Multiple Rants...

After procrastinating for real long, I've finally set my mind to do up a decent post tt consist of not the whiney rants abt my single status, but of the stuff tt I've done over the past couple of days...

Okay!!! The 1st thing tt I wanna talk abt it of ppl's strange behavior when they're in a queue... Ever noticed tt in those M/M/1 server, there's always someone who'll stand really, really close to the person currently being served??? This happened a couple of times to me and personally, I feel tt it's a total intrusion of my personal space... As if simply by standing nearer to me when I'm being served, you'll get your turn faster... News flash, tt's not gonna happen... In fact, I think tt'll lengthen the service time cause I'll be aware of some unholy presence and begin to get a little bit uncomfortable... Plus, it tempts me to simply 'accidentally' stumble back and knock onto you... And you totally deserve it...

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Some random pics tt I've taken during this mth...

My sis's friend's chihuahua... LOL... With its small frame, it's really a cutey... And I couldn't resist stroking its fur and carrying it in my arms, nvm tt it's tail keeps trembling, signaling tt it's afraid whenever I lift it off the ground... OPPS... I'm damn evil... WAHAHAHAHAHAHA...

But no matter what, [Jap Spitz] pups are still the best with its white fur and wolf like features... *SWOONS*

I crashed [DH]'s [Xmas] party with her [FOC] exco friends cause I was unfortunate enough to bumped into [M] while I was eating [SubWay] after catching [Rapunzel] by myself... And we ended up playing [Uno Stacko] 1st and it was exciting just knowing tt the structure might collapse anytime...

Of course, we did play [Monopoly Deal] too and I like tt game as well!!! It's a pity tt I can't truly enjoy it due to it being a game tt requires players to be able to see colours real well...

It seemed like I won some moolah... I should've followed [K] and send a reply and get them to donate everything away... ROFLMAO...

Speaking abt getting quick cash, it was only a couple of days ago tt I received an e-mail from sch asking me if I'm interested to participate in another survey... This time, I've to complete an online component as well as head to sch for another survey... It's estimated tt it'll take @ least 3 hrs to complete everything and we'll get $60 for our efforts...

W/o hesitation, I turned down the offer... Like WTH, right?! Where the hell can I ever find such good deals again??? And I won't get the chance to earn such easy $$$ again till the next academic yr starts... Yes, this is epic-ly dumb... -_-"'

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And just yesterday, I met up with both a few of [The Gang] gals & my uni friends for some cycling action... HAHA... It was such a great exercise tt I think I overdid the cycling by riding too fast... I ended with very, very, very sore legs... They were so sore tt I woke up in the middle of the night wincing in pain... Erpx... =(

The love cycling clique!!! HAHA!!! XD

This is like the only pic I have of any of us cycling... HAHA!!!



This is their 2nd dinner after what we had @ [Mac]'s... I've friends who are foodies cum great eaters... =D

Killing Time...

It's nearing impossible for me to blog on a weekly basis, mainly because there's not much going on in my life and my inner thoughts are getting increasingly messy, rendering myself unable to really put them in words...

Besides, I've never been much of a diary person and I've to admit, my initial purpose of starting this blog is to get the attention of my friends... Of course, with most of them no longer checking on my blog, blogging has been much like crapping in front of a wall...

So yeah... I'm now blogging mainly because I don't feel like playing games and I'm bored... In fact, for this post, I'm just blabbering just so tt I could keep myself occupied while my pics get uploaded on [PhotoBucket]...

Time seemed to be a jumble... Was it last wk or 2 wks ago tt I spoke to [MJ]??? Well, regardless of when, the fact is tt I did spoke to her and I would say tt she has been really patient to lend a listening ear to me, @ the time when I'm feeling so darn troubled...

'What do I really want???'

I'm now seeking the answer to this question... Am I really looking for someone whom I can spend the rest of my life with??? A sex partner??? A once off fling??? Or simply friends??? Frankly speaking, I still can't figure tt out for myself...

LOL... And it's usually @ this point where I'll usually stop whatever I'm blogging and simply push it to the back of my mind, ignoring it and simply deny the existence of such a prob... This time however, I've actually state the prob in words, admit tt I've no a single clue to this solution and wish like hell for an answer key...

I guess the state tt I'm in is all of my own doing... If only I'm contented with what I have and not constantly try to obtain what I would like to have, I'll definitely be a happier person...

I'm now in the vast open field, surrounded by fog w/o a working iPhone...

Rants...

I was supposed to blog abt a certain issue in my previous post as well, but I guess crossing paths with a complete stranger whom I consider as rather cute has gotten me a little... Distracted... -_-"'

Well, now tt it's in the middle of the night & I'm not really in the mood to watch any more videos for the day, I've decided to do some blogging to kill the time... Apart from logging into [FB] for the sole purpose of checking complete strangers out, as I've been doing ever since 1 yr ago, give or take a few days...

In life, I guess all of us will cross path with different ppl from all walks of life... I used to think tt this doesn't concern me @ all... What with me being a complete introvert, acquaintances just stay as tt, their status will never be upgraded... Combine this with my natural fear of strangers, I would admit tt I'm not quick to warm up to anyone...

The bottom-line??? I give of the impression tt I'm not very approachable...

However, the status quo changed around 15 mths ago, when I actually started uni life... Much as I like to shut myself up like I always do, I guess age has finally caught up with me and I'm starting to feel how lonely I am... The end result is tt I began to open up a little to my friends, sharing issues abt myself tt I'll never share THAT readily in the past...

In order words, I've began to not let whatever happened when I was in [KSS] haunt me any longer... I've actually let my guard down...

i initially thought this would work in my favor... Like, hey!!! Now tt I'm becoming slightly more sociable, perhaps my social circle could finally expand @ a faster pace... So, over these few mths, I've given it a shot and tried...

I would love to say tt despite the outcome not being what I've anticipated, I've made certain progress... However, truth be told, I'm really not sure whether I've made much progress @ all in the 1st place... But @ this pt in time, as I'm doing up this rather depressing post IMO, I'm sure of 1 thing...

I've completely & utterly lost who I am & I feel like I've accomplished nth but accumulate more regrets ever since 15 mths ago...

Okay, I admit tt this has been @ the back of my mind for quite some time already and all I've ever done was to push it to the back of my mind... And every single time when my feeble attempts to network failed, I'll delude myself by saying tt 'better luck next time!!!'... Tt false hope tt I've been harboring is no different to me slicing my arm up just to let it heal and slice it up once again, all the while pretending tt I won't be scarred @ all...

I guess the final straw came when someone whom I've always considered as a friend told me tt he has never considered me as a friend... This is as good as telling me tt the times we've had together hanging out, lunching & me lending a listening ear when you're down all meant nth and tt he has been playing with me...

It's 1 thing if we drifted apart after a while, but to say those words out loud, straight in my face... The hurt was really unimaginable... And the fact tt you've said it when you've had a fight with someone and you're not thinking clearly isn't really lessening the pain, not when there wasn't even an attempt to personally apologise...

It feels like what I've been thru in [KSS] all over... I feel like I've been stabbed in the back, betrayed... I guess I should let go of this and let go of more stuff, but I can't really bear to... Haha... In a sense I've sorta understand the magnitude of the saying tt it's hard to let go and harder to move on...

Perhaps in 29 days, when I make my way to the other side of the globe, when I'm away from this tiny red dot tt holds all these unpleasant memories, I might truly be able to heal my damaged heart... For now though, I think I better start to find more stuff to do to keep myself occupied...

While the hols are a good reprieve from the busy sch schedule, it has also given me more time to thing abt things tt I'd rather not thing abt... =(

Being Impeccably Dressed...

Finally!!! The worse is finally over!!! It's now the hols and the results won't be out till the 4 days before [X-Mas]... In the meantime, there's no use brooding over my performance... Off to the back of my head it goes and it's time to have tons of fun chillaxing... HAHA... XD

Anyway, here're some of the quirky and crazy stuff tt me & my friends did and/or saw while we're busily mugging for the dreadful finals...

[S] chanced upon this when she was on her way to [YIH]... EPIC!!! =P

This is an A4 piece of paper and [DH]'s notes for our [ACC1006] paper... Really, it's truly amazing tt she's able to write TT small and be able to locate all the stuff as well...

This is my masterpiece... Produced using [MS Word], font size 9... I kinda squeeze 2 pgs of the doc into 1 side of the paper just so I can add more notes... LOL...

I'm positive tt [NUS] is simply trying to make all of us short-sighted... ~_~

Fast forward to today, I met up with [SL], [YH], [MJ] & [Bec] for a mini gathering... The initial plan was to have lunch @ [Seoul Garden], but once we swayed all the way to the restaurant, we got news tt the place is totally packed and we've to be placed on the waiting list... If it's possible, I should've done an advance booking... So, there goes the thought of stuffing myself silly with meat... =(

Of course, it doesn't end there... After placing my name on the waiting list, which for the record, was totally useless because the waiter didn't even bother to give a return call like after the entire day... Anyway, we were wise enough to fall back on the other alternative, which was to head over to [CineLeisure]'s [Suki Sushi]... This time, THERE WASN'T ANY QUEUE @ ALL, so we just waltzed right in and started on the quest to make [Suki Sushi] suffer a net loss for the day...

[SL] had to leave mid-way... And we kinda ate more once he's gone... Machiam like we've to protect our image in front of him like tt... HAHA!!! -_-"'

I didn't take much pics this time, but thanks to [MJ] who made tt passing comment tt she thinks she saw someone who looks like [K]'s friend, it was only then tt I turned around and saw tt IT IS indeed [K]'s friend...

Okay, I really think doing this is kinda disturbing, but I can't resist... Heck, I seriously think I can stare @ this dude the entire day w/o getting bored... HAHA!!! XD

I'm impeccably dressed once again... =P