Blissful Week... (Imported From Xanga)

This week is indeed blissful... I'm only having like 2 working days!!! [Mon] I have a med appointment in the morning and after tt, I took afternoon leave, allowing me to enjoy a few more hours of com time, playing [StarCraft], blog and upload pics... The following 2 days are my so-called working days as there's much to do anyway... I wasn't impaled with any arrows and thus, I have tons of time to relax and to read [UnderWorld] (I'll get to this later)... Then there's [Thur] and [Fri], where I'm down for [Open Office 2.0 Basic Writer] course... It's similar to tt of [Microsoft Word] and it's free, so [SAF] is using tt... Hence, to get to know the UI and features better, my boss signed me up for the course... Even though I'm spending similar time attending the course as I'm working, I'm not complaining... Hell, it's 2 days away from work and wearing tt uniform 2 times lesser!!!

Okay, so I did mention abt [UnderWorld]... Yes, I've watch the movie and it's going to be a habit to read the novel as well... It's not a waste of time, like some might think as the novel gives insights of what are the characters' thoughts and feelings... Emotions and information that the movie might miss out on due to time constrain... LOL... And then there's all those witty comments as well...

Oh well... Guess I shall stop here for the day... Wanna play [StarCraft] again... ^_^

P.S: Can't wait for tml and I have not forgotten abt the [Ouran] pics... But why none of you fancy the twins??? *Sob* And what's with the craze on Jap hunks all of a sudden?!

Food, Obsession, Urges... (Imported From Xanga)

I love sweet stuff!!! It's not a declaration or anything... It's just a statement of fact... I really do like sweet stuff... Cakes, tarts, sweets, anything except chocolate, I'll gladly eat them and ask for more... The sweetness is simply too alluring!!! I didn't know my craving for sweet stuff's so strong... Maybe I'm hungry, or I haven't been satisfying my cravings for too long a time, or maybe it's a combination of both... But today when I'm eating a peach tart from [Polar], my stomach immediately ask for more and I suddenly feel even more hungry... Guess the sight of me devouring the tart in a frenzied manner is the indication I need more sweet stuff to tame my cravings... LOL... To think tt [Hana Kimi] actually says tt only girls like sweet stuff...

Anyway, I'm seriously obsessed with anything yaoi, brokeback or anything with hunks in them, be it in anime form or real actors... So yeah, I'm not really a guy guy since I'm obsessing over those things tt most guys would shun away like it's some kinda mutated flesh eating virus... But to hell with tt... I'm obsessing over it and I'm not afraid to show it...

OMG... Aren't the twins like, super adorable?! I serious like them and pardon moi, but I do wanna be with the 2 of them!!! A threesome!!!

Of course, to be fair, I have to include the pics of the other characters in the anime as well right??? (I so do not wanna get flanked by the [Tamaki], [Mori], [Honey], [Kyouya] and [Haruhi] fans)... LOL... But frankly, the pic with [Honey] with a pumpkin head dress is really kawaii!!! ^_^

Last but not least, I, being human, do have urges as well... Out of nowhere, I suddenly feel like playing some of my old [PS] games, games like [Harvest Moon: Back To Nature] and [GunBound]... If you haven't realised by now, I've totally deserted [Digimon World 2] after a short play time of merely less than 24 hrs... How fickle minded can I be??? Hoho... Wonder when I'll lose interest in those above mentioned games and move back to [FFVIII] which I've yet to complete and [AnimaRO] - provided tt I can get the game running...

Of course, those are my normal urges... There's also the urge to jump a good looking guy who's older than me and with a body to die for and a good character and one tt's not looking for a fling... Of course, tt'll happen like only in my twisted dreams... Invoked when I watch [Hana Kimi] or of late [After Hours]... Seriously, [Utt] is HOT!!! I must get hold of his pics 1 way or another... Ohhh... [Utt]!!!

Oh no... My brain's getting more twisted by the moment with all those adorable pics and sinful thoughts... May my knight in shining armour come resue me!!!

Growing Apprehension... (Imported From Xanga)

I was chatting with [Sis] early this morning and I told her tt I've switched to [Xanga]... It's only then tt I realised tt she can blog 2 her [Blogger.com]... Now this made me consider the possibility tt maybe it's my user tt's having problems, not the whole com... Maybe if I use her user, I could blog as well!!! Now I'm not going to put tt hypothesis to the test or else all my efforts of creating this blog will go to waste and I've effectively wasted all my time and effort... It's better to be ignorant in times like this so tt I can avoid the hurtful truth...

Oh well, I do hope tt someone could help me in issues of [Xanga]... If whatever tt I'm doing now is already all tt is to this blog provider, then I must say tt [Blogger.com] offer bloggers more flexibility to really do whatever they want as their creativity is stretch to their limit to design their dream blog, unlike [Xanga] where almost everything's done for you and you can't really add more stuff, whereever and however we want it to be in the blog... Let's hope tt I'm wrong...

Please comment or tag or sign my guestbook, anything!!! I feel so isolated!!! *Sob*

Another Chance To Destress!!! (Imported From Xanga)

Finally!!! After being away from the blogosphere, I finally get to blog again!!! Rejoice!!! *fireworks* Let's just hope tt I won't and never will get the same problem again... Tt sense of dis-connectedness... Tsk...

Anyway, my mood has taken a turn for the worse of late due to the online admission for the universities... It's not the online application's fault... It's once again my dad... He's creating all these uncessary stress for me in such a way tt I find it hard to concentrate and produce those optional essay tt I wanna include in the online application... I mean, can't he give me time to think through my essay and stop reminding me tt I still have a essay to write every other day... It's irritating and tt's driving my inspiration away...

Let's face it... If I can pen those essays on demand, then my [GP] grade wouldn't be so sucky and he doesn't have to remind me so often... Heck, I could even complete the both essay in a day if I'm tt good... But I'm not and he doesn't understand it...

Moreover, I have a feeling tt he doens't trust me very much... I mean, it's our practice to SMS him whenever I'm home from sch in the past, and now work... However, yesterday, when he didn't receive my SMS, he immediatedly assumed tt I've forgotten abt it as he didn't receive my SMS... I wouldn't be so mad if he had asked politely... But NO... When he came home, he questioned me with tt stern look of his, 'Your phone spoil is it? Never SMS me when you're home... If you're late, @ least SMS me la...' Tt enraged me... He could have asked if I did SMS him 1st before jumping to conclusions... If I had, which for the record, I did, then it's the delay in him receiving the SMS... It has nth to do with me already and thus, I've been wrongly accused yet again...

Then there's the matter of today... He saw me key in the application no. (I need it to pay the application fee to NUS via the ATM) in my HP and as we were abt to leave the house, he asked me if I have the application no. with me... 'I already save it in my phone what,' was my reply... Guess what happened next??? He blew his top and thundered if I'm playing punk with him... Oh for heaven's sake, indirectly, I'm saying 'yes'... But he obviously didn't catch it and has to be told directly with a 'yes'... Gee... Can't I give my answer in a more innovative way with the same meaning nonetheless??? *Tsk* With tt, my whole [Sat] was ruined...

He obviously doesn't understand me... When my plan is to stay @ home... I mean it... I do not wanna go out and I wanna, well, stay @ home and use the com... I can't believe he's so dense to be unable to see my point... I want my undisturbed weekend, doing what I want!!! Can't I even have tt simple wish of mine???

Before I sign off, sometimes I wonder if he's really trying to communicate with me... Today, when he blew his top, he asked what was my problem... Like hell am I gonna complain to him when he's angry... I doubt anyone would want to pour out their problems in tt manner, unless they've lost their minds...

After complaining... I guess it's my fault to begin with... If only I have noticed tt the NTU essay's optional, I would've 1 less essay to write and perhaps, none of these would happen le...

It's Impossible To Deny...

No matter how hard I try to deny the fact tt I'm partially blind, to pretend tt I'm totally normal, the fact is tt my eyesight is worsening... I'm not being pessimistic... I'm merely stating the fact...

I'm constantly reminded of my condition... When I bump into ppl on the street, or when I knocked into something or some kid, when I can't see objects tt's right in front of me, when I can't see in the dark... All these are just some of the situations tt remind me tt I'm not normal... And it can get fustrating @ times, like today...

I wasn't looking @ where I'm walking... I was looking @ a door tt's open to my right... It's supposed to be closed, so it caught my attention... Yet just as I was day dreaming and not looking straight, a lady bumped into me and I apologised... Most ppl would ignore me or just accept my apology, rendering me slightly embarrassed... Yet she was those minority (ppl tt wore heels with their manicured toes exposed) tt would kick up a big fuss over tt knock... And tt reminds me of my eye condition, spoiling my day...

Worse yet, the best she could complain @ the bump was, 'Aiyo, how you walk one?'... Tt pissed me even more as I was so tempted to reply, 'DUH!!! Using my legs la!!!' Moreoever, if she wanna blame someone, she should blame herself as well for not looking @ where she's walking, or for assuming tt she's so slim (or tt the walkway is very spacious) for the 2 of us to walk abreast... Seriously, tt lady has some issues with her size...

I'm not prejudice towards her or anything, mind you... It's just tt the reminder of my condition, tt I'm not normal (pun intended) irks me once in a while... LOL... I call tt my PMS syndrom... *Sigh* Guess I'll end here... ^_^

Time To Spare...

A couple of days ago, on 02/03/2007, [Friday] to be exact, I went back to [PJC] to get back my 'A' Level results... The sch did exceptionally well with respect to previous years... What do you expect anyway??? Tt's the dragon batch, mind you... We're the once making miracles, setting an even higher expection for the snake babies, causing them to be even more stress then they would wanna be... Hmmm... News travel fast, so I reckon tt everyone tt I know already knew of my performances... However, I still wanna put those alphabets down, to capture the emotions and memories of this particular time as I key this entry down...

Maths 9233, Chemistry, Physics - An 'A' each...
Economics - B (I'm surprised by this...)
English - C6 (I'm being optimistic by saying tt I ought to be glad tt I didn't get a D7 or worse, fail)

I have yet to decide on which Uni to pursue my Biz course... On one hand, a lot of ppl have been saying tt [NUS] is the better choice as it excel in tt course... On the other hand, [NTU] offers a 3 yrs course and it's a direct honors as well... Furthermore, the honors' recoginsed by both the [British] & [US]... Which should I go??? Guess I'll only make up my mind when I attend the open houses of both Unis during this coming weekend... You know, understanding the environment and all...

Now it's time for my sick mind to take over... As i was bathing, I suddenly thought abt [Soon Leng]... Not in those kinda perverted manner, mind you... Though, now tt I think abt it, I don't mind if tt perverted dream becomes reality...

*Slap* I'm seriously gonna turn into [Xuyi] soon... Being so retarded... I'm already almost like him, denying my perference for guys as if being gay is such a sin... Oh wait... It is such a sin... I betcha my parents gonna flip if they know abt this... So hush okay!!! *Frantic look*

Oh well, looking forward to my own next entry... Don't really have much time to blog nowadays... *Sad look* ='(