Short in length but much to think abt… I don’t know why, but my mind seems to be thinking abt unnessary stuff whenever I’m totally free (read: slacking)… Maybe [YH] is right… I’m troubled, aka stress, abt the upcoming army life tt I’ll be going through… *Groans*
Anyway, just a few days back, I was wondering the same old thing tt I’ve always been wondering for quite some time now… Should I even think abt starting a relationship now??? I mean, in the past, I knew better than to be in one cause study comes 1st… However, now tt exams are over, I could consider right, with so much time on my hands and all… Tt’s my heart talking… My brain on the other hand, is telling me tt it’s not the right time as clearly, I’m not the type who would place relationships as 1st priority… To me, gaming is my love… Hence no matter how much I longed to be loved, it’s not really… Correct as I don’t think I’m able to give my fullest attention and not doing tt totally defeats the purpose in being a relationship…
Imagine… My other half calls to ask me out for shopping/ movie watching/ stoning and what’s my reply??? ‘Sry, I can’t make it… I wanna stay @ home to play DOTA/ MS/ RO/ Digimon World 2…’ Can you reckon how horrible it is??? I betcha the relationship wouldn’t even last past a mth…
Oh WTH… Guess this is a very good example of yearning for something tt you don’t have… And once you have it, you realized tt it’s not so great after all… What can I say??? I’m human after all…
Anyway, probably last [Wed] or [Tue], I had a nightmare, one tt feels and sounds totally real to me… In the past, the dreams tt I have are all abt me and some hunks, which I totally know tt are not going to happen, not in a thousand years, or even in my next 10 lifetimes… Unless I’m reincarnated as a female, tt is… Anyway, I dreamt tt I’ve gotten back my exams result and I got a ‘B’ for [Maths]!!! Can you believe it?! A ‘B’!!! And tt’s not the end… I totally flunk my [GP] in tt dream of mine… Scored a G8 for it… Now, anyone seeing tt would know tt it’s not possible cause there’s only E8… But being in a dream, with illogical being the only logic, when I saw the ‘G’, and realized tt it’s after ‘F’, I immediately drew the conclusion tt I’ve flunk tt subject badly… Plus I still remember talking on the phone with [ShunMing], and going like ‘Shit, I fail my [GP], how am I going to face my dad???’ With tt, I got out of my nightmare, not feeling very well, wondering if whatever I’ve experience is indeed reality…
And tt’s not the end of my problems… I’m losing my appetite… Even when I’m hungry, when food is served, I feel full and can’t eat as much like I used to… I have no idea why my appetite can disappear so fast… Post exams stress??? Pre army stress??? Perhaps… Somehow, I feel tt it’s unjust… I want to touch my com more… Play MS like I’ve never played before… Yet I can’t thanks to whatever I’m going through… And to divine intervention as well… Of all the time to not have internet connection, it has to be now… Because of who knows what probs, I can only access the internet for the 1st 15 mins every time I turn on the com… Surprisingly though, I can use MSN to chat and receive pics, even though the transfer time is horrendously slow… Oh well, could be some virus or spyware tt couldn’t be detected… My dad’s contemplating re-formatting the com and I second tt… As long as he does it asap, and not after I enter you-know-where… It’s pointless then… Zzz…
Oh well… Signing off now… Heke… =D
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
Chalet...
After my usual once-in-2/3-mths skin check-up @ the [National Skin Centre] which I'm beginning to get really sick of, I went for lunch... To be precise, @ [United Square]'s [Food Junction]... I had [Ham & Mushroom Pasta], thinking tt since I've had it before in the past, it should be rather edible and tasteful, @ the very least...
Yet I was horribly wrong... The pasta's tomato sauce was choke full of herbs and the mushroom looks poisonous... Worse... There's no grated cheese on the pasta unless you ask for it personally... Sheesh!!! I'm bitten twice and if I don't learn my lesson now, I simply couldn't be more dense...
Distasteful lunch aside, I met up with [Lynn] and both of us shared cost to have [Ben & Jerry's]... We had the waffle + 3 scoops of ice cream + toppings ice-cream, whatever the name of tt thing is and yupz, it's indeed delicious... If I have the chance, I'll definitely eat it again, even though it's a little bit on the expensive side...
After tt sinful and filling meal, we headed to [Pasir Ris] and *gasp*... I've absolutely no, as in nada, idea on how to get to [Aloha Loyang], let alone know where on earth is the free shuttle service... Tt's a little retarded I know... But I was too busy playing [MS] the day before and I forgot to take note of those details... Hence I called the ever trustworthy [YH] for help and I betcha she's on the brink of an imminent heart failure as she's talking to be... Nevertheless, I managed to get to the chalet... Yes, we walked there, when it's raining... A freaking 20 mins walk!!! Gosh!!!
Once @ the chalet, the 1st thing I did was to operate the [PS2] and play [Worms 4] with [Mr. Ling], [RN] and [Lynn]... The 1st round, everyone ganed up on [Mr. Ling] and beat him to a pulp (not literally) in less than 10 mins... the 2nd round though, they ganged up on me... But because of [Lady Luck], I managed to escape being trashed... However, the game ened prematurely due to arrival of the rest of [deCliques]...
Moving on, I played a game of [Reversi] with [Quin] and it's an interesting game... Just imgine... Me, her opponent, teaching her how to win... Ironic isn't it??? On the surface, tt seemed to be the case... But analyse the situation deeper, both of us are learning abt our short-comings and in tt process, attain knowledge on becoming better players... Wah!!! So chim!!! LOL...
The [BBQ] started then and I still continued to play the [PS2], [Naruto] & [Worms]... LOL... I didn't even bother abt the food and I only ate 1 sotong ball... Surprisingly though, I wasn't even hungry... Guess as long as I have games, nothing else matters...
Tt pt is proven as I watched some play [MJ] till abt 2 am... Surprised by [Joan]'s hidden talents @ [MJ]... [KL], [Ryl], [Lynn], [Reina], [Quin], [ZS] and [J] then decided to head to [DownTown East] for food and I tagged along, hoping to be able to make my presence felt @ the 24-hr arcade...
Alas, by the time we arrived @ [DownTown East], everything's closed!!! Even those so-called 24-hrs shops like [Cheers] and [X-Zone] are closed!!! C-L-O-S-E-D!!! I can't believe it!!! My hopes of playing the arcade are dashed in an instance... *Sob*... So we stoned a little before heading to [Mac] (where else???) for a bite... Isn't tt dumb??? Spend 20 mins walking just to eat [Mac] when you can save tt time by ordering delivery... Dotzzz...
Heke... It's only @ abt this time, 3.30 am tt I felt hungry... Surprised isn't it??? 12 hrs w/o food and I don't feel starved!!! Am I human??? Or do I simply have too much hidden fats under my clothes to burn??? I'm guessing the later...
Anyway, before I digress further, they ate [Mac] breakfast @ 4 am and after tt, we headed back to the chalet... It's creepy... Imagine walking past all those private houses, dilapidated houses tt're for sales in the wee morning of the day when the sun isn't out... What if there's a ghost sighting??? Or a psycho??? Won't our lives be in danger??? Hey... Some psycho go after guys as well okay?! Tt's why they're called p-s-y-c-h-o right???
We managed to arrived @ the chalet safe and sound and some ppl are playing [PS2] while others are doing [MJ]... I chose [MJ] and [Quin], [ZS], [TY] and I played till like abt 8.50 am... From 5 am plus till tt time... LOL... Super pro right??? However, because of [Lady Luck] helping me during my game of [Worms 4], she wasn't with me when I needed her most when we're playing [MJ]... With cash... *Sigh*... As a result, I lost $4.50... Grrr... It's [Murphy Laws] I tell you... When we're not playing with cash, I did win a few rounds here and there... But when we're playing cash, I became everyone's [God Of Fortune]... Grrr...
Oh well... Headed back to home sweet home after tt and I fell crashed the moment I touch my bed (after I shower and brush my teeth obviously)... It's shocking I tell you!!! 5 hrs of sleep and I didn't even hear the vaccuum cleaner when [Sis] did vaccuumed the house... Guess I'm really tired...
Hmmm... Oh ya... Once more thing before I end and watch my beloved [Death Note] anime... It's known tt mint [Mentos] - whatever type, as long as they're mint - can cause explosion when it reacts with coke (try it yourself), as well as kill sperms... So as I was eating my [SpearMint] sweet, there's advice for me not to eat too much... I appreciate their concern... But hey!!! I'm only a kid!!! Losing millions of sperms wouldn't kill... It's not like the sweet's gonna make me infertile... Sperms are constantly being reproduced and they constantly die as well... So what if I'm catalysing their deaths??? I don't need them anyway... Not now, not ever... *Grins*
Yet I was horribly wrong... The pasta's tomato sauce was choke full of herbs and the mushroom looks poisonous... Worse... There's no grated cheese on the pasta unless you ask for it personally... Sheesh!!! I'm bitten twice and if I don't learn my lesson now, I simply couldn't be more dense...
Distasteful lunch aside, I met up with [Lynn] and both of us shared cost to have [Ben & Jerry's]... We had the waffle + 3 scoops of ice cream + toppings ice-cream, whatever the name of tt thing is and yupz, it's indeed delicious... If I have the chance, I'll definitely eat it again, even though it's a little bit on the expensive side...
After tt sinful and filling meal, we headed to [Pasir Ris] and *gasp*... I've absolutely no, as in nada, idea on how to get to [Aloha Loyang], let alone know where on earth is the free shuttle service... Tt's a little retarded I know... But I was too busy playing [MS] the day before and I forgot to take note of those details... Hence I called the ever trustworthy [YH] for help and I betcha she's on the brink of an imminent heart failure as she's talking to be... Nevertheless, I managed to get to the chalet... Yes, we walked there, when it's raining... A freaking 20 mins walk!!! Gosh!!!
Once @ the chalet, the 1st thing I did was to operate the [PS2] and play [Worms 4] with [Mr. Ling], [RN] and [Lynn]... The 1st round, everyone ganed up on [Mr. Ling] and beat him to a pulp (not literally) in less than 10 mins... the 2nd round though, they ganged up on me... But because of [Lady Luck], I managed to escape being trashed... However, the game ened prematurely due to arrival of the rest of [deCliques]...
Moving on, I played a game of [Reversi] with [Quin] and it's an interesting game... Just imgine... Me, her opponent, teaching her how to win... Ironic isn't it??? On the surface, tt seemed to be the case... But analyse the situation deeper, both of us are learning abt our short-comings and in tt process, attain knowledge on becoming better players... Wah!!! So chim!!! LOL...
The [BBQ] started then and I still continued to play the [PS2], [Naruto] & [Worms]... LOL... I didn't even bother abt the food and I only ate 1 sotong ball... Surprisingly though, I wasn't even hungry... Guess as long as I have games, nothing else matters...
Tt pt is proven as I watched some play [MJ] till abt 2 am... Surprised by [Joan]'s hidden talents @ [MJ]... [KL], [Ryl], [Lynn], [Reina], [Quin], [ZS] and [J] then decided to head to [DownTown East] for food and I tagged along, hoping to be able to make my presence felt @ the 24-hr arcade...
Alas, by the time we arrived @ [DownTown East], everything's closed!!! Even those so-called 24-hrs shops like [Cheers] and [X-Zone] are closed!!! C-L-O-S-E-D!!! I can't believe it!!! My hopes of playing the arcade are dashed in an instance... *Sob*... So we stoned a little before heading to [Mac] (where else???) for a bite... Isn't tt dumb??? Spend 20 mins walking just to eat [Mac] when you can save tt time by ordering delivery... Dotzzz...
Heke... It's only @ abt this time, 3.30 am tt I felt hungry... Surprised isn't it??? 12 hrs w/o food and I don't feel starved!!! Am I human??? Or do I simply have too much hidden fats under my clothes to burn??? I'm guessing the later...
Anyway, before I digress further, they ate [Mac] breakfast @ 4 am and after tt, we headed back to the chalet... It's creepy... Imagine walking past all those private houses, dilapidated houses tt're for sales in the wee morning of the day when the sun isn't out... What if there's a ghost sighting??? Or a psycho??? Won't our lives be in danger??? Hey... Some psycho go after guys as well okay?! Tt's why they're called p-s-y-c-h-o right???
We managed to arrived @ the chalet safe and sound and some ppl are playing [PS2] while others are doing [MJ]... I chose [MJ] and [Quin], [ZS], [TY] and I played till like abt 8.50 am... From 5 am plus till tt time... LOL... Super pro right??? However, because of [Lady Luck] helping me during my game of [Worms 4], she wasn't with me when I needed her most when we're playing [MJ]... With cash... *Sigh*... As a result, I lost $4.50... Grrr... It's [Murphy Laws] I tell you... When we're not playing with cash, I did win a few rounds here and there... But when we're playing cash, I became everyone's [God Of Fortune]... Grrr...
Oh well... Headed back to home sweet home after tt and I fell crashed the moment I touch my bed (after I shower and brush my teeth obviously)... It's shocking I tell you!!! 5 hrs of sleep and I didn't even hear the vaccuum cleaner when [Sis] did vaccuumed the house... Guess I'm really tired...
Hmmm... Oh ya... Once more thing before I end and watch my beloved [Death Note] anime... It's known tt mint [Mentos] - whatever type, as long as they're mint - can cause explosion when it reacts with coke (try it yourself), as well as kill sperms... So as I was eating my [SpearMint] sweet, there's advice for me not to eat too much... I appreciate their concern... But hey!!! I'm only a kid!!! Losing millions of sperms wouldn't kill... It's not like the sweet's gonna make me infertile... Sperms are constantly being reproduced and they constantly die as well... So what if I'm catalysing their deaths??? I don't need them anyway... Not now, not ever... *Grins*
Saturday, November 18, 2006
A Different Sat...
Today feels totally different... I mean, there's no more need to rush to complete your assignments or revise your work... The entire day feels empty... Well, not exactly empty empty... After I've watched [Get Backers] and had my breakfast @ the same time, I went to my room to do some serious cleaning...
You should see the amount of papers (and hence the amt of trees tt died) I've collected over the past 2 yrs... It's like 4 large plastic bags full!!! Ignoring the environmental costs, the disposing of all those worksheets and the thought of not seeing them ever again seriously thrills me... There's no longer the need to bother abt the structures of [Terelyn], [Nylon 6] or [Nylon 66], the distinguishing tests of carbonyl, tri-iodomethane and 2,4-DNPH ever again!!! Wow... Look @ the amt of brain space I've liberated for [MS]... LOL...
So once I'm done with dumping all those waste papers into the store room, I help my sis wrap her textbooks... @ least I'm doing some productive work here... Oh and as I was looking through her [A-Maths] book, the topics totally shocked me!!! She like learning [Partial Fractions], integrating expressions like 1/(ax+b) and the factor formula for trigo... Can you imagine how fast children are nowadays??? They're like 2 yrs in advance... Ya... She's in [Sec 3] and those topics are like [J1] standards... Sigh... Guess as we get more developed, the poor next generations have more to learn @ a younger age... Perhaps you can say tt tt's the price of development - higher standard of living, but lower quality of life???
Taking abt quality of life, mine's not improving despite the hols... And the root of tt huge prob lies within my [Dad]... Fancy him telling me to do more cleaning today, when I've just finsihed clearing my worksheets and I'm just starting my hols... Gee... Can't he just leave whatever tt's in my drawer untouched instead of thinking of clearing them??? I can really imagine how next [Thurs] will be like already... I'll be stucked in my room, with a rag full of chemicals, removing all my items in the drawer and cleaning the drawer... My poor hands will suffer in the long run and if tt's going to turn into reality, I'll seriously throw everything away... I mean, I hardly touch anything in my drawer ever since the last time I cleaned it... So I might as well throw everything and create more space... I see no pt in keeping them for 'just in case I'll use them in the future' scenerios...
Apart from tt, I was discussing with [Mum] on where to buy my [Grad Night] clothes and what time should I set off on the actual [Grad Night] as I planned to have my haircut first before heading for the dinner... Then [Dad] interjected our conversation and he exclaimed this...
'KNS la you, worse than a woman... Must go for a haircut 1st... KNS...'
After hering tt, my conversation with [Mum] ended abruptly and I'm seriously fuming on the inside... For starters, if I'm worse than a woman, I wouldn't only go for a haircut... I mean, [deClique]'s already planning to hire some makeup personale to help them with their makeup and hairdo... So comapred to them, I'm better than woman, not worse off!!!
Second, is it so wrong to look my best on tt day??? It's the last time we'll be seeing everyone and I just wanna look my best... Is there fault in it?! Can't they be more understanding even though they didn't even go through tt phase ever in their lives??? Perhaps to them, [Grad Night] is just a dinner and there's no need to kick up a big fuss... But well, they are simply wrong...
Hmmm... I'll stop here for now... I'll blog next wk, when I return from my class chalet... Until then, tata my friends...
You should see the amount of papers (and hence the amt of trees tt died) I've collected over the past 2 yrs... It's like 4 large plastic bags full!!! Ignoring the environmental costs, the disposing of all those worksheets and the thought of not seeing them ever again seriously thrills me... There's no longer the need to bother abt the structures of [Terelyn], [Nylon 6] or [Nylon 66], the distinguishing tests of carbonyl, tri-iodomethane and 2,4-DNPH ever again!!! Wow... Look @ the amt of brain space I've liberated for [MS]... LOL...
So once I'm done with dumping all those waste papers into the store room, I help my sis wrap her textbooks... @ least I'm doing some productive work here... Oh and as I was looking through her [A-Maths] book, the topics totally shocked me!!! She like learning [Partial Fractions], integrating expressions like 1/(ax+b) and the factor formula for trigo... Can you imagine how fast children are nowadays??? They're like 2 yrs in advance... Ya... She's in [Sec 3] and those topics are like [J1] standards... Sigh... Guess as we get more developed, the poor next generations have more to learn @ a younger age... Perhaps you can say tt tt's the price of development - higher standard of living, but lower quality of life???
Taking abt quality of life, mine's not improving despite the hols... And the root of tt huge prob lies within my [Dad]... Fancy him telling me to do more cleaning today, when I've just finsihed clearing my worksheets and I'm just starting my hols... Gee... Can't he just leave whatever tt's in my drawer untouched instead of thinking of clearing them??? I can really imagine how next [Thurs] will be like already... I'll be stucked in my room, with a rag full of chemicals, removing all my items in the drawer and cleaning the drawer... My poor hands will suffer in the long run and if tt's going to turn into reality, I'll seriously throw everything away... I mean, I hardly touch anything in my drawer ever since the last time I cleaned it... So I might as well throw everything and create more space... I see no pt in keeping them for 'just in case I'll use them in the future' scenerios...
Apart from tt, I was discussing with [Mum] on where to buy my [Grad Night] clothes and what time should I set off on the actual [Grad Night] as I planned to have my haircut first before heading for the dinner... Then [Dad] interjected our conversation and he exclaimed this...
'KNS la you, worse than a woman... Must go for a haircut 1st... KNS...'
After hering tt, my conversation with [Mum] ended abruptly and I'm seriously fuming on the inside... For starters, if I'm worse than a woman, I wouldn't only go for a haircut... I mean, [deClique]'s already planning to hire some makeup personale to help them with their makeup and hairdo... So comapred to them, I'm better than woman, not worse off!!!
Second, is it so wrong to look my best on tt day??? It's the last time we'll be seeing everyone and I just wanna look my best... Is there fault in it?! Can't they be more understanding even though they didn't even go through tt phase ever in their lives??? Perhaps to them, [Grad Night] is just a dinner and there's no need to kick up a big fuss... But well, they are simply wrong...
Hmmm... I'll stop here for now... I'll blog next wk, when I return from my class chalet... Until then, tata my friends...
Friday, November 17, 2006
Moving On...
Gosh... It's finally over!!! After slogging for 2 yrs, @ last, the battle's over... The results aren't out yet, so I know I shouldn't be jumping for glee now... There's always the 'what ifs'... But oh heck... If I'm to spend my short (I really meant short) hols groaning and worrying and whining abt how tough the papers are, the careless mistakes I've made, etc... Life's going to be super boring...
So like what I do after every exams, I'll just sit back, and have tons of fun in front of the com... Rot like there's no tml and oh, dispose of all my worksheets and TYS... LOL... If the teachers didn't force us to buy the TYS, I wouldn't even have bothered... Those books are super new and I betcha tt I can even sell the books higher than the cost prices... With all the valuable, neat notes tt're in there, how can the value depreciate???
Enough abt studying and everything... There's so many thngs to do and I can't wait to put them all in action... But before I do tt, lemme list them all down first... Here goes...
1. Watch [Death Note] anime
2. Watch [Tsubasa Chronicles] anime
3. Watch [It Started With A Kiss]
4. Watch [The Covanent] with friends
5. Reunite with my bf!!!
6. Change blogskin
Surprised with no. 5??? LOL... I was totally devastated when we break up... And it's been like 4 - 5 mths already... But look @ me!!! I'm not a least bit affected by it... Instead, I managed to turn all those negative thoughts into my inspiration to study, even though it was a struggle... Who knows??? We managed to patch things up and now, I'm living happily ever after with my beloved!!! We'll surely make it past our 2 yrs, me and my [MS]!!! LOL...
Oh well... Now tt [blogskins.com]'s updating stuff... I guess I've no choice but to do it later... Now I shall rendevous with my beloved... Tata~...
P.S: I beg of you... No spamming of the taggy anymore!!! Just because I'm away studying doesn't mean you can drive me to my grave... Behold my wrath!!!
So like what I do after every exams, I'll just sit back, and have tons of fun in front of the com... Rot like there's no tml and oh, dispose of all my worksheets and TYS... LOL... If the teachers didn't force us to buy the TYS, I wouldn't even have bothered... Those books are super new and I betcha tt I can even sell the books higher than the cost prices... With all the valuable, neat notes tt're in there, how can the value depreciate???
Enough abt studying and everything... There's so many thngs to do and I can't wait to put them all in action... But before I do tt, lemme list them all down first... Here goes...
1. Watch [Death Note] anime
2. Watch [Tsubasa Chronicles] anime
3. Watch [It Started With A Kiss]
4. Watch [The Covanent] with friends
5. Reunite with my bf!!!
6. Change blogskin
Surprised with no. 5??? LOL... I was totally devastated when we break up... And it's been like 4 - 5 mths already... But look @ me!!! I'm not a least bit affected by it... Instead, I managed to turn all those negative thoughts into my inspiration to study, even though it was a struggle... Who knows??? We managed to patch things up and now, I'm living happily ever after with my beloved!!! We'll surely make it past our 2 yrs, me and my [MS]!!! LOL...
Oh well... Now tt [blogskins.com]'s updating stuff... I guess I've no choice but to do it later... Now I shall rendevous with my beloved... Tata~...
P.S: I beg of you... No spamming of the taggy anymore!!! Just because I'm away studying doesn't mean you can drive me to my grave... Behold my wrath!!!
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