IMM... (Imported From Xanga)

I was totally shocked when [XP] dated me to [Fish & Co]... Considering tt [Fish & Co] is ex, her dating me out of the blue is really very surprising... Nevertheless, I agreed w/o much hesitation...

Met up with her @ [Jurong East] MRT Stn and we did some library walking before heading down to [IMM]... She ordered [Fried Calamari] while I ordered my usual [NY Fish & Chips] with the soup of the day - [Cream Of Mushroom]...

The soup's totally delicious... It isn't too creamy such tt after a few sips, you'll feel like puking... Even the serving is just nice, despite the initial thought tt it's too little... I don't know what's wrong with the restaurant today, but my [N Fish & Chips] is like extra large... The fish seems bigger than usual and there seems to be more fries as well... Of course, the moment tt was served, I instantly regretted not changing the fries to those rasin rice as I prefer the rice as it's not so heaty or oily... The calamari's scary as well because it's 1 big plate filled with lots of hugh fried calamaris...

In the end, I've to eat my meal slowly to finish the fish, which took us a total of like 1 hr... [XP] couldn't stand her big serving of squids as well so she decided to pack it home... Phew... I have this feeling tt this meal of mine is able to least me till tml's breakfast... LOL...

We walked around after tt to burn all those calories and to shop for gifts for those ppl whose b-day's getting closer... We had a hard time deciding what to buy as we have to decide whether we're going to buy something tt useful or something tt's for show only or something tt they like... The 3rd option's difficult to achieve when we don't know what they like so we've decided to buy something tt's useful and hopefully, appreciated... We managed to buy the presents after like 2 hrs of gruesome shopping... It's a pity tt I couldn't find some calender and [XP]'s fav [Bleach] poster got bought by someone else... And tt was like the last new copy... *Sigh* =(

It's good to be able to spend time with [XP]... Can't wait for next week when I'll be going over to her house once more... Tee-hee... And for 16 Feb as well for our [Gang] annual house visiting... Hmmm, I should get started with the countdowns... Heke... ^_^

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I think my rational mind over-ruled my emotions... I don't think I'm actually ready to be in a relationship yet... Considering the truth tt I would rather meet up with friends than to stay @ home and to chat with my potential Mr. Right, it's evident tt to me, friends are still more impt... Besides, this could be mere infatuation and I'm going through some phase in life, so I would just let destiny guide me on my path to see where it leads me...

Mentality... (Imported From Xanga)

2 days ago, my parents made a move tt I wasn't anticipating... They actually watch [Coffee Prince] with me... They didn't watch the whole show, simply the 1st 15 mins or so of it and during tt time, my opinion of them was proven right...

They're homophobic...

When [Hanjie] kissed [Encan], my parents actually made a big hoo-ha abt it and kept exclaiming something along the lines of 'OMG, does he ([Hanjie]) even know tt [Encan] is a girl?! And he still kissed him?! Gay arh!!!'... I managed to ignore them and to concentrate on the show... Yet part of me was aware and affected by their comments, which goes to say tt in the alternate reality where I actually confessed, my parents would most probably have a fit, a heart attack and disown me... Thus, I've decided to choose the less of the 2 evils and would rather keep this from my family... Better to let them assume tt I'm still in the phase in which I've yet to search for love...

Haha... If you really do put more thought into this, my situation is a striking resemblance to those shows whereby the male lead falls for the girl who cross-dresses and end up being tormented by the realisation tt he's gay... Except tt in my case, I actually fall for a guy...

*Sigh* I think I really have to stop thinking abt all this... Which is hard as I don't have anything to pre-occupy my thoughts... I desperately need to get back to studying so tt I can totally avoid all this madness tt I'm creating... Or to indulge in some RPG to numb my desire...

I want a PS3 so tt I can play [FFX], [FFX-2], [FFXII] & [FFXIII]...

My flight instinct is stronger than the need to confront and trash things out...

Messed Up... (Imported From Xanga)

I should refrain from counting the number of chicks even before they hatch, so everything is still undecided, unconfirmed... 1 thing is for sure though, I've still not a freaking clue as to whether I'm really, ready to be in a relationship...

The angel a.k.a my rational mind is saying tt I'm simply not ready... With gaming, animes and novels occupying my leisure time, I hardly have enough time left to actually participate in the whole dating process... Besides, when I actually enter [NUS] or [NTU], I wouldn't want to get distracted from my studies... I really have to put in more effort to restore all those dead brain cells, which is easier said than done... LOL...

Then the devil a.k.a my feelings is telling me to screw it and just to give it a try... It's not an everyday occurance tt some older guy will come knocking on my door to befriend me... If I screw this up, when my next chance will coming banging on the door is anyone's guess... Besides, I'm just dying to find out how the feeling's like...

Which doesn't mean tt I'll just jump head first into the pool, even though the devil is telling me to... The rational mind is still talking sense into me... I'm going to take baby steps, try out the baby pool first before venturing deeper... Yet whether I'll do as what my brains tell me, I've no idea... The barrier tt's preventing me from making some stupid, idiotic, irrational decision is like paper... Anytime, it'll break and tear...

*Groans*... I'm not making sense...Then again, emotions hardly make any sense... *Screams in fustration*

Like my whirlpool of thoughts, I'm totally messed up... Ugh, my desires and hormones are driving me crazy...

Craptastic Friday... (Imported From Xanga)

[Friday], the shortest and last working/school day for most... I always look forward to this particular day as I can finally get to relax after all those shitty days of working and being such a hypocrite...

Yet however, the expression TGIF didn't really cross my mind even @ the start of yesterday for I knew tt tons of crap will be raining down...

The despatch wasn't tt annoying as I get to slack abt as I deliver the documents to both [CMPB] & [MinDef]... It's 1 thing to take a good rest as the bus travels all over this tiny red dot and another when you wake up feeling the need to get more sleep... Though tt's the immediate effect of a power nap, the long term effect is more energy for you to burn... In my opinion, I'd rather stay in the office to work rather than catch some Zs and to postpone what can be done to the next working day...

@ least I'm making an effort to acheive my resolutions... ^_^

The despatch ended late, after 1700 hrs and I'm not complaining... Hell, the crap tt came yesterday happened after working hours, which is what pisses me off so much... A VIP visited our Institute and in conjunction with said visit, a 'Happy Hour' was organised for all of us... There's games, prizes to be won and free food and booze...

How sweet...

Except tt the bloody thing offically ended @ abt 2000 hrs thanks to all those officers who insist on playing 'Bingo' with 100 numbers... Gee, inagine the time taken to actually finish 2 games, each game consisting of 2 rounds... Throughout tt whole event, I was literally going crazy over the wasting of my precious time... I could have @ least done something more constructive rather than trying my luck @ winning some NTUC vouchers...

Now for the bloodiest news... There's nth for us to clean up after the event as the food's catered for so the caterer will do the cleaning up... As for the wine and booze, the mess will do their own cleaning up... Simply put, even though I was told to stay back and assist in cleaning the place up, there's no trash for us to clear...

What a load of bull and a complete waste of my time...

Thanks to the '(Un)Happy Hour', I almost miss my [Coffee Prince] on TV... Grrr...

Stupid, sucky, idiotic organisation... Thank goodness I'm left with less than a year in service and good riddence to all those horrible staff tt are leaving soon... I'm keeping my fingers crossed for a better replacement...

New Year's Resolutions... (Imported From Xanga)

It's such a pity tt I couldn't go to [YH]'s steamboat yesterday due to me being stucked in camp for the whole of yesterday... Actually, the real pity is tt I'm a guy... If I'm of the opposite gender, I wouldn't be unable to attend the steamboat... But I'll be able to stay over @ her place as well... Though my motive of staying over is to overheat her PS2, a little girl talk and/or bitching wouldn't hurt as well...Oh my... I just love gossiping...

With today being 1st Jan, [New Year's Day], let's usher in the new year and hope for tt this year will be a better one as compared to the previous... LOL...Resolutions... I haven't had any for last year... In fact, I hardly have any resolutions for the new year in the past as I think they're a waste of time... But this time, I'm gonna do some goal setting...

1. Stop being the leader of the largest nation in the world

2. Enrol myself in some e-learning courses to prepare myself for university

3. Attempt to cultivate the habit of reading the money section of [The Straits Times]

4. Be less of an introvert

5. Find a boyfriend

Gee... This is really a waste of time as whether I can actually achieve any of the 5 mentioned above is anyone's guess... Though I do hope tt I can achieve the last point mentioned... LOL...Now for the million dollar question... Am I actually ready to be in a relationship??? And how the hell does anyone know when they're ready??? -_-"'