Losing Control Of Time...

I've finally completed transferring all my posts from [Xanga] back here... Yes, I know it's abt time and I can already hear [YH]'s voice nagging in my mind... Perhaps my alter-ego's trying to take control and smack me for taking such a craptastically long time to do such a simple task...

*Sigh* Somehow, I'm finding myself in a sticky situation... I want to blog, abt what I've been doing with my life... Yet if my life is too exciting, filled with too much outings, how on Earth am I supposed to blog abt them all??? Worse still if pics are involved as more time has to be spent uploading them... Now this is where [MJ] and [SH] starts cursing me with their rainbow-coloured vacabulary for my lack of time management... I concede tt's partly the case for my inability to blog more frequently... The other reason (or excuse, depending on which side of the coin you're looking @) is my total lack of self-control... Tt's something which I desperately need to cultivate...

Throw me [SL] and my resolve goes out the window... Shove [Cabal] in front of my face and blogging goes down the drain... Give me anime, novels and TV dramas and it's effectively the end of my social life as you know it... Therefore, in a nutshell, I've built my life to be surrounded by 4 walls, a TV and a computer...

Like what [SH] says... My life is a freak show... Which is very apt... But me admitting to tt and my complain doesn't equate tt I'm unhappy with whatever I'm doing... Okay, maybe I'm a little unsatisfied... But tt's due to me having not enough time on my hands... If I were to not work for maybe a day or 2 - forever is the ideal situation, I could clear whatever tt's on my to-do list and I'll be happier...

Having a more extroverted life won't make me happier, if you're wondering abt this... Do you have any idea how expensive it is to maintain tt kinda lifestyle of going out almost every other day??? You can't expect me to spend all of my $600 allowance... Tt's ridiculous... One must always cater for wet weather emergencies and savings... Of course, the best way to grow more money is to invest, which in itself is a very bothersome issue due to the amt of research you'll have to do, the planning tt have to be done, to decide how much you want to invest and for how long...

Tt should be another story by itself... For now, I shall attempt to do some online research before I call it a day...

Anticipate for the next entry this coming weekend as it'll be filled with some pics and more bitching...

An Alternative...

Once again, it's been 2 weeks since my last entry and I couldn't help but wonder if this will continue on or the interval b/w posts will get longer, streching to 3 weeks per post to once a month before dying off completely...

I doubt tt will ever happen though... Blogging is the only way I'm keeping in touch with the outside world... Pathetic as it may sound, this is the truth... I hardly consider myself having any social life, so blogging is the only way for me to keep in touch with whoever I consider as a friend...

*Sigh* This entry seems quite useless and indeed it is as I couldn't play [Cabal] @ the moment while my songs are being transferred into my new [W960]... I've absolutely no idea what's the prob with the [Cabal] application... On most days, it could load w/o any probs, yet sometimes it couldn't load and I've to restart the com before it'll proceed to the log in page... Hmmm... Rather than killing my brain cells over something I'll never have an answer for, I'd do something more productive... Like playing [Audition]...

Tt sounds like a good proposition, but with the absence of friends to play with, like [MJ], it's pointless... LOL... I do have the feeling tt I'm going around in circles... Oh well, I reckon I'd better stop here for this entry...

May the inspiration comes for me to blog better... >_<

Facial...

It hurts...

It freaking hurts... All this time I've thought tt facials are painless massages tt affluent ppl do to maintain their good-looks... Today's experience proved tt I'm so wrong...

I went for my 1st facial @ [New York Skin Specialist]... The ladies there kept warning me tt it might hurt a little, but I guess their threshold of pain and mine was of totally different level... The moment they started the process of squeezing my whiteheads, I couldn't help squirming in pain and agony... I couldn't scream out loud and my tears was on the verge of forming from the pain, esp when the whiteheads were being extracted from my forehead, nose and chin...

It's truamatic, but it was worth it because from this, I've learnt how to take better care of my face and I'm totally respecting the opposite sex... It's amazing tt they could undergo so many facials and not give up by saying, 'GOD, IT FREAKING HURTS!!! I give up, I'd rather do some shopping instead...'

Therefore, for the sake of looking good once more, no matter how slim tt chance is, I shall endure the pain for the next 10 weeks... And I'm going to chant 'I'm very handsome' in front of the mirror for 15 mins daily just to gain more self-confidence...

Oh my, I'm actually obsessing abt my looks!!!

Anyway, I'm almost done with transferring my [Xanga] entries... I'm obviously taking my time as I don't see the need to rush... Besides, there still so many things tt I can do when I'm online, like watch [Hana Kimi - Jap], search for [Hana Kimi - Jap] pics, DL [Neo Angelique Abyss] pics, upload my pics, update my [Facebook], play [Cabal]... Then when I'm offline, I can read my novels, watch my animes and [The Legend]...

I'm obviously justifying (read: making excuses) my slow progress to get this blog up to date as well as to change the skin... To me, blogging is like mantaining a house... You have to keep it properly furnished, ensure tt there's proper house keeping and when it's time to re-renovate the house, there's no escaping it...

But the time isn't up yet... LOL!!! >_<

Human Relations...

There's a variety of bonds humans can form with one another - ionic, metallic or covalent bonds... I'm kidding, but the pt is tt they're all complicated and nerve wrecking, so maybe I can garner some advice through this channel...

It's interesting how friendships are easily formed and broken... Such cases usually arise when there's a clash of personalities... I usually try to tackle this approach passively, by reducing interaction to the instances when it's absolutely necessary... You would think tt this is a good enough hint for anyone with a decent amt of intellect... Yet it's fustrating when no one got the point and attempt to be ever friendly, by waiting for me when it's after work or accompanying me for lunch... It might seem triavia, but to me, it's an invasion to my personal space... I relish in being along, to be lost in my own world, to not be a hypocrite...

It's only a matter of time before I snap, but so far, I dare say tt I'm still doing a good job mantaining my cool... My patience is wearing thin, but I must remind myself not to be stressed over a person who is street-dumb... I'm no kidding, I really have to take my hats off him, for all the wrong reasons which I shall not mention, so as not to trumatise my future self when I chance upon this entry again...

Anyway, if I were to draw parallels to my other persistant issue, it's exactly similiar to tt of me and [SL]... I'm not saying tt I'm a street idiot... It's just tt I could be paranoid and imagine tt he's telling me to buzz off... Though I don't think there's any diff in being paranoid...

I guess it's really time to take tt hint, whether it's real or imagined, and move on... After all, I do think tt I wouldn't have much chance of actually being in a relationship, considering tt I usually think on the girl's point of view when I see a hunky-licious guy... Plus I've not even started on my inability to hold a conversation with a guy... You don't see guys gush abt cosplay, TV dramas or gossip and bitch like I do, which narrows down whatever I can talk abt with 50% of the human race to practically nth...

I'm better off being single and the stage where I blog abt my lack of love life is officially over... It's abt time, I know...