up with [Lynn] and both of us shared cost to have [Ben & Jerry's]... We had the waffle + 3 scoops of ice cream + toppings ice-cream, whatever the name of tt thing is and yupz, it's indeed delicious... If I have the chance, I'll definitely eat it again, even though it's a little bit on the expensive side...

After tt sinful and filling meal, we headed to [Pasir Ris] and *gasp*... I've absolutely no, as in nada, idea on how to get to [Aloha Loyang], let alone know where on earth is the free shuttle service... Tt's a little retarded I know... But I was too busy playing [MS] the day before and I forgot to take note of those details... Hence I called the ever trustworthy [YH] for help and I betcha she's on the brink of an imminent heart failure as she's talking to be... Nevertheless, I managed to get to the chalet... Yes, we walked there, when it's raining... A freaking 20 mins walk!!! Gosh!!!

Once @ the chalet, the 1st thing I did was to operate the [PS2] and play [Worms 4] with [Mr. Ling], [RN] and [Lynn]... The 1st round, everyone ganed up on [Mr. Ling] and beat him to a pulp (not literally) in less than 10 mins... the 2nd round though, they ganged up on me... But because of [Lady Luck], I managed to escape being trashed... However, the game ened prematurely due to arrival of the rest of [deCliques]...

Moving on, I played a game of [Reversi] with [Quin] and it's an interesting game... Just imgine... Me, her opponent, teaching her how to win... Ironic isn't it??? On the surface, tt seemed to be the case... But analyse the situation deeper, both of us are learning abt our short-comings and in tt process, attain knowledge on becoming better players... Wah!!! So chim!!! LOL...

The [BBQ] started then and I still continued to play the [PS2], [Naruto] & [Worms]... LOL... I didn't even bother abt the food and I only ate 1 sotong ball... Surprisingly though, I wasn't even hungry... Guess as long as I have games, nothing else matters...

Tt pt is proven as I watched some play [MJ] till abt 2 am... Surprised by [Joan]'s hidden talents @ [MJ]... [KL], [Ryl], [Lynn], [Reina], [Quin], [ZS] and [J] then decided to head to [DownTown East] for food and I tagged along, hoping to be able to make my presence felt @ the 24-hr arcade...

Alas, by the time we arrived @ [DownTown East], everything's closed!!! Even those so-called 24-hrs shops like [Cheers] and [X-Zone] are closed!!! C-L-O-S-E-D!!! I can't believe it!!! My hopes of playing the arcade are dashed in an instance... *Sob*... So we stoned a little before heading to [Mac] (where else???) for a bite... Isn't tt dumb??? Spend 20 mins walking just to eat [Mac] when you can save tt time by ordering delivery... Dotzzz...

Heke... It's only @ abt this time, 3.30 am tt I felt hungry... Surprised isn't it??? 12 hrs w/o food and I don't feel starved!!! Am I human??? Or do I simply have too much hidden fats under my clothes to burn??? I'm guessing the later...

Anyway, before I digress further, they ate [Mac] breakfast @ 4 am and after tt, we headed back to the chalet... It's creepy... Imagine walking past all those private houses, dilapidated houses tt're for sales in the wee morning of the day when the sun isn't out... What if there's a ghost sighting??? Or a psycho??? Won't our lives be in danger??? Hey... Some psycho go after guys as well okay?! Tt's why they're called p-s-y-c-h-o right???

We managed to arrived @ the chalet safe and sound and some ppl are playing [PS2] while others are doing [MJ]... I chose [MJ] and [Quin], [ZS], [TY] and I played till like abt 8.50 am... From 5 am plus till tt time... LOL... Super pro right??? However, because of [Lady Luck] helping me during my game of [Worms 4], she wasn't with me when I needed her most when we're playing [MJ]... With cash... *Sigh*... As a result, I lost $4.50... Grrr... It's [Murphy Laws] I tell you... When we're not playing with cash, I did win a few rounds here and there... But when we're playing cash, I became everyone's [God Of Fortune]... Grrr...

Oh well... Headed back to home sweet home after tt and I fell crashed the moment I touch my bed (after I shower and brush my teeth obviously)... It's shocking I tell you!!! 5 hrs of sleep and I didn't even hear the vaccuum cleaner when [Sis] did vaccuumed the house... Guess I'm really tired...

Hmmm... Oh ya... Once more thing before I end and watch my beloved [Death Note] anime... It's known tt mint [Mentos] - whatever type, as long as they're mint - can cause explosion when it reacts with coke (try it yourself), as well as kill sperms... So as I was eating my [SpearMint] sweet, there's advice for me not to eat too much... I appreciate their concern... But hey!!! I'm only a kid!!! Losing millions of sperms wouldn't kill... It's not like the sweet's gonna make me infertile... Sperms are constantly being reproduced and they constantly die as well... So what if I'm catalysing their deaths??? I don't need them anyway... Not now, not ever... *Grins*

A Different Sat...

Today feels totally different... I mean, there's no more need to rush to complete your assignments or revise your work... The entire day feels empty... Well, not exactly empty empty... After I've watched [Get Backers] and had my breakfast @ the same time, I went to my room to do some serious cleaning...

You should see the amount of papers (and hence the amt of trees tt died) I've collected over the past 2 yrs... It's like 4 large plastic bags full!!! Ignoring the environmental costs, the disposing of all those worksheets and the thought of not seeing them ever again seriously thrills me... There's no longer the need to bother abt the structures of [Terelyn], [Nylon 6] or [Nylon 66], the distinguishing tests of carbonyl, tri-iodomethane and 2,4-DNPH ever again!!! Wow... Look @ the amt of brain space I've liberated for [MS]... LOL...

So once I'm done with dumping all those waste papers into the store room, I help my sis wrap her textbooks... @ least I'm doing some productive work here... Oh and as I was looking through her [A-Maths] book, the topics totally shocked me!!! She like learning [Partial Fractions], integrating expressions like 1/(ax+b) and the factor formula for trigo... Can you imagine how fast children are nowadays??? They're like 2 yrs in advance... Ya... She's in [Sec 3] and those topics are like [J1] standards... Sigh... Guess as we get more developed, the poor next generations have more to learn @ a younger age... Perhaps you can say tt tt's the price of development - higher standard of living, but lower quality of life???

Taking abt quality of life, mine's not improving despite the hols... And the root of tt huge prob lies within my [Dad]... Fancy him telling me to do more cleaning today, when I've just finsihed clearing my worksheets and I'm just starting my hols... Gee... Can't he just leave whatever tt's in my drawer untouched instead of thinking of clearing them??? I can really imagine how next [Thurs] will be like already... I'll be stucked in my room, with a rag full of chemicals, removing all my items in the drawer and cleaning the drawer... My poor hands will suffer in the long run and if tt's going to turn into reality, I'll seriously throw everything away... I mean, I hardly touch anything in my drawer ever since the last time I cleaned it... So I might as well throw everything and create more space... I see no pt in keeping them for 'just in case I'll use them in the future' scenerios...

Apart from tt, I was discussing with [Mum] on where to buy my [Grad Night] clothes and what time should I set off on the actual [Grad Night] as I planned to have my haircut first before heading for the dinner... Then [Dad] interjected our conversation and he exclaimed this...

'KNS la you, worse than a woman... Must go for a haircut 1st... KNS...'

After hering tt, my conversation with [Mum] ended abruptly and I'm seriously fuming on the inside... For starters, if I'm worse than a woman, I wouldn't only go for a haircut... I mean, [deClique]'s already planning to hire some makeup personale to help them with their makeup and hairdo... So comapred to them, I'm better than woman, not worse off!!!

Second, is it so wrong to look my best on tt day??? It's the last time we'll be seeing everyone and I just wanna look my best... Is there fault in it?! Can't they be more understanding even though they didn't even go through tt phase ever in their lives??? Perhaps to them, [Grad Night] is just a dinner and there's no need to kick up a big fuss... But well, they are simply wrong...

Hmmm... I'll stop here for now... I'll blog next wk, when I return from my class chalet... Until then, tata my friends...

Moving On...

Gosh... It's finally over!!! After slogging for 2 yrs, @ last, the battle's over... The results aren't out yet, so I know I shouldn't be jumping for glee now... There's always the 'what ifs'... But oh heck... If I'm to spend my short (I really meant short) hols groaning and worrying and whining abt how tough the papers are, the careless mistakes I've made, etc... Life's going to be super boring...

So like what I do after every exams, I'll just sit back, and have tons of fun in front of the com... Rot like there's no tml and oh, dispose of all my worksheets and TYS... LOL... If the teachers didn't force us to buy the TYS, I wouldn't even have bothered... Those books are super new and I betcha tt I can even sell the books higher than the cost prices... With all the valuable, neat notes tt're in there, how can the value depreciate???

Enough abt studying and everything... There's so many thngs to do and I can't wait to put them all in action... But before I do tt, lemme list them all down first... Here goes...

1. Watch [Death Note] anime
2. Watch [Tsubasa Chronicles] anime
3. Watch [It Started With A Kiss]
4. Watch [The Covanent] with friends
5. Reunite with my bf!!!
6. Change blogskin

Surprised with no. 5??? LOL... I was totally devastated when we break up... And it's been like 4 - 5 mths already... But look @ me!!! I'm not a least bit affected by it... Instead, I managed to turn all those negative thoughts into my inspiration to study, even though it was a struggle... Who knows??? We managed to patch things up and now, I'm living happily ever after with my beloved!!! We'll surely make it past our 2 yrs, me and my [MS]!!! LOL...

Oh well... Now tt [blogskins.com]'s updating stuff... I guess I've no choice but to do it later... Now I shall rendevous with my beloved... Tata~...

P.S: I beg of you... No spamming of the taggy anymore!!! Just because I'm away studying doesn't mean you can drive me to my grave... Behold my wrath!!!

Exam Blues...

I'm suffering from the usual case of exam blues again... The lost of incentive to study and all... Despite tt, I shall still blog and looking on the brighter side, there's rain for these few days... Hopefully, the rain clouds did pass by [Indonesia] and deposit tons of water droplets 1st before floating here... Begone evil forest fires and bring your minions - those pesky smoke particles - with you and never return (though they're sure to return next year)!!!

Haze aside, last [Fri] [PJC] had it's open house and I don't know much abt it... Don't complain cause for starters, I'm never a fan of such events tt involves tons of ppl... Moreover, I'm so caught up with finding the gang and ogling @ guys tt I'm totally oblivious to the surroundings... LOL... Of course, tt's half the reason... The other reason is tt there's this some kinda voting contest to determine the sch's beau and belle and [Soon Leng] is in it... Being me, I couldn't help but give him a vote as well as to get whoever I know (not many anyway) to vote for him as well... *Grins*... Look like I'm his no. 1 fan... Ha~...

Seriously... The outcome of tt contest is like so bloody predictable for the sch beau (I'm not talking abt the belle cause I can't tell who's prettier)... Him of course!!! Glancing thru the other contestants, [Soon Leng] is like THE most good looking guy of all... Where are the rest of those shuai ges?! Don't tell me [PJC] doesn't have any... Woops... This sch doesn't have many anyway... Whatever the case, tt competition wasn't even fair... Those good looking ones are not there and the only eligible guy has the [SC] to back him up... The foul smell of conspiracy is so strong only nose-less ppl can't detect it...

Oh ya... On [Sat], [JY], [Dar], [YH] and I went to [JP] to watch [Death Note]... I apologise for not inviting [YQ] and [XP]... I totally forgot to SMS you ppl... Guilt aside, the movie's awesome!!! It's a must watch to view it, DVD a must buy and [Death Note 2: The Last Name] is also a must watch @ the end of this year or early next year... LOL... I kinda like both [Light] and [L]... Gee... Looks like I've a thing for guys who are smart, intelligent and a little weird... LOL...

Ha~... I'll end here... Gonna watch [Death Note] anime and [Princess Hours] on [Chn U] later... Sayonara~!!!

Exam Stress Or SImply PMS???

I feel tt throwing all the bad stuff as my 1st few paragraphs for my blog will turn everyone but those closest to me off... Therefore, I've decided to blog abt those delightful issues 1st...

Just 2 days ago, our sch threw a farewell asembly for the J2... This means tt officially, we, the J2s are no longer required to attend sch for the morning ritual of singing the national anthem and pledge taking... However, we still have to, afterall, attend certain lectures and whatever lessons tt our teachers have put up for us in preparation for the 'A's...

Tt doesn't sound too bad as now I've time to study and I plan to head to the sch library and complete my assignments (and revision @ the same time)... It's the 1st time I'm doing this because I'm starting to feel tt the house is getting increasingly difficult to study due to all the TV, com and PS competing to get my attention... Therefore, by depriving myself from all those distraction, I do hope tt I could increase my productivity...

Back to the farewell assembly... The performances by the various teachers and the VP were really interesting and fun to watch... The only bummer was the performance by the [7th SC]... They really can't sing... But @ it's a good try and thanks anyway for the not so wonderful performances... *Weak smile*

Once the sch day ends, it's time for a major phototaking session by all my classmates... I was witness to the whole event and everyone was like so eager to take photos with him, her and everyone... But not me... I guess it's because I give out those 'don't even think abt taking photos with me' vibes... After all, I feel (and it's proven), tt I'm not exactly good-looking nor ugly to even warren any attention to me... Besides, I totally feel tt when I smile or even attempt to act cute, the end result is totally hideous... Guess the only expression I can give is to look normal and don't even bother to smile...

Had lunch with the class in [Pizza Hut] @ [Lot 1]... Despite it being a class lunch, there wasn't any class-y interactions as after 2 yrs of being in our own cliques, I do feel weird conversing with ppl whom I'm not too close with... After all, the topics available with strangers are just tt limited, and I'm a very shy and reserved person when it comes to being around with stangers... Perhaps those who aren't close to me find tt I'm a very distant and cold person... However, to those I consider as friends, I'm more talkative and as for my buds, I only have this to say... It's remarkable of you to bear my incessant chattering on the phone...

1st impression counts but there's a great percentage error to the vaildity of it...

Now let's move on to some solemn issues... Of late, my mood is @ an all time low, just like tt of the weather, @ an all time low due to the persistent haze... Sometimes it's only human nature to immediately shift the blame to others... However, we can't really totally blame the [Indonesians] for burning down the forest... After all, they depend on the land for their survival... Sure, some of you may argue tt they could've adopt other means to clear the lands... But they're living in poverty!!! Do they have the means (knowledge and technology) to actually clear the land using more environmentally friendly means??? It's beyond their reach to do so...

I know I'm digressing... Nonetheless, if we want to blame ppl for the haze, we have only ourselves to blame... If every country actually could really send aid, I mean not only monetary aid, but other forms of aid tt'll help increase the welfare of the poor, perhaps the haze can be prevented... Yet tt is easier said than done...

O-k-ay... Back to my bad mood... I do think tt it's the exam stress and with me being such a passive person, I've no means to de-stress and the effect is a bad mood... I guess everything will improve once the 'A's is over... But my foul mood will remain...

The root of the problem??? I've just received a letter from [MinDef] announcing my date of enlistment to the army... So I've no BMT and I'll only be gone for 5.5 days, what's the prob??? Well, the prob is of majority of the ppl surrounding me, including my parents... And my inability to be in self-denial...

Let's dwell on the self-denial part 1st... After my med check-up, and my wonderful PES E status was bestowed to me a few mths back, I was happily deluding myself tt tt's the end of the army issue... The study stress, friends and [DOTA] actaully helped to shove tt inveitable event (my enlistment) to the back of my mind... I even have to cheek to help organise the gang's chalet even though I knew @ tt pt of time tt my probability of my giving tt a miss is rather high... I even envisioned myself @ the arcade enjoying myself @ the wee hours of the night...

Then came the letter which totally obliterated all hope of me going to the army @ a later date... as I was in self-denial, accepting the truth is a little hard but I've managed to accomplished tt some time ago... Despite tt, my mood hasn't improved...

The main cause of it (I reckon) is the persistent nagging of me to prepare for army life by my parents and some of my friends... Advising me to attempt bathing faster and in cold water are only 2 of the numerous irritating advice tt're thrown to me like it's free...

As If I don't have to worry abt doing well for my 'A's, I have to worry abt tt... Can't they cut me some slack and stop mentioning abt army life?! The 'A's is really stressful enough as I have high hopes for myself and I can't even fanthom myself messing it up...

But does anyone understand??? NO!!! None of them... All they ever care abt was the after 'A's phase, not the before 'A's and during 'A's phases... Insisting tt I should train up and be more man, etc... I'm not tt free to even attempt to factor those events into my schedule...

*Deep breathes*... Can't those closer to me actually see tt I hate (I'm using such strong words on purpose) exercising??? Tt I prefer online gaming and playing my PS to those activities??? After caring for me for so long, can't they realise tt??? Sometimes I can't stand them...

Tt day, when I showed them my prelim result slip, they're only concered if I could get into a uni and they were impressed tt I'm the [ACM]... It's no big deal anyway, but they sounded so impressed... Then they noticed tt the teacher wrote tt I'm a 'quiet and reserved' person... I mean, I've always been like tt... But my dad asked how come I'm reserved!!!

Sheesh!!! I'm just shy when it comes to strangers, can't they tell??? Okay, so I'm a little withdrawn from my parents as well... But tt because they thought tt every cartoon I watch is the same!!! Try explaining why 1+1=2 to a sec 1 student and you'll know how I feel @ tt pt of time... I was watching my recorded [Tubasa Chronicles] yesterday and my dad asked this dumb question...

'I thought you watched this yesterday (Friday) already???'

FYI, on [Friday], the anime I was watching [Inuyasha]... Just because I'm watching cartoon doesn't mean tt they're all similar... Can't they see animes as dramas with different episodes??? You don't see me complaining to them everyday @ 7 pm for watching the same drama...

After all those complaining, it's obivous there's a rift b/w me and my parents... I'm not the kind to take initiatives and passively, I'll prevent the gap from widening...

There!!! I feel much relieved now... Looking ahead, I'll enter [Tekong] with less hatred, tt I can assure myself... As for enlarging my social circle, tt I can't promise... Afterall, life as a loner isn't always tt terrible and having the gang is the best thing tt could ever happen to me...

It's terrible to envision the future when we all go our separate ways... Yet I know it's heart-breaking to tihnk of such events now... When the time comes to move on, tt feeling will no longer be there except when memories are revived...

Can't type anymore... My feeling are in a turmoil now... Arghhh!!!

PSI = 150!!! Record High!!!

Ya, as I'm typing this, the air quality is atrocious... And I do think tt the acrid smell is affecting me negatively... I don't know if it's due to the stress I'm experiecning to do well or simply just the haze tt's irritating me or a combination of both, but I'm easily irritable of late... Maybe it's just a simple case of PMS... LOL...

Anyway, let's start from the beginning of the wk... Tt's where the tell-tale signs of me having my alleged PMS starts... For those tt originates from [KSS], you should know what I'm referring to... You know those kinda taffic lights tt only turn red when you press the button??? The vicinity of [PJC] has a similar traffic light so as to allow children and students to cross the road in the morning in peace... Around [Mon] or [Tue], as I approached tt traffic light, there were 2 teachers and some [TWSS] students waiting for the green man to appear... There's no prob to tt... Except tt none of them did press the button!!! So how on earth is the lights going to change??? I was utterly pissed off by what I witness and if I hadn't saved the day and pushed tt button, I bet everyone's gonna wait dumbly for who-knows-how-long...

Yes, it's no big deal actually... But I'm bewildered by the fact tt the 2 teachers didn't even bother to even press the button!!! They were like happily chatting down there, not giving a damn... Even worse, they teachers are from my sch... Gosh... Then again, I shouldn't be so critical abt them... I believe in karma you know... What goes around comes around... Who knows maybe in the near future, someone's gonna call me 'dumb' as well... Note to self: I should watch what I think...

Tt outta my chest, I think I feel much better... Now I shall delicate this para to [Quin], my 'Milo Bud'... It's uber sweet of her to bring mooncakes for declique on 2 consecutive days, and different types as well... The 1st time she bought the mooncakes, it's those traditional ones with egg yokes and whatever-nuts you call them in the mooncakes... On the next day, she bought those with different flavours... There's durian, yam and something else... I tried the durian and I find tt it's yummy... You rock [Quin], even though you didn't do all the baking yourself... Thanks loads!!! ^_^

Now it's where the sentimental me slowly comes in and the pissed off me disappears... I was watching [Tsubasa Chronicals] yeasterday on [Animax] and it showed tt particular episode where [Shaoran] and company went to one of the world w/o feathers... During tt episode, [Sakura] managed to regain her memory of her birthday, except tt [Shaoran] is not in tt memory... Despite tt, [Shaoran] still wants to help [Sakura] regain back all her memories because as long as [Sakura] is happy, [Shaoran] is contented already... Then [Shaoran] relives tt same memory of [Sakura]'s b-day, with him in the memory... I find tt part especially touching... Tt unconditional love to [Sakura]... It's true love I tell you, and I wonder when I'll get to experience tt...

It's only human nature to long for something tt we don't have... The following kinda proves my pt...

I was having an extremely weird dream a few days back and I still remember it vividly... In the dream, a hunky guy in beach wear - flora shirt and bermudas - was pushing me against the wall and having both hands pressed on both sides of me, cutting my escape route... Then he leaned closer to me and we French kissed... The kiss lasted for only a second or 2... He pulled back his head just as I've gotten over the shock and was wanting more... What's worse is tt I couldn't see the features of my man of my dreams... Such a pity... *groans* :S

Perhaps when I actually got a taste of being in a relationship will I stop all this thoughts... For now, I'm following my heart even though the most rational thing to do is to follow my head, which is currently telling me not to get into a relationship but study for the 'A's!!! LOL... Of course, tt's only part of my dream... The other half is a psychotic one... I actually dreamt tt [Ming]'s the type of psycho tt likes to hit ppl and I'm a sadist tt like to be beaten... OMG... I can't believe I dreamt of tt kinda sicko sutff... Guess I'm a step closer to needing a psychaitrist...

Before I end off, I wanna note down this theory of mine as I find tt it's a very good hypothesis of how Biology works...

I believe tt humans are created such a way tt they're spread out over a range abt a mean... I.e, the creation of human is normally distributed with a certain mean and variance... The mean consist of ppl like you and me, those who are either very clever, but lack the looks - a.k.a geeks, - those who are god-like, but dumb - a.k.a bimbos or himbos - and those who are neither very intelligent or good-looking, those average Joes and Janes ... These ppl can be classified as the normal kinda ppl... Then there's those @ the 2 extreme ends... On the negative ends are the handicapped ppl, those born with disabilities... They're placed there as satistically, the probability of them being born is very low, which is proven... On the positive end then are the anomalies... Ppl born with superb abilities... Either they've special abilities like [Chris Angel], the famous street magician, they're born with both good-looks and intelligence... And this is where I'll classify [SL]... The falls in tt category as satistically speaking, the probability of the likes of him appearing in this world ever again is almost negligible...

Oh well... I've written my fill and before I really end off, the following is a summary of my grades for me [Prelims]... I feel stressed out to maintain my momentum and perform better... *sigh*

English --> C6 (almost failed if not for moderation)
Maths --> A
Phy ---> A
Chem --> B
Econs --> E (almost failed this as well due to essay, my nemesis)

P.S: I saw my J1 eye-candy again!!! It's been a long time since I've last seen him... Saw him @ [KFC] in [Lot 1] ttyeaterday when I'm having my dinner... He's so adorable!!! (I'm going a little crazy here...)

My Mind's Drifting...

It's just 33 more days... I wonder if I can hold on tt long... With the new time-table, our lessons are greatly reduced and the rationale for tt SUPPOSEDLY is to allow us students to do after sch consultation and revision...

I understand tt concept so for the past 3 days, I've dilligently been doing my revision, making summarising the notes so tt it's more comprehensive... I know I can't summarise all the chapters for all of my subjects... But doing some will lessen my load when it's time do review whatever I've learnt...

Despite all tt I"ve mentioned, I'm afraid I'll just give up half-way again... The last time I did my mind-maps, I could last beyond 2 chapters... Hence my apprehension... Though I have my fears tt the past might repeat itself, I'm confident tt I can prevent it... After all, I have to learn from my setbacks... In addition, I managed to do notes for more than 2 chapters already... Hence I believe tt I can peservere...

Tt said, I shall now attempt to resist the temptation to shut down during weekends... Tt's my vulnerability... *Sigh*

Now tt I'm done worrying, now it's time to put my hair down a little... I headed to [JP] just now with my family and I do really see a lot of guys... *Slaps* Obviously!!! How I wish some scenes from those TV dramas might surface, where I really bumped into them, you know, a head-on collision... Tt isn't so impossible considering I'm so muddle-headed and the mall's freaking packed with ppl...

*Groans* I can't believe I'm still thinking abt those issues... Perhaps my attention should really be diverted elsewhere... You know, to studies and gaming... So tt I can stop dreaming... Only in the alternative reality will my dream come true...

Before I end this... He asked me for my blog add yesterday... I gave it to him AGAIN with a tinge of disappointment... No matter what, tt devious hope is always there eating @ my heart... Darn it...

OMG!!! My life's getting boring by the day, evident from the blog entries... I need to spice things up a little in my life!!! But for now, let me just help [XP] in finding her desired MP3s...

P,S: This has been bugging me for a long time now... Should I get a tote for myself??? *Questioning look* Heke... ^_^

BlackMail...

I've been blackmailed... By a person I believed tt's my friend... Can you believe the atrocity of tt?! And you're not going to buy what she's blackmail-ing me with... The previous post...

Of course, I'm not truly shocked or angry @ tt... After all, those are my memories and I'm merely typing them out... What's more, it's all in the past... Repeat after me, P-A-S-T... Yes!!! As in history!!! Now I'm simply going to concentrate on my [MS], [Digimon World 2], [.Hack], [Tsubasa] and my studies... I'll try to install a firewall to block out all those malicious affairs of my heart... I'm determined to @ least complete my [DW2] as tt'll mark my very 1st PS RPG game tt I'll actually complete... LOL...

Evidently, posting tt entry up do in fact carry tons of risks... The situation described is so freaking overt to anyone tt's very close - with 'very' being the operational word here - to me can actually decipher the truth... I just hope tt no friendship is being lost here as after all, it's all history... I still hope tt I'll find my bf in the future... Perhaps like in those TV shows where I bumped into 1 hunk or tt we share some common interest and we're abt to take the same book from some library or tt some hunk took the initiative to ask me out...

OMG... I can just keep dreaming...

Headed for lunch with [YH] today and I was devastated when she told me tt she didn't wanna eat [Pizza Hut]!!! I was sooo looking forward to eating some pizza... Tt disappointment is short-lived... I mean, hello?! If I'm to get disappointed so easily, I wouldn't be alive for long... Imagine the harm of grieving @ such details!!! Gosh... We had [KFC] instead...

Once we're done, I followed her around as she shopped for gifts and borrowed books... Coincidently, both of us wanted to invite [SL] along... But evidently, both of us didn't go ahead with our plan... I can't remember why she didn't, but the reason why I didn't is because I couldn't stand another rejection from him... Come on, after wasting my SMSes and having tt 'No' thrown to me like it's FOC, I've enough sense to infer tt he has better company or things to do than to simply travel all the way to [Lot 1] or [West Mall] for a simple meal and then head back home...

Heke... There isn't really much to it... So I'll end here...

P.S: I know the blackmail thingy is in jest... Like DUH!!!

100 And Counting...

It's been 3 wks and 1 day since I've actually entered this webby and actually blogged... No, I'm not taking a sabbatical or anything... Though I do wish I could take a break from everything... You see, for the 1st wk of my absence, I'm having my hols and I'm supposed to be studying... But did I do tt??? Nooo~, I didn't... Rather, I was busy playing [DOTA] and slacking... I tell ya... Technology and food will be the cause of my death... Probably guys as well...

Then for the next 2 wks, I'm having my prelims and OMG!!! It's freaking tough... The difficulty lv has been raised to who-knows-what-lv... Perhaps I haven't been studying during the hols and I was doing last min revision once again tt I feel tt the papers' tough... The worse was [Phy]... The questions are like a combination of every topic combined... Imagine alamagating (apologies for the spelling error, if there's any) all those topics together and applying them!!! It's hell I tell you... Studying has just become a whole new thing for the children of the future... I reckon this is the end of the un-adaptable [LeiLa]... *Sigh*

@ long last the prelims' over and on the very day my last paper ended, [deClique] decided to head over to [PS] to have dinner... Tt's cool considering the alternative of no celebration after exams, which for the record, is boring... FYI, the paper ended @ 1730 hrs and tt paper - [Econs] - isn't any easier as compared to [Phy], so I'm anticipating the dinner very badly...

[Ryl], [KL] and I rushed to [PS] and joined the rest - [Lynn], [Quin], [Joan] and [LY] - @ [Manhattan Fish Market]... We had tons of laughs while we ate and all of us can't seemed to finish whatever we ordered, despite all of us being very hungry... Well, there's a very good reason for tt: We're all on a diet... LOL... Do you actually buy tt??? *Engimatic smile*

Once we're done with our dinner, we're obviously not ready to head home... Heck, we travelled all the way to [PS] just have a meal and head home??? You must be outta ya mind... The 7 of us then headed to [Cathy Cineplex] for [Ben N Jerry]!!! For eternity, we've been talking abt hanging out and eating tt ice-cream... But due to our busy schedule, we couldn't pull tt off... @ long last, we managed to fullfill tt desire to eat those delicious ice-cream together as a clique... Hooray!!!

By the time we're done, it's already 2200+ hrs and we left tt closing shop after we've taken quite a handful of photos... Hmmm... I'll attempt to get hold of those pics asap and post them up despite my horrendous self being in the pic... Don't you find my smile unnatural and my physique ugly??? Then again, if I don't smile, it'll be like I'm sulking... Gosh!!! It's a catch-22 situation!!! *Grins*

Another issue tt's I'm bugging myself with is my preference for love... Tt day when I'm having dinner with the clique, they suddenly asked my if I ever did liked a female before... I did, considering tt I so like being around her, listening to her and all... Tt's the thing of the past... Yet those memories keep floating to the surface of my mind as though it's like oil on water... Everytime I head to [Causeway] or [JP] or even any [Moss Burger], I'll thinking of the times we spent together, me listening, she talking abt the movies she has watched recently... Well, those are just tt, memories and my wishful thinking...

Another issue tt's been bugging me whenever my mind's not thinking abt games or schwork is the rumours of them being back together... It isn't any of my concern actually and they say 'ignorance is bliss'... I would rather be guessing and not knowing the truth as being kept in the dark is better... After all I can't see in the dark and what I don't know lurking in the darkness can't hurt me... I'm living in self-denial, I know... But tt's just my personality which I've developed ever since tt truth made me lost my cool in the most uncool kinda way...

Oh crap, I'm getting all emotional here... WTH... Maybe it's the envy tt I feel from all those couples... How I wish I could have some guy by my side as well... *Slap myself* I'm thinking too much again...

On a happier note, I'm currently hooked on [AniMax]... The animes are totally fabulous!!! [Tsusaba Chronicles] really rock and so does [.Hack//Lengend Of The Twillight]... Heke... However, I started a little late... How I wish I could watch them from episode 1 till the end... Nevertheless, I shall catch every single episode for now!!! Rock on anime!!!

O-k-a-y, before I end this entry, there's this extremely meaningful note tt I found some time ago on the papers tt's worth remembering...

Nostalgia does serve it's purpose... But when something you treasure has to go, then let it go; don't be a prisoner of your memories... Move on, accept the change and even embrace it... Who's to say new - and better - memories can't be born with the change???

Insightful isn't it??? Oh and before I forget, happy 100th entry to me, myself and [LeiLa]...

Friends...

It's in my nature to think more than I should really do, thinking of issues that are of little importance @ the extent of the lives of thousands of brain cells, amplifying their importance to an idiotic lv... When I could've used those pityful cells for other more pressing tasks @ hand, like concentrating on my studies...

Out of all those senseless issues, the only 1 tt bugged me the most is tt of friendship... Thinking back, I do regret not being more out-going, more friendly... I missed tt only chance of learning how to make friends... You might argue tt I was young then... Yet when I entered secondary sch, I realised tt the world out there is truly an ugly one... There'll be ppl tt'll dislike you, make fun of you, leaving an enotional wound so hugh tt time can't even heal it...

Instead, I was tricked into seeing a counsellor by a friend of mine... I didn't blame him... Rather, I'm grateful for tt... Because of him, I managed to overcome those name-callings, even accepting 1 of the nickname... Hence friends can be a good thing...

Yet up till now, I still don't know how to actually make friends... As the saying goes, 'Once bitten, twice shy'... After being the subject of name-calling from those whom I treated as friends, I'm afraid tt the same fate will befall on me once again... Thus I steered clear of strangers, preferring to hang abt ppl whom I know, who took initiative to befriend me... Those are the ppl whom I really trusts and don't really mind the real me...

Of course, the ppl tt really now me, none of them are guys... You can say tt I'm more comfortable in the company of females, gossiping of the latest news and all, rather than talking abt sports and spewing profanities like it's a pleasant word... To me, profanities in whatever language or dialect it's in is like how most ppl are perceiving [Paris]'s [Stars Are Blind]... Tt's why I dislike the company of guys... Yet I yearned to be in the embrace of 1 as well... Ironic...

Tt aside, it's sad how some ppl are so simple minded tt the actions they do or the words they say can influence my friends, turning them against me or simply causing the friendship to turn sour...These ppl jumped to conclusions upon the images tt they saw, unaware of the whole picture, fabricating stories to such an extent tt my friends are very much affected...

In the past, I'll be affected by it... However, tt's the past moi... The current me is totally immune to those gossips... Instead, I'm very much intrigued to see how long they can actually be thrilled by those gossips tt they created out of their own boredom... These immature ppl are so idiotically childish they they ought to use their imagination for a greater good, like for they [PW] project or for [GP]...

I'm not going to use any profanities even though the thought of these bimbotic [J1] really make me wanna utter tt word... But I'll refrain from using tt word anyway as it's against my moral values...

Before I digress further, I'm bringing tt issue up because [Bec]'s classmates saw me and her together and wrongly assumed tt the 2 of us are a couple... Tt's an insult to [Bec] herself... I know I should be saying tt... But seriously, I do feel tt she really needs a knight in shining armour, not some clown waiting for his king... So the rumour's there and this really infuriates me...

Are teenagers a year younger than me tt much immature??? Or is it because those snakes have been hybernating way to long tt they miss the evolution in society - tt it's normal for a male and female to be together as friends??? The mere mention of those girls made my blood boil... Can't believe tt such bimbotic bitches actually can survive up till now... Their extinction is long overdue... Grow up for the love of humanity!!!